BLOSSOM
It's 3:15PM on Friday and I'm seated on the blue couch that I always sit on every Friday, waiting for my 3:30PM session with Mr Ray. I don't find seeing him helpful in anyway but who else should I talk to when I don't have anyone whom I call friend. It's not that I don't think he's my friend but he's my doctor, I bond with him since I see him only every Friday. My head is so flippen heavy from the embarrassing fall that I had in school. Stupid fall.
"You're next Miss Blom", the lady in reception calls out with a smile, same smile I see every Friday, I don't know how she does it.
"It's Blossom, just call me Blossom", I correct her as I get up. I don't like my name being shorten for whatever reason. As I walk to Mr Ray's office I pull out my phone to check my reflection from it. "Hold it together Blossom", I whisper to myself. My pupils are slowly changing from a red color to their natural light brown color.
"Lady Blossom, how are you?", Mr Ray greets just as I walk in his office. I smile at him before responding to his greeting, then close the door behind me. "Come take a seat",
I don't know why I get too nervous when I get to my therapy sessions.
"It's good to see you Mr Ray", I say as I take a seat on the couch in front of him. He's on a single brown leather couch, behind him is his desk and on the far end by the door he's got a fridge. A big ass fridge.
"Right, before we start I need you to relax, get comfortable", he says as he clicks his pen to scribble on the notebook on his lap. I lean back, relaxing my body like he says then take a deep breath in before slowly exhaling it. "How was school?",
"School is shit",
"You're not suppose to say shit, but I'll let it slide", I roll my eyes, he always lets it slide. "Parris still treating you badly?",
"Parris is Parris. She's always gonna be mean even when I try by all means to ignore her", I reply. I don't know why Parris hates me so much, I've never done anything to her for her to hate me. I always ignore her, try by all means to look away when she's looks my way, I change paths when I see her walking my way, by no, she's an asshole, she always makes sure that I see how much of an asshole she is.
I feel my blood boil as I think about her, and I know the color of my eyes will change if I don't calm myself down.
"What happened? What did she do this time?", Mr Ray asks.
"She pushed me down the stairs",
"What-",
"No, its only 3 steps, not some serious steps", I quickly clarify so Mr Ray wouldn't take it in some attempt murder kinda shit.
"But still I don't think that's the right thing for her to do. Did you report her?", he asks.
"No", I look down, avoiding eye contact since how I fell is really embarrassing.
"So how does all that make you feel?", he asks. I hide my emotions so well, and on my record it's written that I have anger issues.
"It makes me feel really angry", I nod in agreement with what I'm saying. I'm really angry right now and I don't wanna scare Mr Ray by showing him my feelings.
"You don't seem angry", he says.
"I know. Last time I showed my anger I almost killed someone", I reply.
"You have your own way of channeling that anger now, I've notice that. Every time you feel you're about to lose it, you take a deep breath", he says.
Yeap, it's actually something Nori helped me with. She came out of nowhere just after I fell and all I heard from her was "breathe, breathe, Blossom breathe, you need to breathe", she was yelling it so loud it was impossible to miss it. All I was focused on was how scared I was, and the heat that rediated through my body. It was awful, I couldn't breathe up until I heard Nori screaming breathe.
"Have you tried making friends?",
"I'm not good at that", I shake my head.
"You need to let down your walls", he says.
"What walls, I don't have any fucken' walls", I reply.
"I'll let that one slide too",
seriously? I might as well Cass the entire session and he'll just let it slide.
"What about your mum? Have you spoken to her about Parris?",
"No, she won't understand", my mum and I don't have the best bond. She always says that I'm being dramatic and that I need to deal with my anger of dad leaving. She's actually the cause of dad leaving but yet she acts like she knows nothing.
"Why do you think she won't understand?", Mr Ray asks.
"We don't see eye to eye", I say and he nods.
"Before you leave let me give you some advice", he says.
