Havaliana sat on her throne with dignity and pride. She was known as the wisest among the wisest and her speech is full of wisdom. Although she has gone through so many things in her life and bears so much unspeakable pain, she stood tall in front of her subjects and ruled her kingdoms wisely. In the past 10 years, after those sorrowful memories that nearly snatched half of her life she began to slowly accept the things that called fate. Hoping there will be a new beginning and a new happiness in her life although it may sound impossible. To accept the fact that she has lost her one and only mate, is just unbearable. There is nothing more she wants in her life except from giving the second chance of having a mate. The future of her kingdom need to be protected with the real heir. she doesn't want to forged a marriage with other royal family without having the mate bond just to have an heir. Because later, the child that will be born, will only receive bad luck in his or her life.
And her life here is getting heavier day by day. Nobles now are brazen enough to cut off her words and some of them even dare to act behind her knowledge. The neighboring kingdoms keep giving her the ideas of having a political marriage with them. There is only her left with the royal blood in her kingdom. It's obvious they want to have the hold of both Naperon Kingdom and Ar'alia Kingdom that are under her care, but to keep rejecting them will strain their international relationship. Ar'alia Kingdom was the kingdom belong to her mate but before he pass away, he passed the throne of that kingdom to her,making her the legal owner of his kingdom.
She can protect her countries but she hates war. It'll only bring sadness and despair. Not only that, the sudden rise of the Empire that started to spread their wings is making her even more worried. Currently the empire succeeds in holding 8 kingdoms under their wing and if they decide to attack her kingdoms, it won't be hard for them to win. she only wished to live in quiet and peace, leaving the matter of marriage and mate to the nature.
All that memories flashes one by one in her head making her slightly dizzy and her heart began to waver.
Sighed.
With the companions of her lady-in-waiting who was standing behind her, Havaliana woke up from her seat and walked out of the hall. The meeting has just ended with many unsettled things. The things that worried her even more were the fading memories of her mate. This was the biggest problem so far. Now she can't even remember his name or his face. Sometimes she could only see his figures in blurry form or could only hear his faint voice calling her name.
Although she had written everything about him in a book but soon she would forget about that, or sometimes the book suddenly nowhere to be found and even worse if she found the book, everything that she wrote disappeared just like that and if she woke up the next day, there will be another thing she forgot about him. His birthplace, his name, his favorite things and even their love token, and her anxiety to face the next day grew even bigger.
She already secretly consulted this problem to the Royal Mage, and a few trusted nobles but nothing changed. They can't find the real problem. There are no curses on her, and no elements of black magic. She's completely clean and also unreadable.
She continued her walk accompanied by Lady Lidia. She headed to the nearby pond, looking at the fishes and blooming lilies while completely lost in her thoughts. She is still thinking of a way to solve this problem.
'Maybe I should find a black magician?'
'No! It's forbidden to use such method,'
She walks along the pond ignoring everything around her and is suddenly startled when someone greets her. It was Duke Miraz from the Fernandoz Family, one of the powerful nobles.
"Yes, Duke Miraz?"
"Your majesty, apologies for interrupting your walk, but there's something i need to talk to,"
"What is it?"
"From the royal secretary, I got to know that the king of Mahala Kingdom has proposed you to be his queen, and I wonder why you reject such a grant opportunity?" she turned her body and looked sharp at him. Hate it when someone questioning her decision. Although she's a queen who hate blood and war but she's still a royal.
"What? A grant opportunity? His intention is so obvious, i can read it wide and clear, he just wants to have a hold of my kingdom! In fact he already has more than 300 concubines in his harem! I would never marry such trash!"
"I know your majesty, but once you marry him you'll have a hold of his kingdom too,"
"Duke Miraz, are you seriously aware of what you said?" This is the topic that she hates the most and here he is discussing this in front of her.
"You do know that women in the Mahala Kingdom don't get to voice their opinion, they don't get any positions among the governments, even if i become the queen in his kingdom, all the nobles there will never listen to my opinion!"
"I know this is a heavy topic for you ,but our kingdom need an heir your majesty,"
Sighed.
"I don't want to talk about this matter anymore, there are so many things that need to be focused on now, you may leave," after giving her a quick glance, he bowed his body.
"Yes...your majesty,"
Havaliana turned her head to the pond, she could even see her body on the surface of the calm water pond. The small ripple of the water and the beautiful fishes swimming in the pond....they seem to be helping her to calm down, to give a second thought of her decision and to have hold back of her place.
Again she lost in thoughts.
But she never knew that was actually the last memory she had there.