"Let me tell you something you little damaged inbred" he snarls as Jeremiah cornered me my back pressed on the island and I'm trapped caging me in.
"You are nothing you hear me? sadly I am the only good thing that happens to you. You better understand that? You are nothing but a weak little good for nothing who won't stop bitching about not being loved" Jeremiah spat out I could hear the irritation in his raspy voice.
Keep telling myself this I won't let his words affect me no matter how deep it wound and made me feel I'm stronger now.
"Try that little stunt again and I won't let it go like that I'd punish you right in front of this entire pack" he warned.
I nodded timidly knowing I could be sentenced to death just by disrespecting Jeremiah must less the pack I've threaten Aaron Scott Jason I'd be put before the jury trailed and trust me everything, I've done could easily cost me my life.
Either strip naked in front of the entire pack and flogged the whipped would be drenched in wolfsbane making it harder for us to heal not to mention the iron hooks that would be ripping through your skin yanking out pieces of your flesh in the process or even be exiled and turned to rouge letters would be sent out to every pack with the description of the person other option being executed.
Shaking these unwanted thoughts out of my head looking up to see Jeremiah staring down at me his breathing was heavy as if he's trying to control himself, I could feel his eyes shamelessly roaming all over my body as I tighten the towel.
"Is this what you want uh" he barked looking at him confused "you keep complaining I'm not being a good mate, being jealous of Camille you'll never be her...I'd treat you like the good little mate you deserve" he said with a sly smirk before I could say anything he crushed his lips on mine it was rough fast hungry it wasn't love it was just empty full of hatred and anger, trying to pull away but be only gripped tighter piercing his nails in my neck.
Jeremiah asked for entry but I denied surprise when he bit down hard on my lip as if on cue, he started assaulting my mouth making me feel sick and disgusted.
"Please stop" I implore as he kept sucking on my neck tears started pouring down my face it hurt so much his teeth graze the sweet spot where he'll mark I would feel him smirking he pulled away his eyes glassy with needs.
As Jeremiah gawks hungrily licking his lip "let's see what we've got here" he hummed in one shift move the towel was snatched I tried covering up as much as possible.
"Let go Jeremiah" I yelled when he hauled my hands behind my back shivering from the cold breeze and sadly his touch.
"Not bad for an omega" he bluntly said his eyes ogling every inch of my body "since you were so eager for me to give you a hint of affection why don't we start right now" Jeremiah whispered in my ear as he gropes and fondly with my breast.
"Please don't do this stop" I begged he only laughed I know what was to come his eyes held lust "this is what you want right? to complete the mating bond then so be it if this is what Lucca and you want" Jeremiah utter.
"Don't do this, this isn't what I want Jeremiah" I cried out trying to release my hand "I said stop" I yelled pushing him away running towards the stairs only to be pulled back down.
A hard slap was planted on my cheek "don't you fucking dare defy me of what belongs to me" he barked as he roughly pushed me to the ground climbing on top roughly pushed my legs apart as he made his way between them.
"This gonna hurt sweetheart" he taunts using Lucca's nickname and I'm disgust I could feel his hard member pressed against my entrance.
This isn't how I expected my first time to be laying at the bottom of the stairs with my mate scratch that ex-mate about to forcefully rape me where did I ever go wrong in my life.
He'd hurt me so much I'd rather be doomed to death than let him take away the only thing that I have control over.
"I said stopppppp" I screamed out lightning and thunder echoed the room as the lights flicked on and off only to see Jeremiah flying into the wall getting up, I was raging stride over to where he was I could feel the anger stirring inside.
Yanking him up by his neck "how could you" I clenching my jaw "out of everything you have done you tried to rape me Jeremiah" I roared his eyes trying to change colours.
"I wish I could give you all my pain for one moment so you could finally understand just how much shit and pain you put me through so many times" I conceded he only stared at me only this time it wasn't disgusted but sadness and regret.
"Bianca I'm sorry I didn't mean to I" I cut him off "stay away from me if you should know the things I'm capable of doing you'll think twice about messing with me...in the end I know you're destined for failure" I warned releasing him and walked away.
Jeremiah POV
I couldn't believe what happened I could see the way her eyes darken the wrath coming from her voice.
"Why? Why would you fucking do that" Lucca yelled he was utterly fuming "I get it ok I lost my shit I was out of control" I defend myself he snarled still pissed.
I still can't get the image of Bianca of out my head damn was she sexy a body like that I was so close to taking her not gonna lie though I'd do anything to see her naked again.
"You're a disgrace" Lucca spat out distasteful "what's that supposed to mean" I questioned walking up the stairs after dumping her towel in the bin.
"Saying you lose control but I can read your mind you'd rather sleep with her, not because you love her nor do you give a shit about the mating bond all you want is the opportunity to sleep with her you're nothing but a repulsive filthy lowlife human.
