Bianca POV
"Like I said Bianca the reason you can see the tattoos is because you're eighteen your tattoo was a cloak to protect you and since you reach eighteen it active as well as other spells" she repeated slowly as if I'm dumb rolling my eyes staring off into the dark blue sky as the stars twinkling.
Well from what I'm understanding is that each tattoo represents something the triquetra symbol connects mind body and soul and it also represents the elements fire wind earth water and ice six deadly elements.
Aurora says now that it's my birthday my power has been involved and I'm more powerful than ever but to tell you the truth I don't think it's working I'm still feeling like I've been all these years.
The Celtic spiral symbol represents both worlds the anchor to the afterlife and hell which she calls the prison world.
"How could Apollo get the chance to choke me if he's trapped in the prison world?" I inquired still shaken up from earlier, yeah I've told her about our little encounter with Apollo I've found out because of him the symbol protected me and it kinda put me in a semi-sleep so my body could heal.
I was sleeping but my mind was drifting within two worlds since he was doing some shitty spell that's why he could have touched me.
"Are you seriously listening to anything I've been saying for the past hours?" She argued "why does every time I'm here you always come up with some crazy shit now he's growing stronger during each eclipse he has one foot in our world while the other foot in hell and right now both worlds are slowing falling apart," I particularly sum up everything.
I'm fearful right now if he could do that to be and he was just messing around with my mind imagine what he'd do with me once he's free.
"Bianca look at me you'll never understand how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have," Aurora said smoothly which still didn't stop me from thinking about how much pain I'll endure at the hands of the most powerful fire sorcerer God of storm and the hybrid Apollo.
"Your time is now, start where you stand and never back down" she added walking around "what are you doing?" I asked as she just kept looking out into space, which was weird since she had a small smile.
"This brings back bittersweet moments" she paused after seeing me looking perplexed she kept going "this used to be my home here is where all those witches died" she started her voice saddened.
I would too lose everyone being tricked by your crazy psychopath boyfriend and killed all your friends right in front of you.
"I want you to have something you'd need in the near future," Aurora said I watched as a book appeared in her hand "where did that come from?" I asked raising an eyebrow she flashed me a grin.
"Here this book has all the things you'll need it belonged to me but now it's yours," she utter proudly presenting me with the huge book it has the triquetra symbol on the front.
I realized it was reek with wolfsbane "how is that possible" I mumbled when it didn't even burn me, "wolfsbane doesn't affect our kind dear we're witches we created the wolfsbane" Aurora replied I nodded in understanding.
"I don't understand I'm powerful but still look at me I'm still the helpless Omega" I reminded her "stop doubting yourself Bianca you're-" I cut her off, "that's all you keep telling me I'm strong enough I'm powerful I am stronger than the others" I shouted.
"News flash Aurora I'm the opposite I'm eighteen the age every wolf turned but take a long hard look on me I still can't hear my wolf I don't feel anything look at the darn sky the moon is at its highest peak and I'm not shifting" I exclaimed.
"You don't understand how can a none exist wolf protect the supernatural world" I questioned "that's because you're different Bianca," Aurora said softly.
I shake my head "way to state the obvious" I grumbled rolling my eyes "of course I'm different my wolf doesn't even accept me she's probably hidden and embarrassed of me to show herself not to mention my mate rejected me my pack hates me I was stupid to think I could have a normal life after finding out I'm the Goddess.
My friends turned their backs on me Jeremiah wants nothing to do with me I'm a freaking Goddess for crying out loud and a sorcerer who wants to destroy me and along with all the supernatural world," I rant letting everything out all my failure every hardship that I faced growing up.
"The thing is Bianca you're more than meet the eye" Aurora pronounced "what's that supposed to mean?" I said tilting my head.
"You aren't only a Queen but you also don't have a wolf" she informed me "yeah I know that," I said sighing with annoyance.
"Well that's because you're different from us you don't have a wolf spirit because you are the wolf" Aurora stated my breath hitched I looked at her dumbfounded I was beyond speechless trying to process everything all at once.
"Whoa-what you mean I'm the wolf the actual four-legged furry wolf" I curiously asked wow just terrific.
"You never shift you don't have a wolf voice in your head" she pointed out I only nodded.
All this time I thought I was broken that my wolf soul was hidden, all this time when the truth was I wasn't weak their abuse taunts I had to endure from the pack was all for nothing, all these years I have been fighting since I was young to survive but now I know I'm not a survivor I'm a warrior.
