Too much stress for the reader, right??
Then let us take a break from the main story for a second.
Currently, I died without even getting to see the main plot unfold before my eyes yet.
My poor kid will have the trauma of losing a mother now. I felt bad for her but at least I could keep her alive.
I'm too positive, aren't I??
I was just trying to be calm sitting inside the void yet again, for many hours, days, and years. It felt like an eternity.
I could summon any novel I wanted to read inside this void, so after three years, I finally got my hand on the novel again.
I looked at the cover of the novel, my Lavinia was crossing her arm looking in envy at the female lead of the novel...HAHAHA...
She is really taking after me, her green eyes were gorgeous just like an emerald. She really grew up into a beautiful woman.
The female lead also didn't look quite bad, she had the male lead hugging her with affection while Lavinia was ignored. Just a glance of the novel, everyone already knew that Lavinia was the villainess.
Haa...there wasn't a heater inside this void. I'm really cold. My hands were shaking when flipping the novel's pages.
After reading half of it, reading the novel wasn't the same anymore. It hit different especially the part when my empire lost to the enemy. If it was the real Damia, she would survive and look after her daughter till the end.
But I...I...died...hah...I'm crying...these tears kept coming out of my green eyes.
Hic...hic...
Even the heartwarming story didn't lift my mood up, the female lead of the novel got to marry the male lead, the prince of the empire at the end of the story after the villainess's death.
It should be a happy ending, and yet...it broke my heart.
Lavinia lived the life without knowing how much her mother loved her, she was locked inside the tall tower where I came into the world for the first time, for like half of her life.
When she was able to get to the academy, the first place she met the male lead. It was all happy and fun to read until the female lead showed up just when the male lead was about to confess his love for Lavinia.
She was ignored and soon after, her existence meant nothing to the male lead when the male lead's eyes only had the female lead.
Heartbroke Lavinia came back to the tower to seek knowledge from her mother, using every potion she could make, even the ingredient was one of her fingers, she chopped it off to make the potion to bring the male lead back.
It was quite dark at that part. Her mother didn't know about that because Lavinia stole her mother's magic book.
From then on, Lavinia kept harassing the female lead. but every time, her plan never won against the plot of letting the male lead rescue his female lead.
Haa...
I really missed Lavinia, I really wanted to hug her. And the thing I wanted to do the most was to slap that black-haired soldier.
Haaa...
What should I do now??
I'm tired...I'm lonely...the stomach which was stabbed didn't have any pain at all. It was no longer painful, no longer agonizing.
Tears dropped on the water I was sitting on, it didn't stop, if I kept crying like this, the ocean will drown me.
Someone...please...please get me out of this lonely void.
Hmm??
Is this a dream???
No, it isn't a dream. It's a nightmare.
I stood up inside the tent I was in earlier, there was blood everywhere. The bracelet I gave to Lavinia was left on the ground.
Where's Lavinia??
Haa...that idiot Louis, he must be walking past this. Lavinia must have dropped it when she protested against Louis for taking her away from my dead body.
That blood, it smelled familiar...Haha...then it must be that scumbag emperor's blood.
Louis must have won!! I knew I could depend on him.
I know...
I could...
Depend...
On...
"Louis...?"
"Lady Damia!!! You...you...you're alive??!!! I thought you were dead!!!"
"Luna...you can see me?? I'm a those, right???" what am I asking?? Of course, she couldn't see or hear a ghost.
"What're you saying??? Those people must be lying to me, they told me you died...come with me, before the enemy catches us!!" the female soldier grabbed my wrist in a hurry.
I didn't understand what was going on. All I could see were countless soldiers, sir Reynold, sir Philip, sir Victor, sir Richard, sir Flynn, sir...
All the people I used to heal, I used to share the same dinner with, they all died. And I was running over their corpse following the female soldier, Leona.
"Leona, where's my daughter??" she stopped when I asked her that question, it seemed like I won't get an answer from her when she showed me that kind of face.