She doesn't deserve you and to think you could change I was wrong as much as it will hurt I want Bianca to reject your sorry ass at least she'll find peace or someone who'll love her like a true mate is supposed to" Lucca snarled as he fights to take over.
Laying in bed staring up at the ceiling I couldn't sleep Bianca's eyes plague me the anger that swirl around "you tried to rape me" her words echoed hit me deeply I guess my anger overpowered my action was I going to do it.
I know I've never forced anyone to have sex unless they want to, running my hands down my face weighing my thoughts on whether to talk to her or not knowing I won't be able to sleep with the thought of what I nearly did without apologizing.
Tossing and turning running my hand over my face frustrated with everything at this point getting up and head down to Bianca's room, my heart was jerking me the closer I get the stronger the feelings become so unbearable the way my heart beats the way my skin sting with electric shock waves.
Running my hand through my hair due to anger whether I should go talk to her or turn around but before I could stop myself I opened the door I could make out Bianca laying down her back was facing me standing two feet away from her bed I probably look like a creep.
"You can cut the bull I know you aren't sleeping," I said irritatingly she didn't say anything and to be honest I was starting to lose my patience pulling her by her shoulder so she could lay on her back I hate the way her skin felt heavenly.
She glared at me with so much hatred "I need to talk to you" I told her and she dared to scowl at me "don't you forget your place Bianca" I warned watching as she sits up straight causing the cover to fall revealing a crop top that showed off her beautiful stomach.
"No Jeremiah you listen" Bianca furiously spat beads of hate towards me, hopping off the bed we were toe to toe just the right distance to kiss her if this was a different story I'd be pulling on that tasty bottom lip between my teeth just the thought getting me hard get your shit together.
"You think you're all high and mighty" she yelled "some nerve you got coming in here after what you did" Bianca exclaimed clenching my fist that's something I'll never forget.
"Am sorry" I told her she glares up at me "you're sorry wow you really think saying sorry can change anything" she argued "what the fuck you want me to say than" I questioned having the urge to leave but I know I had to get this over with.
"What I want is for you to mean it not just apologizing because the mate bond won't allow you to sleep" she explained I look at her searching her face her a sign of being a joke for someone in her position she's asking for a lot.
"You're kidding right what do you expect me to do bow down to a freak like you and kiss your feet you're stupid than I actually thought don't hold your breath cause that's not gonna happen take it or leave it," I said sternly walking away about to open the door but her words stopped me.
"I consider on every excuse for staying and I think you'd agree with me, but you kept giving me every reason to leave and I still tried to ignore them, like a little lovesick fool at least you get that part right am nothing but a fool ignoring all the red flags still hoping.
You could've given me something to hold on to like a fake hope, or a white lie who knows maybe then things would've turned out differently maybe you'd have changed and let us grow together into something beautiful. But for once, you'd stay get to know me perhaps instead of treating me this way, the way your eyes held disgust or hatred" she stopped just staring at me her eyes keeping me in place.
"For once I decided to do something good for once you constantly kept showing me that they'll never be an us not now not tomorrow and sadly not in a lifetime I should move on, get over it so you can say I gave up on a person for the first time in my life and yes I'll grant you the freedom you so badly seek not like it matters anyway" she finished off.
I tensed my back was still facing her with one hand over the doorknob "what are you trying to say" I respond turning around to face her.
"I Bianca Adams future Luna of the Silver Crescent Moon Rise accept the-" just hearing those words the next thing I know I was covering her mouth "don't you fucking dare finish that sentence or I swear to the moon I'll" Bianca pushed me away stopping me.
"You'll what uh that's what you wanted right" she snapped "I fucking accept your rejection asshole as the Luna of this pack and your mate our connection is broken" she finished I freeze as her words played out in my mind.
I feel my heart breaking and my wolf howls in pain I dropped to my knees I just couldn't hold myself together I could feel the sire bond between us breaking away taking a piece of my soul with it.
Like it's splitting my heart open my chest tighten heat absorbs me from within clawing at my chest trying to relieve the pain.
Clawing my bare chest ignoring the blood coated my claws or the burning of her words that flew from her mouth that I'd never thought she'd even have the courage to think, let alone say out loud I know from the look in her eyes that she was serious. In that instant, I could feel the last bit of hope broke like glass the sparks even the smell fade away, and am left empty nothing would ever be the same again.
Her cold glare burnt with dangerous intensity it was cold, burning rages that radiate from Bianca as I stared at her "please don't do this" I begged trying to rekindle the little hope I still have if she takes back the rejection there's a slight chance Lucca will be happy.