They have thrown me to the wolves and now I'm the one who will have to protect them the same worthless pathetic Omega the pack deemed me to be now look how the tables turned.
"But how will I shift," I asked looking at her I've always dreamt of what it would be like to feel the air against my fur shifting everything.
"The thing is you can't but if you tap into your wolf spirit you'll glow and your eyes will change it would be epic you'll see. And still, have the strength speed but the only difference is that you are three times stronger faster etc." Aurora explained I was lost for words I can't believe.
Looking at the time it was after twelve "I must get going Aurora it's getting late" I told her pushing myself off the ground, "this book is called the grimoire it contains all the spells study them you'll never know when you'll need them" she reminded I nodded as I walked away fixing the hoodie the only source of light was the moon.
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Climbing up the tree once inside my room removing my hoodie and placing the book on my bedside table removing my shoes and clothes throwing on a pink sweatshirt I climbed into bed but I couldn't sleep all I could think about was what Aurora had told me yawning as my eyes felt heavy until I fall asleep.
The sun was shining and warm my eyes caught the sight of a little girl, as she busies herself jumping over fallen logs as she giggled.
Her blackish-brown hair held up in two ponytails as she throws up her pink blanket spinning around giggling her bright sparkle brown eyes stood out the most so sweet and innocent.
"C'mon Mama can't catch me" she beamed giggling senselessly so beautiful and full of life, "Bumblebee not so fast, and please be quiet are they'll hear us" another voice called out only to see the most beautiful lady her dark brown hair the same shade as the little girl.
As she strolls behind the energetic child she looks around three or maybe four, "sorry Mama" the girl replied slowing down.
"Stop bumblebee," the lady whispered as she held her small hand they stopped outside of what looks like a park territory, "are we there yet Mama?" she asked while looking around.
"Yes, we are I want you to know I'll always love you no matter what happens promise me you'll always keep smiling," the lady said cupping BB's face as she slowly caressed it.
"I love you Mama" she replies her mom sighing low her eyes gathered tears as it slowly ran down "don't cry mama" BB muttered wiping away the fallen tears as her mom laughed but it was empty and full of ache and sadness.
"Close your eyes and count to ten just like when we play hide and seek," her mom said as she placed a long kiss on her forehead, "ok," the small child answered obeying doing as she was asked.
"This is probably the worst thing I could even think of it hurt me so much but I have to do this you'll never remember me nor what happened and how you reached here, when you opened your eyes you won't remember anything just know this I'll always love you no matter what Bianca I'll never stop loving you" her mom whispered.
As bumblebee opened her eyes she looked around and her mom was nowhere to be found.
I jumped up wheezing sweat poured down my face the dream played over and over in my head "bumblebee" I whispered out that's when the realization hit me that was me and my mom no wonder I never know what happened nor how I got there.
She let me forget she wiped my memory but how after all these years why now am finally remembering.
But why would she do that why would she just leave me just like that without a reason, the dream played out in mind I'll never know.
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The day flew by I was sitting at the usual seat in the cafeteria looking through the grimoire different topics such as herbs spices crystals candles and more.
Types of crystals shapes and there uses this book was loaded with different types of locator spells like tracking, locator, shadow locator, traveller, qetsiyah's locator spell is one of the many powerful spells and many other more.
There are tons of contents ranging from spells, rituals, expression spells, powerful spells, potions, body jumping, resurrect, psychokinesis, empathy, telepathy, divination, pyrokinesis, scrying, precognition, clairvoyance, magic, levitation, and many more.
Could you believe it I wasn't even a quarter through the book, I still have a long way to go in learning the spells and herbs that's just some of the themes.
I was indulged in the book I didn't even realize when the retards were standing over me before I could react the book grabbed off the table.
Camilla dropped the book as she cried out in pain I smirked I could smell the burning of her flesh "serves you right bitch" I snickered "you freak" Sophie shouted "look what you did slut" Camilla hissed I ignored her whining bending down taking up the book.
"Baby look what this whore did to me" she complained "what the fuck Bianca" I stood up straight I didn't even know he was standing there until I heard his raspy voice turning around to see him with an angry stare I looked at her hand and smiled triumphantly they have scorched an awful shade of red and badly bruised.
Pushing past them only to be yanked back I ignore the electric shock waves Jeremiah was angry I give him a tiring look knowing what's gonna happen "you worthless piece of shit you know no one likes you so you decided to hurt her like this" he exclaimed he looked at me with so much loathing his words didn't affect me like they once did.
