Walking over to her and place a kiss on her forehead I don't know why I even did that but it always felt amazing, "please Bianca wake up" I murmured stroking her hair is something I find myself constantly doing. Walking into the bathroom removing my clothes and walk into the glass shower letting the water heat as I wash my hair letting the water flow down my tensed back and begin showering.
Drying off wrapping the towel around my waist suddenly I heard an ear-splitting scream coming from my room "nooo please stoppp Luccaaa nooo Lucca" I ran out only to see Bianca shaking thrusting and turning screaming out Lucca's name it's like she's doing some exorcist shit.
"Hey shh, Bianca, it's okay" I whispered her eyes whisked open tears poured down her face she wrapped her arms around my waist catching me off guard wasn't expecting that.
"Lucca" she whispered in my chest her voice was hoarse probably since she was in a coma.
"It's okay please stop crying" I implored tighten my grip around her waist trying to relax her nerve.
"No, it's not Lucca's dead he-he killed him" She kept on lamenting and whimpering Bianca's hold on me got tighter.
"Sweetheart look at me," I instructed raising her head so we were gazing at each other "you were only dreaming he's fine" I reassured her, Bianca's iridescent eyes glistening with tears searching my eyes for the truth.
"Promise" Bianca utter "I guarantee he's ok you wanna talk to him?" I asked already knowing the answer she eagerly nods.
"Hello beautiful," Lucca said beaming with excitement I'm just happy she woke up even with all her tears mixed with snots she still looked cute.
"Lucca you're okay" she breathed in our scent "I am you wanna tell me about your dream" he questioned "he-he tortured you and Jeremiah" Bianca paused her lips quiver.
"He yanked you out of Jeremiah and he killed you, Lucca, he killed you I-I tried to help you but I couldn't I just couldn't" she was lamented over a nightmare.
"It's ok sweetheart I'm not going anywhere" he consoled her she jolts up and looked around "why am I in your room" she started freaking out as if she just realized.
"You were unconscious for three days" Lucca enlightened her Bianca's eyes widen "ooh my God oh my God the pups are they hurt?" She asked trying to get up I just stared at her with a proud smile how she saved the kids as helpless as she is putting her life on the line in front of rogues. That's the true role of an Luna who's willing to risk their lives in order to save someone.
"No the pups are fine but the rouges are dead" he replied.
"What happened to my clothes who changed me" she asked nervously he did a light chuckle "Jeremiah made the Omega changed you" he answered "ooh" was all she uttered.
"Thank you" she adds before leaving the room she's just as stunning as the day I first lay my eyes on her gorgeous face when I found out she's mine.
Bianca POV
Waking up to the feeling of my hair being stroke my eyes shoot open only to see the most alluring glowing golden irises, "Lucca what are you doing in my room in my bed" I questioned sitting up.
"Hello, sweetheart" he replies charmingly my heart always seems to flutter whenever he calls me that.
"That still doesn't answer my question" I pointed out folding my arm waiting for an answer "I normally watch you sleep" he informed casually like no big deal I stared in disbelieve.
"Not creepy at all stalker much," I said in a low tone "you're my mate can't help it Bianca" seriously nothing sounds sexier than Lucca saying my name the way it rolls off his tongue.
"Actually, we're ex-mate remember and Jeremiah isn't a big fan of me neither am I," I said disappointing his happy cheerful expression vanished and was replaced with sadness gloominess in his mesmerizing eyes.
"Every girl needs a mate who will be good just for you I care about what Jeremiah did to you I'm here now to fix everything he's wrecked and start over" Lucca admitted.
"My pain tells a story they are reminders of when life tried to break me but I stood tall and take everything life throws at me especially Jeremiah" I retorted I could careless about that slime ball all I cared for is Lucca.
Looking anywhere but him I know it's wrong taking my stress out on him but he's part of Jeremiah so he'll just have to do and I'm too much of a coward to tell that dickhead Jeremiah off.
"I promise you, I will not let anything happen to you...you have my word, please just give me a second chance" he petitioned I didn't reply don't know what to even say or where to begin.