"As my doctor or as a person?",
"A doctor is still a person but anyway, I'm giving you an advice as a person", he replies. "I know it all looks different from your point of view, but I still believe you're strong and brave to handle your life responsibly and deep down inside of you, you know how to deal with Parris", he says then closes his notebook.
"Cool", I get up from the couch and say my goodbye. "See you next Friday", he nods with a smile and quickly walk out of his office.
When I get outside I stop a taxi. Home is only 40minutes drive away and I need to get there before my mum does.
...
When I get home I'm not surprised to find Nate in the living room watching soccer with a beer in hand. "What's up loser", he says just as I walk in. Nate is my mother's boyfriend, he's 10 years younger than my mum and we always fight about what the hell he wants from my mum.
"What are you doing here?", I scold. He really upsets me, but not in a way of changing my eye color.
"I live here remember?", he rolls his eyes.
"Argh, you're such a baby", I make a disgusted face then walk out heading to my bedroom.
"Hey? You can't call your dad a baby", he calls out as I go.
"I have a dad you big baby", I yell back at him.
I wouldn't say Nate and I have some kind of step dad and step daughter bond. Firstly he's such a child with his childish mindset and childish behavior. What actually disgusts me of him is that him and my mum always have wild sex while they know very well that my room is right next to theirs. Being in college doesn't mean that it's alright for them to treat me like a roommate, gosh, more reason I wanna move out.
When I get to my room I head straight to the window seat. It's my favorites part of my room. I grab my Romeo and Juliet novel from my bed, since thats it's place and I grab my book marker and open on the page it is at. As I try to read my phone beeps indicating I have a notification but I ignore it.
It beeps again, and again, until I'm forced to grab it and see what's happening.
"OH my gosh", I gasp.
A video of me falling down the steps at school has been posted online.
I don't even know why I listened to mum this morning when she convinced me to wear a dress. I hate dresses now look what happened.
I watch as the video plays, me falling on my face and revealing the underwear I have on to the entire school, now it's to the entire world. Great.
As I continue to watch, I feel a flow of embarrassment and sadness.
My body changes its temperature as I feel the clouds closing up outside.
I'm trying so hard not to cry, but the more I watch and think of how humiliated I was, the darker it becomes outside.
If Parris didn't put her foot in my way I wouldn't have fell. Thunder strikes just as I sniff some frustration. I'm holding my tears back but it's so difficult since the video is all over social media.
Tears finally roll down my cheeks quicker than I thought. It's the same time with the drops of rain outside. I know I'm the one causing all this, I know. And I need to calm myself down before I cause some serious storm.
"Blossom there's someone here to see you?", Nate yells from the living room.
I don't wanna see anyone.
Within 10 minutes Nori walks into my bedroom without even knocking. Irritation take over as I'm trying calm myself down.
"What are you fucken' doing here?", I snap. "Are you following me?",
Wind starts blowing as it heavily rains. Tears keep falling down my eyes and I can't stop them.
"Oh my gosh", she gasps. "Your eyes are blue", she walks closer to me with confusion all over her face. "You need to calm down", she tries calming me down. She holds up hands in surrender as if I'm dangerous or something and I'm still wondering what the hell is she's doing here?
Nori isn't even my friend, but everytime I have these weather or anger episodes she's always around. A beautiful girl like her shouldn't be with a fucked up girl like me. Plus she barely looks at me when we're in school premises.
You know what? I hate this, I hate fake people.
The more I think about it, the more it makes me upset, angry.
Thunder strikes even louder, lighting flashes everywhere. Tress are shaking, begging for mercy from the strong wind.
I'm not even focused on what's happening outside. I'm too focused on what I'm feelings.
As Nori comes closer I shift back, leaning against the wall before I ball myself, holding tightly on my knees as I cry.
As I cry the rain heavily pours.
"Blom, try and control your feelings", she says then slowly takes a seat besides me.