"Don't you dare talk to me like that I have enough of you and your slutty ass girlfriend you have your head so far up her ass to realize how much she hurt me but you'd never see the pain she puts me through" I spat out clenching my fist it happened so fast the only thing I know was my head swing to the side "watch your mouth you filthy bitch" Jeremiah growled.
I wiped the bit of blood on my lip I will never give him the satisfaction of seeing me show a hint of anything I was done.
"I hate you so much I fucking hate you" I spat out "for once in a lifetime can't you just see how much pain you and everyone else put me through" I did a light laugh "I just have enough Jeremiah I Bianca Adams of Silver Crescent Moon Rise-" a loud raspy voice stopped me midway I could see Jeremiah and Luca fighting for power.
I turned around and see Mr. Barns our principal standing at the door "what's the meaning of this shouldn't you all be in class" he shouted we didn't even know the bell rang everyone scattered running out I scowled at Jeremiah as I walked away.
If he didn't stop I would have rejected him right there I don't deserve his bullshit no one deserves to be treated like that especially from their mates.
Jeremiah POV
"Look at my palm baby" Camille whined I ignored her as we walked to our next class bad enough Lucca was fierce because I've hit Bianca again and Camille's voice was beginning to irritate the shit out of me.
"Jere-" I cut her off turning around to face her "just shut your fucking mouth stop being a whining ass bitch it's a tiny blemish it will heal in a couple of seconds just fucking stop talking" I roared out it was already healing yet she was making an issue out of nothing.
Everyone was bewildered I breathed out when I saw her eyes bottled up with unshed tears normally I could feel like shit but right now I could care less about her.
I walked away "don't wait for me the guys will give you a ride home," I said knowing they heard the faster I get home and shift before I lose control.
As soon as I reach home Lucca didn't even wait he just took control of my human side and sprints off into the forest.
We stopped running taking deep breaths "she doesn't deserve this" he spat out punching the tree over and over "I'm not in the mood for your tantrum" I shouted earning a loud deadly growl.
"She's a good person she should be happy I can see how much pain she's feeling" he confronted punching holes in the tree as he continues "Bianca needs a mate and you keep mistreating her with every chance you get, she doesn't deserve this" he barked the last powerful punch splitting the tree in half as he breathes out.
Sliding down on the ground "why" he uttered out "why what?" I inquired "don't you feel the slightest feeling for her do you even cared that she was gonna reject us?" Lucca said with a gloomy sigh.
"Get over it Lucca we'd be better off without her she would never be my mate nor would I ever accept her" I spat gruffly but the truth was I was hurt when she said those words do I love her, no I don't I only felt this way because she still hasn't accepted the rejection.
"No matter what you think or say I'll always love her until I take my last breath on this earth until the day I die it will always be Bianca," he said looking up at the cloudy blue sky with determination.
Bianca POV
With every step I took, I'd sigh I have to fight the urge to turn back and run for the hills but I couldn't.
Aurora kept nagging me last night to ask Jeremiah for help since I can't do this on my own and the fact that he's my mate well ex-mate eventually, I stopped correcting her I told her I can do this without him and the pack.
Which didn't end well when she started lecturing me about when hell breaks loose when push comes to shove, I'm gonna need them on my side blah blah blah. And now I'm standing outside of Jeremiah's forbidden room which I've vowed never to step foot in after the last time I was here.
Pushing the door open and ignore the discomfort and the nerve to throw up in my mouth seeing Cami riding the hell out of Jeremiah.
"Oh don't mind me I'll just wait until you're finished" I shouted since they were so caught up in the moment they both stop as a loud growl erupt from Jeremiah.
"What the fuck you freak get the fuck out" Cami shouted out as Jeremiah roughly pulled the covers over them. I wasn't in the mood for any of her bitching and my hands were antsy to try my blasting spell on her.
"I need to talk to you Jeremiah about something it's urgent the sooner the better," I said trying to keep my emotions at bay.
"Who the fuck gives a shit what you have to say now get the fuck out you're disturbing me" he snapped "I wasn't asking I was telling you" I retort they started laughing as if I had said something funny.
"And what could you possibly want to discuss" he inquired "I want to arrange a pack meeting tomorrow afternoon before training" I informed him "why the hell would I do that?" he said blankly like he wants to get this over with.
"Stop asking so many questions and arrange the damn meeting, a day is coming whether we like it or not and I need your help and the others before we run out of time" I explained cutting myself off when I heard moaning and grunting.
