Blake's POV:
Today was so stressful with school and coming back to find out that my mom was in the hospital
I guess the cigarettes and hookar wasn't for her. Doctor said she won't make it cause the smoke has affect her vital organs.
in school I was just a sad piece of blob but I had to put on a happy face so no one would ask me. I kept on thinking of Avery. she looked sad because I didn't talk to her today, infact I wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone. I know she's girlfriend now but I didn't know how to talk to her in my mood. I'd notice that during lunch she would sneak a peek at me and I won't look at her back. Scarlett was just making things worse looking and touching me when Avery was looking. I let her touch me cause I didn't have strength but that was my mistake cause I don't know what was rolling in Avery's head, seeing her boyfriend touched by someone he kissed.
I mean that's fucked up but I didn't want any drama from Scarlett.
went home and showered, then laid down in the bed. just as I did, my phone started ringing. saw Avery's name popped up on my screen but I couldn't pick it up. she called again but I couldn't pick. I know I'm hurting her but I can't bring myself to talk about it to her, didn't want to bother her with my problems. she has a perfect life.. didn't want to ruin that.
"Then why are you dating her?"
I thought about that.
cause I love her?
"you love her but you dont want to talk to her? that's not love, that's friendship and she's not your friend. she's your girlfriend." my subconscious deadpans.
I need to talk to her before she thinks I'm not interested anymore.
fast!