"You act as if my love was owed to you, but you give nothing in return when last have you ever show sympathy because I was hurt, or come running because you thought I needed help? When did you last look at me as if I were amazing or hug me at least, maybe you wished you could stay with me forever. When did you last show me the yearning and desire Instead you stare at Camilla, interact with the meaningless as if she's anything of importance.
I have to ask myself why am I even doing here why I still hanging onto something that doesn't even care. Now leave Jeremiah and don't ever come back you owe me nothing nor I owe you I've granted you your number one wish" Bianca said flatly just looking at her she wasn't the girl I knew she was different getting up giving her one last look but all she did was glare at me with so much loathe.
•••
Waking up to the banging on my room door grunting getting up and open the door roughly and the person I never want to see stood in front as her heavy breathing echoed tears stream down her face "what the fuck do you want?" I gruffly asked with annoyance.
"Please he won't leave me alone I can't control him anymore he-he keeps banging on the door I keep shutting him out but he's fighting please help me" Bianca begged as she clenched her hair tightly like some crazy lunatic.
She keeps pacing back and forth mumbling words I couldn't even make out "he won't shut up Jeremiah, I just want the voice to go away please just hold me," she said if it wasn't for my wolf hearing I wouldn't make out the last part because of how low she whispered hopefulness in her voice eyes pleading with me.
Bianca looked like she hasn't slept in days bags were under her eyes I guess since the bond broke I can finally see the way she looked which I never knew.
Unsure what to say "just stay the hell away from me ignore me and I'll continue to the same" with that said I turned around and slam the door shut and get back into bed.
****
"Are you just going to lie there all day? You've seriously been lying in the exact same spot for over a week now, you're starting to creep me out which is weird you do remember we have a pack to run right?" I asked getting ready for school.
Lucca lay down curl in a ball his is face showed grimace every few minutes he'd scream not like being tortured, but worse it had a raw quality of a person devoured by pain that knew no end or limit. Then he would go quiet he'd stare at nothing in particular just emotionless. I know I should blame myself for the way I had treated her, at least then she would have known I cared and things would turn out differently.
Maybe if I didn't walk away unable to bear the heaviness and the crushing pain stabbing my heart I could have talked her out of it now I wouldn't have to feel so shitty I knew then I'd lost her isn't this what I've wanted from the minute I found out I was mated to her wanting Bianca to cut tied with me so I could move on.
But why now I feel so lost like a part of me is missing I was the one that stepped away and now am left with the result of the bitter taste of my dose of medicine bearing the pain and aftermath of the blunt of rejection.
As you can tell it's one week since the rejection and every day, I can feel my heart aching being mated is one thing but being rejected by your mate your other half is like a knife piercing through your heart carving the word failure, in other words, it's more like pouring and filling your veins with wolfsbane.
I haven't seen Bianca since that night it's either she's avoiding me or something well at least Lucca doesn't interfere with me and Cami's relationship it's not perfect it's far from being the way it was but am not complaining.
Brushing my hair I was dressed in light blue distressed ripped jeans white shirt and white canvas siding on my gold watch and chain feeling arms around my waist "hmm you smell nice" Cami whispered making her lips linger on my ear teasingly.
Turning around swiftly now she's pinned her back pressed on the vanity "you know if I start I won't finish" I said pecking her lips hands on her waist as she turned to pull me down further on her.
Pulling away causing her to pout giving her a quick kiss "we have all the time tonight c'mon baby before we're late the guys are already waiting for us at school" I told her sliding my phone in my pocket and we headed off.
Parking the car in our usual spot getting out the guys were already waiting for us "what took you guys so long" Sophia said "we got carried away" Cami said musingly as the girls laughed we started talking still had couple of minutes to go before the bell ring.
"We still have a lot of preparation to do your mom wants you to decide on the flowers before she makes florals agreements" Cami informed me while she skipped through a notepad one month away we'll finally have our mating ceremony will take place.
At the ceremony, we'll exchange vows and seals them with the mixture of our blood joining us together and after the ceremony, we'll get to seal our bond with the mark.
"Oh, and we need t-" we turned around after hearing the loud screeching halt of a car turning to see the black expensive sports car swinging into the space causing everyone in the parking lot to stare.
The door open black combat boots trailing my eyes up black ripped jeans leather jacket burgundy inside blouse my eyes widen and mouth dropped when my eyes meet with those eyes I'd know anywhere.
"Whose that" I heard Aaron asked "Bianca" I called out, before I could stop myself she finally meet my eyes something about her, was different and screams power.
Even with her silver hair and dark makeup to others she looked different but I could tell whispers were everywhere students all looked bewildered I watched as she put her bag on her shoulder and walk away.
"Damn" Jason bluntly said turning his head in the direction she went the thought was drawn when I realized that she took one of the cars before I could stop myself I run after her seeing her walking down the corridor everyone made way for her shock written all over her face.
