I thought I was the one with little patience left... Her shout echoed throughout the walls.
For a split second, it looked like we were in a completely different room filled with emptiness.
A room where sound is made to echo endlessly.
This is a sign of the collision we were talking about!
"Sihyeon, it's happening!" as soon as I let go of these words, she immediately tried to pull herself back together as if she were being split apart...
I could see someone else who looked exactly like her.
"Quick, open a door!" she instructed me, which I obeyed.
I forcibly opened the door to the entrance of our dining room and stumbled on my way there, I fell to the ground. "Yun!" my mother's voice resonated in my ears as the echoes ended.
"Where is your friend, Sihyeon?" I remembered that she was behind me, however, I couldn't spot her anywhere.
"She left." my father answered for me, so I trusted him that he had seen her leave the house.
"I could have sworn that Sihyeon said she would join us."
My mother's low whisper was audible enough for me to hear, but I had no choice other than to dismiss it with the help of my current position... "Do get up from the floor, Yun." she scolded.
--Honey Lou's Point of View--
"You are... Leaving tonight." I was shocked to see my older sister in the living room, dressed up for her flight back to Japan, and only waiting for her girlfriend now...
"Why? Miss me already." she laughed at the reaction I showed her.
'But really, I will miss her.' I couldn't help but give her a smile with the warmth of a hug.
"This is so unlike you, Honey Lou!" Haesu-eonni tried to push me away, however, as little as I may appear to be compared to my older sister...
'I am stronger than I look.' stronger than my sister.
'Am I really?' compared to her...
"Wha-" I burst into tears right in front of her.
I didn't realize it until she spoke concerningly the way I was acting.
I couldn't help but feel selfish for wanting to tell her to stay.
Stay!! Please, I beg you!
I can't be left alone all over again.
Not this same scenario.
I cried and cried like a child while she comforted me with all her might.
'I can't be comforted, unfortunately.' there are too many, too many things that I cannot say.
Things that I wish I had told them all right from the start.
So that I wouldn't be like this.
So that I wouldn't have turned out like this!
Why must I ruin someone's happiness just to get rid of my sadness??
It doesn't even help me in any way.
"Honey, sis." I couldn't hear anything but the crying and sobs that I let out.
My heart was aching so badly that my eyes could no longer see anything clear anymore.
"My ride is here, I need to go now." her words struck me even more.
I prevented myself from clinging on her legs as if I were her daughter who refused to let her leave. "What about me?" what about your sister whom you bullied so much, picked on way too many times, and finally accepted?
"What about you..? Are you on your period, sis?" it didn't make any sense to me...
"I am not." I spoke under my sobs, the neverending tears that were gushing out from my eyes.
The hot tears that were wanting to come out from inside of me... The tears...
The tears that I have kept in for so long.
For so long! That I can't control it anymore!
And now that I'm here, it's just me...
"I get it, emotional breakdowns. Cheer up, that'll pass away eventually." it felt as if this moment was one of those memories that I had gotten back.
A memory from when Suzuki passed away.
A memory from when my father couldn't stop my mother from being taken away.
A memory from when I saw my older sister crying while she was going away.
A memory from when Sora and her family had to move away.
A memory from when Amari left my side that day...
That day I almost died again. I can't even count those times anymore.
When my life flashed right in front of me.
Who am I to say? What right have I to dare say?
To make them stay.
I feel lost again.
I am lost again.
Not this again.
I picked up myself from the floor and dragged my body back inside the bathroom on the second floor. "Sis! I am leaving now!" still, I am left behind.
Again...
--Sora Young's Point of View--
["Yes. She was having an emotional breakdown and I couldn't keep waiting."]
I listened to the sound of Haesu-eonni's voice, it is such a rare thing for me to hear them caring about one another. ["Can you pay her a visit? Whenever you're free..."]
["All I can say is... Why did you leave her?"] Yua softly scolded our older friend.
The three of us were on a group call, Yua was at Hyunjoo's workplace, meanwhile, I was at our house with Song. ["I..."]
She was speechless because she knew exactly what this all meant to Honey Lou.
["She's strong, after all. It won't last that long."] at this point, she was mumbling and trying not to think much about this, but really, this was a serious thing for Honey.
["We're about to get on now, turn that off."] her girlfriend's voice was caught on the call before our eldest friend left without even a single word of goodbye.
"What was that?" Song turned over from his side of the bed while I dropped my phone aside.
"Hmm, it's nothing. Go back to sleep since you're very good at that." I rolled my eyes at the foolish boy lying on my right.
He has no idea what has been going on in the circle...
'Except for the fact that we're together now.'