"Please Bianca look at me" he uttered cupping my face to look at him.
"I'm sorry Lucca he'll never choose me, we can't be together we'll never be together it will always be Camille," I told him as he wiped away the tray tears I didn't know had fallen why do I always act so soft and vulnerable why do I have to wear my heart on my sleeves.
"Please Bianca I can give you everything you need" he begged "what is it I want uh Lucca? Being Jeremiah's punching bag? Being unwanted feeling like I will always be second best when it comes to his perfect little Camille" I snapped.
His eyes darken to a darker hue of gold "Jeremiah was a fucking idiot Bianca" he verifies sorrowfully "I know what you want, you want to be loved, cared for, protected and I pledge I will make sure you have everything" he reassured me meaning every single word.
"Please Lucca it's not you I'm worried about it's Jeremiah I don't want to get between the two of you" I whispered "Bianca" he called out when I turned away from him, I sense the emotions and the pull was even stronger. Plea to comfort him but I knew Jeremiah will never accept me.
"Just go Lucca please" I mumbled he got up and walked away "I'll give you time to think Bianca," he said as he unlocked the door "Cami may be his first love but you're my soulmate my chosen my other half my destiny and I intend you're his no matter how long it takes I'll make it my point of duty" Lucca proclaimed with such determination as he closed the door behind him.
Leaving me speechless my emotions are hay wired and all over the place, part of me wants to believe that I have hope while the other half knows there's no hope and especially no point in holding unto empty promises when it involves Jeremiah McIntosh.
***
"Oh my God slow down" I shouted laughing as the cold breeze fanned my face "where's the fun in that love" Lucca answered through the mind-link amusement lace his voice holding on tight as he leaped over a huge fallen log.
Oh, you probably wondering what the hell is going on well it's been one month now and every night I woke up to find Lucca lying in bed watching me sleep with the intention that I'll give him a second chance, and because of that we've been getting closer sneaking out into the night and just having fun.
He's truly amazing and right now we're running through the forest he's carrying me to his secret hideaway well it's no longer secret anymore since he just told me.
"Wow, it's just wow" I was bliss lost for words looking around the waterfall and lake the moonlight illuminating the beautiful bluish colour glowing when it shone on the water.
There is a power and a brilliance in the tranquillity, a place of stillness even in the roar of the water.
He laid down so I got off his back laying beside him running my fingers through his red fur "I'm glad you came" he confessed a huge smile spread across my face.
"I'm glad you invited me," I said lamely not used to interact with anyone it's been so long I've missed what a good conversation felt like.
He rolled and stood over me imagine how I look with a huge wolf standing over my small frame.
He did a wolf grin "nooo stop it tickles" I shouted between laugh as he licked my face he chuckled "Luccaaa" I giggled in a fit of laughter "Biancaaaa" he taunts mimicking a high pitch girly voice.
He stopped and it's like time paused everything around us stopped all my doubts went away with every breath every fibre in my body want and craves for his touch.
So many sensitivities existed in those eyes, "you're so beautiful Bianca" he professed we gazed at each other love happiness, and more but one thing for sure lust was a part of it and I know mine was reflecting the same.
Before I knew it, he was in human form his eyes were dark gold and I know Lucca had absolute authority over Jeremiah's body.
All I could think about was his lips I licked mine his eyes dart down and he did the same, my pulse raced when he leaned his head down towards me heart hammering, beating rapidly, heart skipping beats.
It's like I was losing my mind, anticipation kicked in, my mind was jumbled anxious just waiting how will it feel it's like day turns into weeks turn into months into year's shivers ran down my spine when he cupped my face.
Butterflies fluttered around fireworks went off when his lips finally landed on mine.
It's like I'm on clouds our lips moved as one moved in sync our lips fit perfectly like they were the missing piece for a puzzle they were softer than I've visualized I couldn't help it a light moan escape my lips he smirked into the kiss as he deepens it.
