Monday
I wake up buried under the weight of Tae's leg slung across mine and Jungkook's arm over my chest. Gosh these two are sleeping like logs, literally heavy enough to be. I managed to get out safely by slipping under an arm and crawling to the end of the bed. Once up, I grab my phone and take it with me to the kitchen to get a glass of water. I had a few notifs but nothing important, I felt much better compared to yesterday. I drank three glasses before putting the cup in the sink and going back to my room.
As I slowly opened the door, I saw Tae and Jungkook laying there asleep, Kook had somehow managed to do so with his leg halfway up the wall. Tae might've even been drooling. I inwardly chuckled at this situation, I had to admit it was cute seeing them like this. Two fully grown men in such a vulnerable and silly position. I decided to grab my textbooks and start studying in the Lounge room, leaving the boys to sleep in.
I put the rice cooker on and hit the books while I waited for it to finish. When I heard the leaver snap back up I let the rice cool and then rolled up some Onigiri for breakfast.
An hour or so passed before I heard noises and voices coming from my room. I glanced up from the book I was reading to see a dishevelled looking Tae emerge from my room.
"Morning sleepyhead, there's some Onigiri there if you're hungry." I gave him a smile. Tae rubbed his head then looked on the kitchen counter.
"You made these?" He sounded pleasantly surprised as he went and took one before sitting across from me.
"Yeah, I just put some canned Tuna and Mayo in them, nothing special." The small smile on his face as he chewed and swallowed was reassuring.
"These are delicious. Oh. That's strange. Is this the first time I've tried your cooking?" Tae's lingering sleepiness was evident.
"I think so.." I contemplated.
Both our attention was caught as Jungkook finally came out of my room too, looking just as much of a sleepy mess as Tae had been.
"Jungkookie, Jia made Onigiri." Tae told him, pointing at the counter.
"Huh?" He stared at the rice balls for a good five seconds before registering.
"Ohhh. Yum." He says, grabbing one and settling down next to me.
"There's juice boxes in the fridge too." I added. Tae's eyes lit up and he quickly turned around to reach over to the fridge, taking out three and handing them to us.
"Mmmm. Oh." Jungkook made strange grunts, looking kind of angry as he got stuck into the rice ball. Then, he grabbed the juice box, quickly stuck the straw in and took a long sip.
"Ahhh" he gave a sigh.
"Are you ok?" I tilted my head to the side to try and get his attention.
"Yeah. This is delicious," he exclaimed, still looking kind of angry. Tae hummed in agreement as he sipped his juice.
"If you like them that much you can take them with you to eat later. I can easily make more." I offered. Secretly just glad that they were enjoying them.
"Really? Thanks, Jia." Tae smiled. After the boys were more awake they had to get going, they had some vocal practice sessions along with other things they had to do. We said our byes and I went back to studying.
It wasn't until around 2 pm that I took a break to waste time scrolling through my phone, as I clicked on something on Naver a video caught my eye. It was an interview from a Hip Hop radio station featuring Joon and Yoongi.
I had no idea that they'd done one and clicked on it out of curiosity. It was still kind of weird watching the boys on the Internet, I completely forgot they were getting pretty well known these days with all their promotional stuff and debut. I mean, they were well known around before that in the scene but… I was snapped from my light thoughts and winded the video back, had I heard that correct?
As I watched the hosts disrespectful comments and line of questioning I felt a wave of real anger boil over. What the fuck was this garbage? I clicked my phone shut, not wanting to hear anymore. Who was this guy to bring the boys artistic integrity into question?! God… I hope that asshole steps on Lego, stubs his toe and gets dust in his eye every day of his life until he dies of old age.
"Ahhhhh" I sighed, laying down over the chair cushion beside me. I pick my phone back up and find my messages with Yoongi.
Jia: Hey, have any free time tomorrow? Wanna go over song ideas
I lay there for a while until I felt my phone vibrate.
Yoongi: Yeah, after lunch alright with you?
Jia: Yessir. I'll see you then (｀_´)ゞ
Yoongi: ♪(´ε｀ )v
I smiled at seeing Yoongi using cute emojis. It really was part of his secret softer-sided charm. It was endearing. I clicked my phone shut and closed my eyes. As I lay there my thoughts automatically drifted to Jimin. As much as I tried to keep it out of my mind, I knew eventually I'd need to face it. Feelings of sadness and regret started to seep in.. the more I replayed the events in my head I was left with nothing other than a bitter aftertaste. I need to get it out. I need to write it down. So that's what I did. I put my pen to paper, letting those feels flow.
The half moon-eyed smile that you only used to show me.
Promises bitter, like an Americano.
Yet, I'd play with fire again even if it's full of regrets.
Get used to the fame? Get used to letting go of lovers… It's a bitter truth.
Those feelings used to be as soft as the foam of a latte.
I set my pen down and lay back down, closing my eyes, closing my mind.
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As I opened my eyes everything was dark, I must've dozed off for a few hours. I felt around for my phone so I could use it to find the light switch. I got up and turned it on, then, my phone started vibrating in my hand. As I looked at the screen I felt my heart drop at the name.
Jimin
I gulp thickly… eyes glued to his name, I swallow my fear and answer. As I put my phone to my ear I hear his voice call my name over the other end.
"Jia, it's Jimin," he says, his voice sounding strained and unlike his usual reserved self. Had he been drinking?
"Yeah, I know, your name comes up on my screen when you call me" I reply. I didn't mean to sound like a smart ass I was just caught off guard by the call and didn't know what to say.
"Huh? Oh right, I forgot about that. Hey. Can we talk? I really need to talk to you" he insists. If he says it any stronger I'd have thought it was a demand.