He wrapped his arms around me and now, we were cuddling
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My bedroom was filled with the morning air, the window was shut but the heat could be felt. 'Or probably it's just me and my Prince Charming...' being next to each other.
Who knew that things would turn out this way?
From the beginning, each one of us entered this circle one by one as time went by.
Every single year that passed, there would be someone new.
We never knew each other and were just strangers before but luckily, in spite of the differences, we grew closer.
And now, we're growing apart...
But not in a bad way, that is. 'We're slowly walking down our separate paths.'
Our journeys would only begin after certain phases.
Phases like people that would only come and go from our lives.
"You are both so inseparable." Yua commented with Hyunjoo-Oppa behind her, they were cooking something and it smelled so scrumptious!
"I am starving, what's for breakfast?" Song came out from the bathroom, freshly bathed with the hot stream of water, given the mist coming from the door.
"Shut the damn door." Yua commanded.
"Well, someone didn't get a good night's sleep. You're always so grumpy, Yua." Song snickered with a smirk on his face.
Why the smirk though?
I looked at Yua and Hyunjoo-Oppa, and I had only realized their messy appearance.
"Am I missing something?" I chuckled at the thought of them getting together as more than just friends but that isn't the case...
"What happened? Because I know that what Song is thinking isn't the case." I questioned the two of them, knowing Yua more than anyone else.
We do live together, after all.
"Nothing out of the ordinary happened between the two of us. We just wrestled all night." this made me spit out the orange juice that I was drinking...
"What exactly do you mean by wrestle?? I have two interpretations in mind!" I interrogated the two with black and reddish hair for the way they told us about their night.
And why do they look that messed up? With their hair that looks as if someone had been pulling it. Or with their clothes being somewhat torn apart.
"To put it simply, we wrestled the entire night." Hyunjoo-Oppa replied again.
"We should do that sometime as well." Song proposed to which I didn't entertain.
"Come on-" I threw a couple of oranges at him for even suggesting that. "Fool!"
--Honey Lou's Point of View--
Pillows were all over the bedroom, a bedroom that I didn't own.
Feathers scattered in every corner of the room with the bathroom door open.
The water from the tub was overflowing as the faucet kept releasing water out.
I was lying below the bed, under the frame with the bed covers hiding me from the sun.
The sun that I refused to see.
"We have school today. Maybe you want to come out from there?" my aunt insisted, trying to unlock the door but she failed.
'I don't feel like doing so..." I murmured.
Everyone is separating themselves from the group now...
One by one, they are all going on their separate paths.
With Song and Sora together now, inseparable and have their own thing. With Yua and Moon, being glued together as Yua accompanies Hyunjoo-Oppa with his work.
With Haesu-eonni and her girlfriend back in Japan, and leaving me. Yun Oh and Yeonju clicked by the time Yeonju started to play on the field again.
Ji Eun-eonni and Jihyun have been visiting each other almost every single day. They are also growing closer to Byungchan-Oppa who is starting to open his world again to new people.
Sookyung is currently with his relatives in the countryside, and he will be staying there for who knows how long.
Miles and Min-Oppa are beginning to seek other opportunities to showcase their talent in cooking. Meanwhile, Sungyeon-Oppa and Jay-Oppa are going to college soon with Seokjoon-eonni guiding them on the side.
Jinwoo and Seongmin are cousins so they meet up a lot but no one knows what they have been up to these days.
Min Seo is not part of the circle but she is a friend of ours. She has been wearing less makeup lately and has made a lot of true friends now. I'm happy for her.
Dan is probably doing what he always does best, writing songs and producing music to soothe himself from the pain.
The pain in realizing that he and I were hopelessly in an unrequited love now.
Likewise, I am at my house more than half of the day other than spending time with them in school as I quietly read every book that I borrow from the school library.
I probably have eyes as red as Yua's highlight on her hair from all the crying about what happened to me and Dan.
Including the fact that my older sister is going to be away for a long time.
Riyanna and Sihyeon have been hanging out as well, discussing things that I am not supposed to know... 'They have a secret.'
A secret of their own which they cannot tell me or anyone else.
'But Yua, Yun Oh, Song, and Moon know about it.'
However... With Sora and Song as a couple, Sora will most likely know as well.
Another reason why a circle is divided into different parts. Into different smaller units.
A secret that'll cause a division among us. But we're no longer children, we're no longer that young to be petty and immature.
But here I am... Holding everything against everyone.
Why do I feel this way..? Why?
Should I not be happy?
My best friend is alive, my sister is finally happy and living her life, my mother is okay, and my father sees me now.
I also have a fiancé, namely, Yun Oh.
What else have I got to be unhappy with? What else is supposed to make me unhappy?
And so bitter.
I need answers...