"Bianca" I called after her, tugging her hand when she didn't stop spinning her around "what the hell gotten into you this isn't you" I shouted.
"I guess people change I'm not the girl you once knew" she answered her tone drenched with boredom as if she had better things to do.
"Don't you dare walk away from me" I warned Bianca stop and face me "oh I forgot you're the big bad Alpha boy no need to get too cocky" with that said she continues walking leaving me dumbfounded.
Bianca POV
A week after the rejection
Placing my head on my knees, I let the irrational tears fall don't care anymore everything hurts this is even worse the first time he rejected me the feeling is so hard to explain it's like a fiery furnace lit within times that by ten.
I am crying over the loss of someone I never had how ridiculous lamenting for a guy that was never mine in the first place, to begin with, I weep for Lucca he shouldn't feel this it was never my intention to hurt him I wish I could spare him the heartache but Jeremiah he deserved to burn in hell.
Lucca just end up hurting far from being his fault, not his fault he ends up with a fucked up human all my hopes dreams, and expectations of what my future would turn into but no destiny had other plans just had to go and mess that up no happily ever after no prince charming or fairy tale nor a love story like in some of those stories I read in my spare time.
Was I bitter? Hurt you bet I was, cross who wouldn't be to feel a part of their heart rupture at rejection. You ask yourself every question you can think of, what, why, how come, why me? and then your sadness turns to anger.
"Surprise meeting you here nice hideaway" the voice blissed "what part of stay the hell away from me don't you understand" I yelled Apollo had a smug look over his face.
"Well you're the one who keeps leaving the door wide open I just take it as a written invitation" he answered leaning on the tree.
I was currently sitting on the ground at some run-down park that's been closed for years it's been one week since the whole rejection and I tried avoiding the whole pack like they're some kind of deadly virus especially Jeremiah I thought when I reject him the feeling will leave but it hasn't.
So, I've been busing myself studying the spells and hiding out here I haven't even visit Aurora nor I go to school wake extremely early leave and come back when everyone's asleep.
"You know having all these emotions only makes you weak" Apollo informed "why would you care? Isn't this what you like watching me grow weak so you can strike," I said carelessly he gasps dramatically.
"I'm hurt you think so low of me I like a fair fight but that topic is for another session" he replied gloating.
"Have I ever told you how much I appreciate you being a badass" he praised glaring at him "why are you even here?" I inquired ignoring what he just said, "well I know am like your least favorite person and me being the caring person I decide to keep your company" he exclaims as he slides down to sit beside me with his legs crisscrossed.
"Don't give me that look, sometimes I do things I don't have to do but that's the only way to survive we're just alike the pain won't leave until you do something about it" Apollo utter as if he'd experienced every trial and tribulation to have a clue as to what I'm going through.
Spending every single day alone with my thoughts with no one to talk to the loneliness slowly creep in and I just can't take the pain anymore there's just so much I can take.
"How?" I asked turning to face him "simple turn it off" Apollo suggest "are you kidding me" I shouted without our emotions is worse than any supernatural creatures without humanity we have no remorse for anyone easily triggered it's easy to just flick that switch and turn it off completely forget the person you once were.
"It's the only way do you want to keep crying your heart out or be strong forget the people who don't care about you for once put yourself first turn it off its ok that's all it takes to move on no gravity to hold you back you'll finally be free without any pain of being rejected no more being treated like an outcast just turn it off and everything will disappear that's all you have to do just flip the switch turns it off" Apollo urge "best way not to get hurt is not having a heart" he pressed.
I know it's that simple the truth is days I just wanna say fuck it all am done waiting on something that isn't and will never gonna happen over time you have to start realizing that some people aren't even worth it anymore.
At the end of the day you just get tired, tired of the struggle the endless cycle of pain tired of losing everyone that means so much to me, first my parents, the girl that had the brightest smile the one that laugh I've lost the old me, and now Lucca what the hell am I seriously waiting on.
It's better to be alone so that no one can hurt you closing my eyes letting myself go I can feel all the burden I've had over the years drifting away I could feel the vicious side that was locked in cage ratting they're reaching through the bars and I finally let my demons out to play.
Letting out a laugh as Apollo chuckled I don't feel anything no hint of affection I'm more than alive if I had known this, I'd have flipped the switch ages ago.
"Now, now little pup you're not there as yet" Apollo retort "uh?" I asked confused "if you're gonna be bad you're supposed to act the part" he trails off as his eyes scan me up and down "let me dumb it down for you you're not cutting it" he finished off.
All I was wearing was black jean shorts and long sleeve blouse and vans "what you suggest" I asked "you have to stand out" he replied a smirk crossed my face when I ponder on his request that's my favourite part not being able to feel anything the pain the expectation of people or carrying the burden of others that makes one hell of a story.