"Um… I dono Jimin.. have you been drinking? Where are you?" I hesitate, trying to get more info out of him before agreeing to anything. He starts getting sassy.
"A little, I'm at a playground somewhere. I dono but can you please just come here I seriously need to talk to you" he hiccups and groans into the phone.
"Okay okay, I'll come. Can you send me your location?"
"Okay hold on" He slurs a little, his voice getting more distant as though he's trying to send where he is. A moment later I get the message so I tell him to stay where he is until I get there and hang up.
Worry overtakes as I quickly change into some leggings and a hoodie. I left straight away to go and find him. As I set off down the street I realised he was at the same playground Jin and I had been to a long time ago. It was near the night market. The one with the swings.
The night sky was a deep blue and the light wind had a cool hint, it felt so fresh against my face and neck. Soon enough I reached the playground, as I crossed the road and walk through the gate I get a better view.
The street lamps illuminate the park well enough so I can see Jimin sitting at a park bench near the swings. The quietness in the air gives a false sense of peace. It was false because I knew what comes next won't be easy. Not knowing what I'd be confronted with when Jimin and I finally spoke made my throat tighten in anxiety.
He had his blonde head down in his hands as he lent forward. It wasn't until I took a seat beside him and called his name that he sat up, the conflict in his eyes meeting mine displacing my heart.
"Jia," I watched as he swayed a little.
"Mm. Jimin. You should go home and get some sleep… What're you doing out here in the middle of the night…?" If I was not myself, and he was someone else, I'd say so much to him. I'd tell him the truth. I can hardly breathe.
"No. I'm seriously losing my mind because of you. We need to talk. So.." Jimin's voice cracked, swallowing down emotion. He paused for a moment, took a deep breath before sighing. I didn't say a word, but, for the first time in a long time as I looked into his eyes, I saw him looking back. So, I stayed silent and listened.
"Everything's a mess. I just want you to understand. That girl, she's the daughter of the police chief. It's business. That's the only reason," Jimin ran his hands through his hair in frustration, "I know it doesn't make it hurt you any less. It was so hard, pretending like I wasn't thinking of you instead."
Apprehension turns into a wave of guilt washing over like the tide coming in. The deep blue of the starlight sky above encased me in the feeling.
"Jimin… I'm so sorry…"
breath. "I'm so sorry for blaming you… For not talking to you earlier…" Jimin closes his eyes momentarily as I go on, "For not trying to understand…" as the words leave my lips it becomes too heavy to carry anymore. Our eyes connect again, Small wet drops roll off my cheeks, once, twice.
"Nooo, dummy, don't cry" the invisible wall between us breaks down completely as he slides beside me and reaches out to me. The moment I feel his arms enclose around me is like the tearing of paper in my heart.
"Do you know how much I've missed you since you've been away… I'm sorry for hurting you Jimin" My arms are trapped between us, pressed against his chest as he tightens his hold of me.
"Don't cry Jia, please. I just want us back" His words soft in my ear brings a calm. The kind of calm that such a pretty night should have emanated.
"You're so drunk… I can smell it.." Jimin let out a small chuckle.
"Really? That's what you have to say right now?!" His hand tangled itself in my hair as he grabbed a handful, gently running his hands through it.
"Jimin.." I mumbled. He loosened his grip and I pulled away to look up to him. "Can we go home?" Jimin gave a small sigh before nodding.
"Yeah. That's probably a good idea" I pulled out my phone and dialled Tae, he picked up after a few rings. At the mention of Jimin he immediately agreed to come out and meet us, I heard Jungkook in the background too.
I laid back on the bench, Jimin leaned his head on my shoulder, finally giving in to his intoxication. I wrapped my arm around him and held him close as we waited, twenty minutes passed and I saw Tae and Jungkook's figures approaching up the path. Kook broke into a jog and came up first, Tae getting here a moment after.
"Wow, Jiminie Hyung really overdid it this time" Kook sat beside him, brushing his hair out of his face so he could see him. But, Jimin looked like he was pretty close to falling asleep.
"So, did you guys talk..?" Tae asked plainly, now standing in front of me.
"Yeah. I think everything is okay now.."
"C'mon Jiminie Hyung, let's get you home." Kook turned around and grabbed Jimin's hands and wrapped them around his neck. Jimin started to stir enough to realise Kook was trying to piggyback him and grabbed on.
"Jungkookie" Jimin smiled as he held on, letting the younger carry him.
"Thanks for coming Tae. Will you guys be alright to get home?" I stood up, wiping my face with the sleeve of my jumper before looking between all three of the boys.
"Yeah. We'll get him home safe and sound. How about you? It's late to be walking around alone" Tae bit at his lip as his eyes searched me worriedly.
"It's not far. I'll text you as soon as I get home. If you don't hear from me then send the rescue squad" I chuckled. Kook looked like he was ready to go, Jimin mustn't have been as light as me so it would be better if I didn't keep them waiting.
"Anyway, I'll get going. Goodnight guys" I wrapped Tae in a quick one-armed hug which he returned and then quickly pecked Jungkook on the cheek. A small smirk settles on his lips at my kiss. And lastly, I gave Jimin a kiss on the cheek too.
"Goodnight Jimin, when you wake up tomorrow text me, okay?" I watched as he drunkenly nodded, guess he heard me. We said our goodbyes and went our separate ways. I texted Tae like I said I would. They also got back home safely. By the time I crawled into bed I was physically and emotionally exhausted.
Notes:
Hey hey~ How's everyone? :D
Finally, they made some peace!
Thoughts?