"You're gonna flood this town-",
"Hey, what's happening?", out of nowhere a guy from school climbs in from my window. It's Warren, he's the player of all players in school. He's dated or slept with every girl in and I've never really seen him with one girl for longer which will make us think of she's his girlfriend.
"Nori I thought you were handling this, her eyes are blue and flashes a bit of red", Warren sounds worried, or a bit scared. "Have you been outside?",
"I'm handling this", Nori rolls her eyes. "She's really upset, I can't seem to calm her down", she cries.
"Where's Nate?", Warren asks.
"I've put him to sleep", Nori replies.
I should be confused but I can't seem to stop crying. I'm so unhappy with my life, my mum doesn't care about me and dad is just dad.
"Alright, control the wind as I help her calm down", Warren walks to me then kness before me, placing his hands slowly on my knees. My head is still buried in my hands but I glance at Warren and Nori every once in a while.
Suddenly I feel a cold feeling, I lift up my head to see Warren's blue eyes glowing brightly. They're not his regular blue, they're a dark shade of blue. I look up to Nori's blue eyes and hers are glowing a lighter blue than Warren's.
"Whats happening here?", I ask, tears still in my eyes.
"The wind is still strong", Nori yells.
"Hey, focus on me, listen to my voice", Warren says. I feel my body getting cooler and cooler.
"It's working", Nori says.
"What's happening?", I ask, again. "I feel like I'm losing myself",
"Not yourself, just your emotion", Warren replies.
He's right, I don't feel as angry as I did before. It's like he's controlling me or something.
"You're doing this to me?", suddenly the rain stops, I'm filled with questions but I'm not anger anymore.
"Her eyes are back to normal", Warren says as he release a sigh.
"Warren? What's happening?",
"I'm not the one who's good with explaining, I'll leave it to Nori", he says then gets up and goes out through my window he come in from.
I always knew there was something wrong with me, especially the anger I couldn't control. My mum took me to every doctor for my eyes since every time I go through some emotion my pupils change color. I know it's red when I'm angry, and blue for when I'm sad. But my natural eye color is golden brown. I don't know how I got to be like this since my parents are both African. Both my parents have dark brown eyes and they both have chocolate skin tone but I'm a caramel color. What I don't get is my hair. My hair is naturally silver to white color. How does that happen on a African girl like me? Why am I so different in every manner?
"Em, I don't know how to explain it but em, you're a faerie. But you aren't fully formed faerie since you're mixed with witches blood", she says making me gasp, I don't know what she's talking about.
"Back in 1920 faeries were faeries and witches were witches. Both creatures lived in separate worlds. Then you know, there's always someone greedy who wants to ruin good things. So one strongest male witch or you could warlock named Remus crossed to the faerie world and started causing trouble. He was bad, wanted attention from both creatures as he spoke of change, freedom, success and what so ever. Faeries didn't wanna hear him out, they thought he's troublemaking was unnecessary and he needed to go back to the witches world since he wasn't welcomed in the faerie world",
"What change was he talking about?", I ask.
"Both creatures use magic, he wanted to combine faerie magic with some of their witch spells to see what can become of it",
If I wasn't what I am I wouldn't be listening to this, sounds like total crap.
"Some faeries thought what he's talking about is bullshit and shouldn't be heard, some were curious and wanted to know more. So he created his own crew, had a meeting point with them. And they shared ideas, he fell in love with a beautiful faerie named Padma. They made their relationship secrete since different creatures aren't allowed to be together. In the meetings they'd pretend nothing is going on between them. Then a few months later Padma got pregnant-",
Out of nowhere my mind goes blank and I blackout without falling to the floor. As I fight for light, I suddenly see myself in the school hallway. There's no other students except for me." Hello?", I call out to see if anyone is around, but no reply. I then walk down to the cafeteria and before I get there, a guy shows up. Beautiful boy with deep green eyes. He's got a lighter complexion than I do. His dark hair looks so soft.
He walks up to me and stops inches from my face, "Nice to finally meet you", he says.