I took her hand off me, I ran and ran throughout the camp, Lavinia was nowhere to be found. And the only person I could see was...Louis.
"Louis, are you alright?? I was so worried about you."
"Lady Damia, stop..." Leona who had been chasing me the whole time kept murmuring behind me as I crouched down to talk to commander Louis.
"Where's my daughter? Commander, you defeated that scumbag right??"
"Lady Damia!!!!! Enough!!!!" the snow fell down, the white snow turned red when it touched the blood on the ground and on my hand which was caressing the cold face of the commander.
He was as cold as ever.
He must have been shocked as well, that was why he didn't say anything back to me.
"Commander Louis, calm down, okay?? I will accept everything." his knees were on the ground, his sword was still inside his hand clenching tightly.
He was strict as ever about keeping his knight gesture, he used to tell me, he will keep his gesture even he died.
"Lady Damia!!!!! Stop...please...our empire lost..."
"Leona..." she really knew how to make jokes, how can our empire lose when...when...
Hic...hic...
"Louis...you stupid old man..." he died. His body finally got to rest falling down to the ground with his face toward me.
Leona's hand was shaking when she patted my shoulder, I could hear her crying.
Why did she cry so much??
"That man overwhelmed us, he killed all of us. He even killed commander Louis and moreover, he...he...he took Lavinia with him."
So...that was why she cried.
It was only a novel, the plot was supposed to be this way...Hahaha...I should have realized it. How can a commander survive when he was the soul of the army?? Of course, that emperor will also have to kill him.
Some plot changed, of course, the tyrant emperor took Lavinia wasn't in the novel.
Haha...there was nothing for me to cry...hahaha...I expected this...I'm not hurt...my heart was in a little pain...my hands were trembling because of the snow...it wasn't...because I was hurt or anything by this...
"Let's go...lady Damia."
"Sorry Leona...you can go north alone, there will be a secret entrance at the border for you to cross to Geyotor empire easily."
"How about you??"
"I'll stay here for...a while..."
"No...if they come back and see you, they will..."
"All the best they could do was killing me...don't worry about me, just go." she finally listened to me after I kept persuading her.
It was just Louis and me.
"Louis, do you know...I used to eat ice cream in winter??"
"Do you know...the world I came from, we have a transportation which allows us to fly from one place to one place!!!"
"I want to try pancake in this world, they said it was so sweet."
"Louis...do you..."
It was all meaningless talking to a corpse. I didn't know who should I ask, how was I still alive after being stabbed like that??
I still had a reason to live which was Lavinia, I will take her back. But moving away from his body was the most difficult task for me.
I didn't get to say goodbye to Suho. I did say goodbye to Louis, when I thought I would die in peace. I came back alive.
Haa...
The winter in the world was cold as always. I took off my magician cape and put it on Louis's body to keep him warm. I will also need to leave my life as a magician behind.
I cut my own hair and poured the potion I made with my blonde hair as the ingredient all over my head.
The magically black hair laid down to my waist, I will also have to leave behind the life of the blonde-haired woman Damia.
I'm sorry...was all I could say to him.
I'm useless...all I could do was die and leave all the heavy works for you...I'm sorry.
I won't escape by dying anymore. I'm sorry I realize it by now.
"Louis, I leave my love here as well. The love for you will be left behind in this battlefield, and the place we first met as well...goodbye my love."
Damia also died alongside Louis that night, and the person who was walking away from her past, from her mistake, from her wrong decision had the same face as Damia but with black hair, she swore to herself she won't be the same as Damia. She will be the villainess Do-Yun herself in this world.
I swear upon my life, I will kill the Geyotor Emperor without fail. I will bring down the empire by myself. I will be the heroine, villainess, side character, an extra, any character to kill that bastard who took everything away from me.
I'll kill you, Claudias Geyotor!!! I kept reading your name and all of your information inside the novel, now it's time for me to use it against you.
Even the strongest one had its weakness. If you don't have one, then I'll become your weakness, you...bastard.
To be continued...!