He nibbled on my bottom lip asking for entrance and of course, I gladly grant him access within a blink of an eye his tongue explore my mouth I enjoyed every single bit.
He disconnected his lips as he leaves feathery kisses lingering all over my body sucking on my neck until he found my sweet spot send shock waves of emotions blasting through every single part of my body.
I couldn't help but lean in closer for the first time I've felt wanted, for the first time I've felt connected most of all for the first time I've felt loved.
Feeling his fang glazing the sweet spot where he should put his mark "Lucca stop" I called out when he was about to mark me opening my eyes as we pulled away.
"What's wrong?" He asked sounding worried "you can't mark me, Lucca, it's not right" I explain sitting up, "but why you're my mate" he countered confused trying to figure me out.
Shaking my head "Jeremiah agreed with us being together," he said still attempting to figure out the sudden change.
"Don't you see Lucca it's not you... you aren't the problem" I utter "Jeremiah only agreed because you threatened to rip Camille's heart out and put it on a spike and serve it to the crows if he doesn't agree" I replay his exact words feeling my heart dropped when I came back to earth how can I live like this having Lucca fight and even threaten so he'd be able to spend time with me what kind of mate does that.
"You don't get it Lucca he'll never accept me for who I am... I'm tired of only being safe when you're in control how can I love you and not the human side" I expressed it's just not fair.
"I love you, Bianca," Lucca confessed dropping the 'L' bomb "you have no idea how much I love you how much you make me smile, how much I love talking to you, or how much I wish things weren't so difficult" I admitted with a low sigh.
Even though we don't act like normal mates yet here we are professing our love for each other our DNA is just different from the typical humans we don't court or do any of these lovey-dovey romantic things they do. Once we find our mates we the process which is mating rituals mating having to do with intimacy then comes the marking placing our claims.
So I know it was hard since it's a month no mates have stayed so long without mating but I'd be damn if I lay down and give myself to my mate because I can't control the desire and the need to complete the ritual with someone who doesn't want anything to do with me.
"I'm sorry" I muttered, "what do you mean?" Lucca voiced "you can't lose what you never had you can't keep what's not yours nor can you hold on to something that simply doesn't want to stay," I said sadly wiping away the tears damn stupid feelings I have to learn to put a stop to my waterfalls.
"I can't Lucca I can't keep doing this I don't want to come between you and Jeremiah please this is probably the hardest thing I've ever done" my voice breaking, "stop Bianca don't do this to me please don't" he pleaded holding me tight.
"Bianca just let me talk to him I can't bear to lose you please don't do this to me" he petition "Lucca stop" I cried into his chest I just can't it wasn't the plan to hurt Lucca but it's just so much I can take, his never-ending chants of please none stop trying to block out the pain and hurt the desperation in his voice.
Jeremiah POV
I sat there and listen as Lucca beseeched I've never seen him like this especially apologizing for something he didn't even do.
I'm an asshole those words Bianca said I'm the reason why she doesn't want to be with him I could feel their miseries and it crushes me knowing I'm the cause of everything.
My heart seems to stop for a second as she looked at me the moonlight adorns her sad face.
"Don't ever think this is your fault because it's not I'll always love you, Lucca, no matter what just know this if we're meant to be together, we'll eventually find each other but right now we just... just need some time apart I hope you understand" she spoke.
As she connected her lips Lucca wrapped his arms around her small waist and deepened it she's a good kisser who would have thought they pulled away.
"We better head back," she said quietly "promise me you'll always be mine" Lucca asked emotionally "don't worry Lucca I'll always be yours" Bianca answered reassuring even though she didn't make eye contact.
He shifted back to wolf form and Bianca climbed on as Lucca ran through the forest either of them said anything.
"She doesn't deserve that you imbecile" he shouted angrily punching the wall leaving a huge dent.
He was fuming echoes waves of rage shooting off of him "calm down Lucca" I yelled at him "don't fucking tell me to calm down" he snapped livid he was enraged he started throwing anything, he could get his hands on. I stood there as he destroyed every damn thing in sight here and there, shattering glasses, etc.
