It's been 2 weeks since THAT happened.Everything got messed up..or maybe I'm the only one who got messed up? ha ha.
Isn't this what I want?
I am afraid to have a friend.
I'm afraid to trust someone.
But why am I not happy that they have left me?
I'm in the cafeteria now..Alone... I also noticed that Yuan, Hailey, Kean, Chase and West seemed to be close… It seems okay that I'm not—
What am I saying? I'm the one who pushed them away… I'm the one who pushed them away from me… but why do I seem to be more affected?
When I saw Hailey coming inside the cafeteria, I immediately got up and left my food, to get out of the cafeteria.
"Are you really like that Rei—"
"Baby stop—"
"No Chase! That b*tch should explain!"
I turned to them.
haha ..
"yes… i'm always a b*tch, aren't i?" I smiled bitterly as I walked away from them.
I immediately wiped away my tears that had been dripping.
I should be happy right?
They are no longer in my life…
I won't be hurt anymore…
I will never experience having fake friends again ..
'Shouldn't I be happy?
But why…
None of my own got me on my knees in the middle of the hallway ..
I know they're looking at me now, because I look like a fool.
Crying in the middle of the hallway.
"Are you Rei — Rei!"
I tilted my head when I heard Yeri's voice.
"Yeri, what happened to you?" This question worries me.
She helped me to get up.
"No..I'm okay—"
She immediately slapped me which surprised me.
"Just knocking your senses" She shrugged her shoulders.
"Shit..the school nurse just slapped her right?"
"I know! I'm shocked"
"Same… omgg."
"Go back to your classes" Yeri said to those students.
I didn't speak until Yeri took me to the clinic.
"Let it out, don't worry, we are the only people here" The only thing Yeri told me and laid me down on one of the clinic beds.She also close the curtains to give me privacy, i guess?
I sat on the clinic bed and put my knees together, and then let myself cry and cry.
YUAN'S POV
(EARLIER)
"Why are you here?" Yeri asked me when i went inside the clinic.
"I'm sick" I answered and put my bag in her table.
"Are you crazy? Why did you skip class?"
"Shut up, I'm not in the mood" I answered and lay down on one of the clinic beds and closed the curtains. I want to have some sleep.
*FEW HOURS LATER*
"Let it out, don't worry, we are the only people here"
I slowly opened my eyes when I heard Yeri's voice.
Who is she talking to?
I was about to fall asleep when I heard some sobs beside my clinic bed.
My eyebrows met and I stood up.
This person next to me have been crying since the time she got there!It's bothering me!
I opened her curtain to peek at her.
"Hey—"
My body stiffened when I saw her.
Rei.
Crying while sleeping.
BACK TO REI'S POV
I woke up when I heard some noise. I didn't even realize that I had fallen asleep.
I can't open my eyes very much because it's a bit painful.
"That's what you get for crying too much"
My eyes widened and I woke up.
"Y-yuan !?"
He frowned. "Why are you so surprised?"
I touched my eyes because they hurts a little.
"damn it" I was a little surprised by his weak swearing.
"Rei .." His voice becomes soft.And i don't know what happened but it just made me burst out of tears again.
"a-ahh..what is it---" I said while wiping my tears.
He comes a little bit closer to me and hugged me.
My heart almost skipped a beat because of what he did.
"L-let..go of--" I said crying and pushed him but it seemed like my strength had escaped me.
"Hah..stupid" I heard him chuckled a bit as he put his chin on the top of my head.
I buried my face in his chest and burst into tears. After a few hours I seemed to have run out of tears.
"hey.." I immediately looked at him and let go of his hug.
He smirked. "I thought, you don't want to leave me anymore eh"
My face immediately turned red with embarrassment and I looked at him again.
"I don't know, Rei..i'm not like this before" I heard him talked.
"I've never been laughed so carelessly… .i've never been so worried about someone..And I've never been hurt like this before .." He looked at me.
"Do you pity me?"
He shook his head and smiled a little. "I don't… I am..worried about you"
My heart beat faster again as I looked into his eyes. But I quickly averted my gaze.
"Your eyes are really swollen right now" He frowned.
"Stop worrying about me" I said stiffly.
He ignored me and pretends that he didn't hear me.
"Huh? Did you say something?"
"Yuan."
He sighed. "We're friends so don't say that"
"I don't—"
"You don't want to be friends with me?I don't really care that much even if you meant it…"
"I meant it!"
He flicked my forehead."You're not scared of having friends.You're not scared to trust someone. It's just your thoughts and memories that made you think like that.You actually want to have friends.You want to trust someone.You want to have someone be by your side.You want to have real friends.And you already found them,right?It's us.You trusted us.It's just your past that keep on making you feel to not trust or be friends with someone…We will help you to move on Rei..We are your friends after all." He licked his lower lip and muttered some stuffs. "ah what the heck, i've never speak this long before—"
I smiled sadly.
"How..how did you know?"
He shrugged his shoulders.
"Let me give you a water…. i'll be right back" He was about to leave when I pulled the bottom of his uniform.
I pouted.
"Are you acting cute right now?"He smirked.
I immediately let go of his uniform and rolled my eyes.
I saw him removed his uniform and that made him,wearing a plain shirt only.But it's a little thin that I can see his upper body.
"W-w-wa—" Flustered.
He smacked my head softly.
"It's your fault" He glared at me but I just rolled my eyes.
Minutes has passed and I smiled bitterly as I looked at him.
"Want me to tell you about my past?"
He got shocked of what I said.
"It's okay if you—"
"I was backstabbed by my fake friends before.."