I stared at them mouth opened aghast at his cruel behaviour he didn't even give a shit that I was in the room when I realized all this time I was explaining they weren't listening to shit.
Clenching my fist trying to keep my anger at bay and not send their asses to the bottom of the pacific, I wish I could show him all my pain for one moment so he could finally understand just how much shit he constantly put me through.
Evacuating out of the room with the obnoxious sounds ignoring the painfully feeling in the pit of my stomach walking down the hallway my mind was all over the place.
Thinking why me no matter how I acted like it was no big deal I'm over him when in reality late at night when everyone's asleep I stayed up and cry myself to sleep, praying better days are coming I just can't find the willpower to accept his rejection may be a part of me hanging onto the little tiny weeny hope that he'll leave Cami for me I know it's all because of the mate bond working overtime to unite us but that will never happen.
An Alpha is weak without his mate by his side especially since he rejected me his Luna every pack deserves a Luna for the pack to function probably, God forbid if Jeremiah and Cami should have a child the pup won't be as strong as if he and I have since we were destined to be.
It's heart-breaking whenever I see the way they look at each other the love sparks and twinkling in their eyes I want that I crave and yearn for him to just for once look at me with such adoration as if I'm the only girl in the world is that so hard to ask for.
It's funny how the four-letter word hurt can make you feel when you're being ignored by the only person whose attention is the only thing you desire in the entire world sucks I know, but I can't help the fact that my heart can't accept that he'll never choose me.
What's the point of having a mate if he'll just leave you in the end without a thought, a mate is someone who loves you unconditionally who looks at you like you're the only one that matters someone you can run to someone to comfort you who loves you for you.
You let people in and they destroy you altogether I gave love a chance thinking it can fill the little void of misery the pack put me through but in doing so I just had to end up with Jeremiah who destroys me solely with no remorse like I meant nothing to him.
I'm sick of trying sick of feeling like I'm not good enough worthy enough.
Sighing low as I walked down the stairs, I was on the third floor where all the important good for nothing sleeps such as Jeremiah Scott Aaron, and Jason.
If he wants me in his life put me there I was destined for him I shouldn't have to fight for a spot, time after time he put my heart through hell and back.
Scattered, stabbed, heart ripped out, betrayed, and worst broken by the one you should call your other half.
I know he can still feel my emotions but I guess he's just a self-centered bitch that doesn't give two shit about how he hurts me in the process.
My thoughts were cut off when I bumped into a hard chest lifting my gaze from the ground looking up to see three pissed-off guys "just might be my lucky day" I thought.
"Watch where the fuck you going mutt" Aaron growled out rolling my eyes and continue walking only to be pulled back turning around as I look at them or rather surround by them.
"Did we say you can leave freak" Jason spat all I want to do is scream and let go of all the bottled-up rage because I can feel it killing me slowly and these three imbeciles were starting to push me to the breaking point of no return.
"Ooh look are you gonna cry hmm are you missing mommy dearest" Scott taunts clenching my fist tightly till my nails pierce the palm of my hands.
"I think you just hit a nerve even her mother or maybe it was her father who knows either way they didn't want a loser as a daughter anyways and just had to abandon her here like the piece of stray she is" Aaron retort they chuckled having the pleasure to insult me knowing I can't do anything.
But that's where they're wrong so bloody wrong, I'm not the little scaredy little girl who used to run and cry after being hit numerous times I'm done running all their tortures end right here right now.
"I have enough of being pushed around by the likes of you pathetic bastards" I hissed out by the looks on their faces they weren't expecting such outbursts I guess after so long I'm not afraid to stand up to anyone.
"I swear touch me again and I'll gouge out your eyes and use them like a ping pong," I said facing Jason letting him know I'm talking about him, "and you two," I said irritating with one swift move Aaron and Scott were against the wall with my hands fastened their necks.
"I'm done taking shit and being smack around or be the pack's doormat mark my words all three of you if you ever and I mean ever think you can hurt me again you'll pay I'll kill you all string you by your intestines for the whole pack to see I'll make an example out of you" I warned low and threaten as I put pressure on their necks to let them know I wasn't bluffing.
As they gasp for air clasping their necks cutting off their airway as they pathetically try to release my hand "don't underestimate me within seconds I'll turn into your worst nightmare I'll let you all stuffer in so many ways your retards can't possibly imagine" I spat out with burning hatred.
Their faces were getting paler by the second, the more I tighten my hold, "let us go" Aaron demand his breath was uneven I smirked "you didn't care when you were doing the same uh payback is a bitch" I laugh flatly.