"She doesn't deserve any of the bullshit you put her through" Lucca growled throwing my lamp in the wall, "sometimes I wonder how you sleep at night then again you are a self-centred asshole with no mother fuckering conscience" he snarled.
Punching the mirror with the loud impact causing the glass to shatter "Lucca for heaven's sake if you don't stop you gonna destroy everything in the process" I tried to calm him down but he wasn't having none of that.
"She's gone" he whines "Bianca's gone I can't believe she's gone," Lucca said letting out whimpers he looked at my hand bruised knuckles, and blood coming from the wounds and glass spinsters in the cuts.
"You need to rest give me back authority," I instructed him he only retrieve to the back of my mind and lay down.
Lucca made another pathetic whimpering sound rolling my eyes couldn't take his sobbing anymore he started to let out a pitiful whining sound. If you've ever heard a sick puppy cry that's exactly how he sounded why would he even feel anything for Bianca blocking him out.
Looking around my room looks as if a tornado exploded bed covers were ripped to shreds, claw marks on the wall, claw marks ripped through the pillows in one word it was a disaster. Dressing my cuts throwing on a pair of black sweatpants and climb into bed.
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Waking up to the irritating sound of my alarm clock going off yawning rubbing my eyes pressing the snooze getting up.
Having a quick shower and do my morning routine sighing heavily and started cleaning this damn mess up.
"Come in" I called out the door open and the smell makes its way in looking up to see Bianca looking around with a shocked expression.
"What the hell happened here?" She blurted out while stepping over the broken vases.
"What do you think happened here? Lucca's what happened" I snapped "what you doing here anyway" I barked "uh I came to see if Lucca was doing okay" she replied avoided looking at me.
"You broke up with him and how did you expect he'd react uh" I spat bitterly she timidly backing away but suddenly stopped "how can you blame me" she shouted I was taken back by her sudden outburst I've never seen her shout at anyone before which was a complete turn-on.
"I did this because of you" she seethed, "you think I liked the way he was begging with me I had to blank out all the emotions" she yelled hitting my chest in the process "I did this because it was the right thing to do letting him go was the hardest thing I've ever done" she screamed at me punching me in the face with such force must hand it to her she had nerve but I'll let this one slide.
"Bianca listen" I yelled at her "no you tell me to listen you idiot" she growled at me did she just growl at me.
"Lucca is one of the best people I know and I'm mistreating him all because of you" she utters her eyes were blazing with anger and resentment.
I can't believe I messed up I could feel just how hurt she was, I just had to fight back every urge not to pull her in my arms and feel her warm body against mine not only that but kiss her right here right now and she's not making it any easy for me.
"Have a nice life I'm done trying to be in it...done fighting and trying to save something that doesn't want to be saved" she whispered so many emotions were coming off of her but one overpowered all hate she stared at me with such loath.
If looks could kill I'd be six feet under, "I'm hurt I cry myself to sleep and I hate myself all because of you congratulations you did it again you give me a reason to despise you even more" Bianca state with a light chuckle "fuck you Jeremiah" she spat my name with so much venom.
She walked away heading towards the door my hand automatically held hers causing Bianca to stop she turned around and I pulled her into my arms.
I just held her she tensed until she relaxed it was quiet all we could hear was our hearts beating she felt and fit so perfectly in my arms, not even Cami could master that even before I knew she wasn't my mate.
"Hey babe we've been waiting on you for breakfast what's taking you so long" Cami's voice called out as the door fly opened causing me to push Bianca away with such force causing her to land on the broken glass on the ground.
Looking over at Bianca she whimpers removing a broken piece of glass from the palm of her hand, she looked up at me and Cami, and back at me, I could tell she was trying hard not to cry.
"Why is this freak doing in your room?" Cami inquired sending glares at Bianca "uh-huh" I didn't even know what to say "he called me to help clean up until you arrive since you're here I'm leaving" Bianca interrupted.
As she pushed herself off the ground didn't even spare me a glaze as she walked out closing the door looking at the spot she was at seeing drops of blood.