While I was living my hectic life, I had a friend and his name was Abhimanyu. He really was a very good friend of mine! We almost had the same vibe for most of the times! I mean we were friends from three years then. And during my studies we started getting real close! We used to talk everyday on instagram! Although we used to study in the same school but we had never met in real life because he had already passed out school when we started getting close! And I knew everything was gonna be way too weird when we actually meet in real life!
I remember that once I had ghosted him once for a whole year. I don't know why but he had texted my friend then. I had deactivated all my social handled and he didn't have my phone number. That's actually how online friendship works! He texted my friend and asked her about my whereabouts.
"Where is your that aera gaira best friend?" He used to call me aera gaira because people around me used to call me Aerika Kera! Sounds similar right? But I hated that aera gaira thing! And now he calls me churchwasi! I don't know why man! I used to overthink if my name sounds too much over the head!
"She have gone home! And there the internet is not working." That's what my friend replied and I had actually gone home! And there was really no internet at my place that time! And then she said, "I don't remember. That place is very cold! She surely might be in Shimla!"
"She is at home?"
"Yes!"
"And there is no internet?"
"Yes!!!"
"Ohh dumbo! That place is not called Shimla! Its called Jammu!"
And then he laughed so badly! It was actually hilarious! At least I felt it hilarious!
And that time when internet was totally off in Jammu for more than one year! That time there was no corona and lockdown but all that was still hectic because it still felt like I was living a quarter of my life without internet! And the rest of my life had been eaten by the medical shit!
At least he knew that I was at home though! And when I came back from home, me and my that friend had all the girly gossip about that Abhimanyu boy! And she really felt that he was hot! She actually said me that you are a fool that you're ignoring all his qualities and living in solitary! And that was the first time that I had a tingling sensation about him! But I didn't want to talk to him because I had ghosted him! I had ghosted each and every friend of mine I used to talk on social media!
And then during the lockdown, whenever I used to get back from my cousin's house, I used to straight away sit on my phone and used to talk to him before I was over with my phone hours! And at that time I really had a bad tingling sensation about him. I didn't know what that sensation was. I had never talked to a guy like that. I started to stay less in my dream world and started concentrating more on reality! That at least helped me study properly when I had forgotten all about the fake scenarios!
Who would not fall for someone like him? I mean, he was all chivalrous and all. He even had good body built! And his biceps were breath taking. Sometimes I used to feel weird that why am I thinking of some guy in that way but then my cousin used to calm me down by saying, "Bro chill, you're a girl and you're 17 year old! When are you gonna have those tummy butterflies? You cant have high school love feeling when you're married! Its okay for you to get thoughts like that."
She was right at her point too! I can think about all that! Alright from my side. But deep down I still felt weird.
And then one day; it finally happened! He indirectly said to me that he liked me. We were talking about why none of us had a relationship before. Most of the relationships start like that because the person gets courage to confess. It was through my phone but I still had the same feeling as if he were just right beside me!
"I never had a boyfriend because I already have someone who makes me feel safer than anyone else can! I don't even feel safe around some real person the way I feel around him!" and over here I was talking about Kapura but he might have thought I was talking about him! "Why did you never had a girlfriend?"
"I never had a girlfriend because even I had someone who never made me feel lonely. I have abusive parents and my academics are a total mess but whenever I talk to her, I get carefree of the whole world." And in here he was actually saying the truth! He really had abusive parents who always used to fight each other and never even had time to check if their son had eaten food or not! "While I talk to her, I actually start getting positive thoughts about myself and I start getting optimistic about my future! The past three years of my life were smooth because I had her by my side."
"Why didn't you confess to her yet? Why did you wait for three years?" I asked him because I had some clue that he was talking about me! And even if he wasn't talking about me then I really didn't care.
"Then let me ask you right away, right now! Aerika, can I consider you mine forever?" And oh my god! I didn't believe that he asked me in such a way. He was so smooth at that! And he actually proposed me! The guy I had a crush on proposed me. I didn't really believe it. I closed my phone and got done with my phone hours and went straight to study!