Proof he wondered inwardly what can I offer her as proof. The thought of family made his eyes waver and he felt a sense of loss even after all this time he could not let go of that past.
Anuka didn't miss that sense of extreme hatred that came from him it was there for just a second before it vanished.
No, he thought he couldn't bring himself to speak of his family before he settled those matters permanently, but there was something else.
"You have my curse," he said softly.
"You'll find that having a family isn't in your cards, if you'd like you can force a man to impregnate you, but even your own children will hate you so honestly, it's pointless," he spoke with a bitter smile.
"Truthfully, taking that curse of mine is probably the biggest mistake you've ever made, unlike me you know what's it like to have companionship, to live without it is going to be the hardest thing you can possibly imagine."
Anuka could tell that he was hiding something but the truth was clear in his eyes, that curse was truly unfathomable but that pain in his eyes it was always there, and she could even feel excitement pouring from him as he spoke to her, as if speaking to her was making him happy.
In one moment, she felt happy for him and in the next she felt dread for her future, what kind of torture would one have to endure, that being interrogated would make them happy.
It wasn't like she was having a conversation with him; she was judging him and if he was even the slightest bit suspicious, she would have killed him without a thought and yet still he smiled joyously.
"It must drive a person mad to be alone for so long!?"
Samsara merely chuckled at her words, madness was his one true companion, even now he didn't know if Anuka was a delusion his mind had made up or if she was real, he wasn't even sure if the events in the god realm were real.
"Will it be…", just as she was about voice her question as if he read her mind he answered with a gentle smile.
"Don't worry too much it's only a twentieth of its full strength, and I might be able to teach you a few tricks to suppress it, with how weak the curse is my suppression techniques will be much more effective, at worst you won't be able to properly interact with people a grade below you but I doubt you're going to make any real friends either, for the most part, people will just tolerate your existence."
"You're an entire grade lower than me." She said it was surprising that he wasn't treating her any different from before since the curse was on her.
Samsara sighed internally, it was his curse, to begin with, and currently, he was back in his original body, he had tried to the words of heaven to remove the curse several times before but he always faced a problem the curse was incomplete.
It was only now that realised the other part was on his original body, and he couldn't remove one without removing the other, it was like a lock with two keys, but he had no idea that there was another keyhole.
In fact, he was certain that it would take him no more than a dozen years to decipher the key to completely remove the curse.
"Yes, I am," he admitted while his hands continued to dart across several panels on the altar. ", but the curse is mine, to begin with, I'm so used to it that there is no way it can ail my mind, you should know that curse also makes one think less of themselves as well, and secondly we are in the void right now."
"The curse is formed from the words of heaven within the Neather Heavens, so it will always have an effect there but once you exit it, the words of heaven become useless, or rather they are unperceivable by beings that aren't born within the Neather Heavens." he explained.
"This curse will cause you more problems than others because you're a god of pride but at the same time it could also aid you in breaking through."
As Anuka thought of this she realised the opportunity this curse would present her as the god of pride having her self-esteem lowered would be detrimental to her progress but should she overcome the effects it would strengthen her pride, she was certain that overcoming this obstacle would make her an equal to gods like Kalatis.
She even held the hope of being able to enter the final stage of gods, she gripped her fists and steeled her resolve, she would do this while protecting her young master.
While Anuka was busy in her thoughts, Samsara began a full scry of the heavens to choose his landing point but he found that the situation of this universe was anything but optimistic, it looked ready to be erased by the void, "Why are there only 6 there should be 9, eight in the least," she heard Samsara's cries of outrage and decide to peek at the panels, he was using.
She was surprised to find that the panels were scrying tools and large-scale scryers, even in the god realm there weren't more than a hundred divining tools that could do such large-scale scrying.
Each panel displayed one of the six universes it merely highlighted the mortal and immortal zones of each universe, which was already an impressive feat, and Samsara had accomplished this feat in only a few minutes, if Anuka had to put his ability on a rank board as a scryer he would easily enter the top 3 and this included the gods in the second-grade and even his father.
At the central point of each universe, an intersection point could be seen, this was the point on which all the universes converged to create the god realm.
It had to be known that each universe existed in the exact same place overlapping each other, and the layout of the universes was a very messy, wibbly-wobbly, 3-dimensional map with some portions belonging to the mortal and immortal realms without any fixed order or pattern.
Anuka noticed fate strings on Samara's hand which surprised her even more, to have accomplishments in both fate laws, scrying, and divining were unbelievable even to a god, one can read the past, present, and future while the other could gather the information belonging to the past and present of every world.
It was because of this that it became impossible for people to learn both it broke the balance of the world and damaged its fabric. Therefore it usually came with serious repercussions for the user and yet he was fine.
"Young master please allow me to explain the situation of the six universes." After Samsara gave a nod she began while keeping an eye on the fate strings.
She knew that the universes were in chaos and he would have a lot of questions and so she started with the most obvious things he would want to know.
She picked a panel and explained, "This is universe one, in truth, no one knew anything about it until recently except your father he always referred to it as the cradle but no news ever came from it, this universe has been frozen for 300 trillion years and your body was sealed within."
Samsara's eyes flashed that time period was too long, he didn't keep count of his age but he was certain that it couldn't be more than 150 trillion years, for now, he could form a few theories for the time-lapse but he had no way of proving or disproving his theories for now.
Next Anuka picked up two of the panels, the ones that truly concerned Samsara because there were enormous problems in these universes.
"This is universe four and five, four is known as the Dreaming Sea and Five is known as the Domain of Pride," she spoke proudly, from this Samsara could tell that the universes were named based on the greatest gods that came from them and Anuka was obviously from the fifth.
"The borders of these two universes that separate the mortal and immortal realm are broken, in there the immortals took control of everything and unfortunately due to this the universe stagnated only 380 gods were born from these universes to date and I was the very last.", it was only natural that she would brag about her every accomplishment as the god of pride so Samsara didn't bother stopping her and continued listening with a smile on his face.
"In all the universes besides the first, you will find tears like this," she pointed to tiny little red specks on the maps that Samsara had failed to notice until this point, ", these are all void tears and from them, all sorts of beings and creatures come out including invading forces from other plains, so far the only universe that has been able to handle them is the Universe of God." She pointed at the sixth universe.
When she noticed the raised eyebrow of Samara she giggled and her voice was like music to ears, "We gods gave it that name, to date it has produced over 80000 of the 102000 gods from the god realm and the leaders of all the factions have risen from that universe."
"What about my father?" asked Samsara the word father still foreign on his tongue, it felt strange just using the word, in his past lives his parents were always the greatest disappointment.
"No one knows he hasn't told anyone not even Kalatis the dragon god, after your father he is the oldest god and your fathers' closest confidant.", Samsara laughed inwardly as he noticed her inner turmoil even her facial muscles twisted as she spoke Kalatis's name.