"What's wring of being a single for years?" I asked while eating some chips.
My friends has been keeping on telling me to find a man. They want me to try to love again since it's been 3 years after what happened.
"If you can't find a man to your life, who will provide your needs then?" Cheska, one of my closest friends who keeps on muttering.
"Ches is right. Who will provide and love you if you won't look for another man." Alicia agreed while drinking some soft drinks.
I rolled my eyes and watch the whole view of the sea. We've been living in this kind of simple life. Not so poor yet not so rich.
Exactly enough for us to eat 3 times a day. We don't have a parents, because I was abandoned by my own family.
In fact I tried to look for them, but sadly I couldn't. I went through a lot of suffering and my heart is filled of hatred.
Luckily, someone adopt me and treat me as their own child. As if I wasn't a adopted to them.
"Enough, how will I look for another when I'm not yet ready to love again. To fight for it again," I muttered as the both of them fell into silence.
"I wonder how Rob's doing right now. It's been 3 years since the two of you chose to end up the relationship you both have." Alicia uttered.
"Stop thinking about that idiot man Alicia. He was the one who ruined their relationship, it is not good for us to think of him and ask how is he doing right now." Cheska mumbled with annoyance and irritations.
Indeed they don't like Rob's attitude and existence from then. But I was the one who ask a favor to them to just accept him with whole heartedly.
And little did I know, he was cheating behind our relationship already. While I was remained here loyal and faithful to him all along.
"Guys, please... Let's just moved on, I have moved on already. So please, stop."
I couldn't help to meddle their conversation. It was Rob's name getting involve again, when it was already past 3 years when cheating was happened.
"Sorry. Anyways! when will be your work to start??" Cheska asked while busy smoking.
Where at the edge of a near port in our province. People who lives here are known as prostitutes and other works that are illegal to the community.
"5 minuted before the club opens. I can still hangout with you guys," I muttered and opens the last three cans of beers.
They both get their selves a can of beers after I open those. As the three of us fell into silence.
I know my work isn't good for a girl like me. But I have no other ways to earn and provide the daily needs of my family.
Of the family who treat me as their own daughter. I was blessed to have a sister too, even though I'm her real sister.
I'm way older from her for about 2 years and now she's currently studying college. By my support of her needs and raising our family by this work of mine.
Even though it's illegal and might lot of people calls me a dirty women. Because I sold my own body to those mens in bar just so I could have a money.
I have never done that to any of my costumers. A lot of them knows how much I want my life to get better, to be better. But how can I do it when I'm too down and poor of knowledge.
And even so, I have dreams too. Those dreams is not just for myself but also for my family.
I don't care anymore if they see me as a flirt and dirty woman. Each day when I passed by in anyones houses, or even walking in the streets.
A lot of people will shouts at me and even spread wrong issues about me. About my work and somehow I find myself too weak.
But I can't stay like that, I need to work harder and remained strong whatever happens. Whatever these people calls me and spread gossips everywhere.
"Have you guys ever asked or questioned yourself.." I started,
"Questioned about what?" They both asked together.
"About working in a club and being called a dirty woman. Eve mn though we just did this all for our families and provide our daily needs." Said, facing the huge and dark moonlight in front of us.
The moon is in between the sea right now. It looks so good and you could really feel to yourself how much it was wonderful.
"Why would I question myself, when I can question our family? for being so idiot on giving birth of us in this universe." Alicia answered while laughing sarcastically.
I know there was pain in each words that she let go. We know her, we know each one of us from the very beginning that the three of us was destined to meet.
"Exactly, we can't question ourselves Eve. Were just doing this work to provide our families needs." Cheska agreed while laughing as if we were just having a good time right now.
"Don't bother yourself about thinking of that question Eve. We maybe work as a prostitute in this world, but we never sold our bodies to them that easy." Alicia,
"Correct, even though we work in this kind of illegal transactions. Still we have our virginity. We don't give up this by just looking at the money in front of us." Cheska added and now I could see in their eyes how much they're thankful from having this kind of work. Instead of being disgusted,
Indeed it's true that if you lived in this world. You cannot understand how life is, if you can't feel such suffering and pain.
And for us, we feel it all. We suffered a lot and we prayed for more and more.
Because like what old people says,
Behind this suffers is a blessings, and behind those happiness is a suffering.
In short, happiness is not always. It has a expiration too. It will never be a permanent feeling. It will gone, it will leave you if it's enough already.