I open my eyes and notice how everything stopped too soon. I am still a virgin, technically. That's not good...
I wanted to finally go all the way, but Ignis stopped after pleasuring me. I wanted us to feel good together. And here I am, all sweaty and pleased but still intact.
«And now?» I murmur, trying to find out whether it's only a step of the whole act or we're really done.
«Aren't you tired, Veronica?» he whispers to my ear while caressing my back and pecking my shoulder. «I'll let you rest, now.»
«I'm not that tired,» I point out.
«No?»
«No. I want to go all the way.» Only after talking, I remember I'm supposed to act lady-like.
But still, if just preliminaries brought me to feel so much pleasure, I can't wait to see the rest.
It's only natural, right? I'm curious, not lewd.
Also, I want Ignis to feel as much bliss as I did. I want him to pant in ecstasy as well, to call my name and embrace me tighter too.
But he lay down as if he was the one receiving pleasure. His face is relaxed, and his smile makes me feel guilty for disturbing him.
Yet, I don't have the energy to talk him into this again! It's so much work, and he doesn't let me have my way that easily...
«Ignis, you don't like me,» I whine, rubbing my head on his chest. He's still wearing his clothes. He never had the intention to make love with me, this moron...
«I like you, Veronica.»
«Then why are you so reluctant? Why don't you want to finally be husband and wife?»
«What are you talking about?»
He sighs, looking up helplessly.
I don't buy it, though. I'm the desperate one here.
«I like you very much. And I want to make love. But you always back away. If you don't want it, then just say it. I will stop troubling you; just tell me off. Don't trick me into thinking you feel the same as me...»
«The same as you?»
I crook my mouth and sigh.
«I want to feel you inside me,» I murmur in a low voice. «Not just your fingers.»
Oh, this last one was supposed to be a thought. But it's the truth.
I liked it very much. But I want more.
«I know this desire is impure and that a girl shouldn't be driven by her instincts... Yet, I can't help it. I can't resist you, Ignis.»
«Veronica, you...» he moans, turning on his side. He observes my face with his emerald eyes, and I remember old talks of when I was a little girl. About not to tease men, for they can be very petty.
«You make me like this, Ignis. It's not my fault... You're the one tempting me!»
His mouth crashes on me, and another lustful, passionate kiss takes away my breath. I moan, relieved, and I hug him back so he can't escape.
When I push my hips towards him, I feel his hardness poking. I glance down and see his trousers tenting around the bulge on his crotch. How come he prefers to endure it rather than embracing me?
I grab the shirt and pull it apart, undoing the first few buttons to have some view for my tired eyes.
I kiss his chest, leaving a sloppy trace with my pecks, and I lick here and there to see whether Ignis has the same reaction. He doesn't, really.
But I want to kiss him as he did to me! Also, if he kept control, it means I wasn't alluring enough. If I trouble him enough, he won't have a choice but do what married couples are supposed to do.
Meanwhile, my fingers reach the last button of the shirt. I push it down from his shoulders and moan at the sight of his muscles flexing to help me. I pull his hair and kiss his neck, licking it before actually leaning my lips.
«You're mine,» he murmurs while working on the trousers and getting rid of them. «I let you run away from me so many times, yet you always come back and look for trouble... What can I do with you, ah?»
«Whatever you want,» I giggle. «Just don't stop midway. Have some firmness as a man and keep your objectives in place!»
«You...» he roars, grabbing me and pushing me down. He blocks my wrists on the bed and smirks at the show.
I can only hopelessly stare back at him. I blink, slow and on purpose. Just like a deer that doesn't want to run away from trouble.
«Yes?» I say. My voice trembles with excitement, but I don't let it discourage me.
My heart beats like crazy, and my legs still tremble from before.
«Don't regret it later,» he says, rubbing his nose on my neck. «Don't say I didn't warn you, either.»
«I'll take responsibility for my actions,» I chuckle. «It will be my fault, all right?»
«I want you so much, Veronica. Yet, it's too soon. We don't know each other enough.»
«We do, though. I know you, Ignis. And every day, I find out something that makes me like you more.»
I won't feel like this ever again in the future. If this fails and Ignis abandons me, I'll grow old alone. I won't be able to fall in love again.
Love? Is this it?
It would explain everything. And it would be a reason for my craziness.
Not just that love isn't rational, but it can explode this fast as well.
«Do you still remember what I told you before?» he murmurs.
«I'll tell you if anything bothers me,» I sigh. «Is that all right?»
«Perfect,» he says, nodding.
«Now, show me what happens when I tease you too much...»
His wily smile is too much for my heart. Yet, I'm happy. He won't leave me here again. I can feel it: we'll succeed this time!