After the intense work that was given to her, Jen retired to the maid's quarter since they informed her that she would be sleeping with them, she hasn't even tasted food from morning, while other maids ate and laughed amongst themselves, she was busy washing or cleaning wherever they instructed her to. She was really tired of her life, "Did mother not want me? was that why she left me?" Jen couldn't help but ask herself, she has never felt the warmth of a mother before and she couldn't help but think If she was cursed, everyone kept leaving her. First was her parents and now valet who wasn't interested in her, she was really tired of living a useless life, why can't her granny take her along when she died.
Jen sighed as she laid on the sheets spread on the ground, she closed her eyes to sleep but the noises and whispering coming from the maids wouldn't let her, she strained her eyes to listen to their conversation that they were so much engrossed in.
"Did you know his highness kissed that lady?" Caren asked and Emily shook her head.
"She was cleaning something on his cheek and they ended up kissing" Mia added and Jen's eyes widened, she couldn't believe all what she heard, was valet interested in Fiona?, didn't he love her anymore, tears clouded her eyes as she fought them back but they flowed like river.
"You guys should stop gossiping around, we have lot of work to do tommorow" Emily did as she laid on the sheets, with her eyes half closed she heard Mia's voice and what the lady blurted out was shocking to the core.
"Oh yeah, the lady and his highness are getting married tommorow" Mia teased and everyone turned their gazes to her, including Jen, like seriously, their looks showed that they didn't know about it and Mia was only playing around, she didn't know they would take it seriously, she felt high and mighty that they wanted to listen to her.
"I'm not lying, I am being serious here, everyone knows about it" Mia kept teasing them and they took it seriously as they started whispering again. Jen couldn't listen to it anymore as she hastily ran out crying. She crumbled on the floor with her head buried on her legs and her arms wrapped over her legs. She cried hard as she vented all her anger hitting the ground hard but no one came to console her, no one listened to all her cries.
Jen was devastated, she really needed someone to talk to, someone to express how hurt she was feeling but there was no one. Why was her life so difficult, what did she do to encounter so much pain even after marrying valet, why does it hurt so much, she felt her heart shattering upon hearing all those nonsense the maids were blurting.
She felt like dying and anger clouded her eyes as she strode towards the kitchen, she caught sight of she sharp knife and she picked it up, she was tempted to end her life once and for all, 'Do it, you won't suffer anymore, you'll meet your parents and you'll be happy again' Something whispered in her head.
'Jen you can't, what if valet doesn't like her, you still have a chance to win him back if you apologize one more time, I'm sure he would forgive you' She heard another voice.
'Don't listen to her, didn't you hear that valet wanted to marry Fiona, he loves her, remember he asked for her when they were fighting with the vampires, he didn't ask of you' she heard the first voice I her head and she felt the whole world was spinning around her.
"He hasn't met you before, how could you conclude such things, remember he didn't kill you when he broke into the castle' the second voice whispered.
"If she didn't beg for her life, he wouldn't hesitate to kill her, he doesn't.love her, he hates you Jen, he hates you' the first voice whispered again.
'Dont believe what he is saying, you can't end your life because of your assumptions, what of your dream to find your parents, to meet and know them, where has the dream gone, where is the love you said you have for him, if you kill yourself, he would be in so much pain because watching the one you love die isn't a joke' the second voice said.
'Hmph, my dear Jen, just end your life, this miserable pain of yours would end, you wouldn't feel anything again, you wouldn't get hurt because you wouldn't love anything or anyone, remember love is the gate to anger, hatred, jealousy and most of all fear, fear of losing the one you love to another' the first voice whispered and Jen nodded, that is so right, if she ends her life she won't love anymore and she won't experience heartbreak.
'You have to kill that love' the first voice said, he was having a great effect on Jen and he loved it. He wanted the woman to end her miserable life.
Jen was about to stab herself when she heard the second voice, 'Remember Jen, you are committing a grave sin and God would not forgive you for taking your life, you have no reason to end your life because you got hurt. Love is beautiful whenever we are with someone meant for us, you can still find love elsewhere, you can still feel a man's touch on your body, but if you die, you are eliminating your entire lineage, don't you want to have children, don't you want to see them happy, the decision starts here, you can chose to be with someone else aside valet, no one is going to blame you, but taking your life yourself, you would be responsible for your outrageous actions' the second voice said and Jen pondered on it before throwing the knife away. She realized she wasn't truly meant for valet, valet was meant to marry Fiona but she got in their way.