No one would do that to someone who thinks of them as their brother and he knew that he is doing a grave sin by breaking Alexandra's trust.
Alexandra woke up that day as he tried to sneak out of the room, and he had to lie to her to get out. He wished it was an isolated, one-time incident, but to his horror, it wasn't.
It was a tough time for him. There weren't many people he can talk to about it. Although he got along with a lot of people, he was the closest with Alexandra. He couldn't talk to her about it. He tried to talk to the doctor and he was no help. Some elder boys who caught him once when he was washing his clothes, told him to "seek" women that would help with this.
Women… He didn't like the idea of getting near women; well, anyone except Alexandra.
