I breathed in quite a bit to my self, as it kind of felt like it was hard for me to even breath, ever since... Well... You know... I had been so afraid, as many people had thought that I was going to die, do to the injuries that I had suffered to my leg, as the nurses had told me that I had broken my leg in about 80 different places when the injure had happened.
I had been sedated, and I had been asleep for a few days after that, all at the exact same time too, due to all of the blood loss that I had occurred, as my mother had even left the job that she had been doing, as she had freaked out as soon as it was that she had heard what it was that had happened to me, all at the exact same time too.
I felt a bit bad for it, as I knew that was a very important job that my mother had to do, as I kind of felt like a lot of it was to blame on me, as I felt like I should have been paying more attention on the field, to know when the big hit had been coming, all at the exact same time as well. Now... My mother might have just lost potentially millions of dollars on a company project that she had been doing.
I cursed my self for it, as I groaned, all at the exact same time as well, as I had been blaming my self for a lot of things as of late, and I knew it none the less, as no matter how much it was that my father tried to tell me that it was not my fault, I kind of felt like it all was. I did not even want to grab my phone off of the table that was sitting beside me, to even text my girl friend, all at the exact same time too.
I rarely liked to use my phone before now, so what was it going to be, to be my excuse to use it now? Using my phone felt like to me, that it was a giant waste of time, and it also seemed to be to me as well, that it was the easiest way to cheat on some one, and I did not want to even tempt my self in to doing as such a thing, due to the fact that I loved my girl friend so much.
I felt use less to her right now, as she had come to see me once whilst I had been in the hospital for the last few weeks, all at the exact same time as well, as I was not going to lie to my self either. I felt very lonely, and I felt like I kind of just wanted to give up, all at the exact same time as well, as it was now starting to feel use less to me any more, as it felt like she had kind of given up on me.
I knew that was not the case, and I was sure that she was still texting me to see if I was okay. I just did not want to look at my phone screen, as I knew that one of the first things that I was going to see, before I would even be able to see the text message, was going to be the fact that my football rating had dropped so far down. Hell... I might not even be ranked what so ever right now, as it really did hurt me to even think on that, all at the exact same time as well, as I then just stared down at the ground, all at once.
She had come to see me once, but she had made it quick, as she had told me that she had a lot of school work to catch up on, and she said that she would be in touch with me, all at the exact same time too. That was the only time that I had seen her, and the first thing that I had noticed, never the less, was the fact that she was not wearing the nice ring that I had got for her, and that I had proposed to her with, all at the exact same time as well.
That for sure hurt me quite a bit, as I kind of felt like I should just keep it to my self, as I knew that every time that it seemed like my father wanted to come in to the room, I always pretended that I had bit smiles, and that every thing was okay for me. That was not the case at all for me right now how ever, as I kind of felt like I was just slowly dying in side, as it seemed like my soul was melting away right now, all at the exact snwr time too.
I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I had asked the doctors if I was ever going to play football again, and the answer that they had told me was short, and it was sweet, but I felt like it was a lie. They had told me 'we are not too sure yet'. I could tell that it was a lie how ever, and they already knew the answer to that, based off the cringed look that they had on their face when ever it was that they had said it to me, all at the exact same time too.
I felt like I was use less now, and it all felt like it was point less to me, all at the exact same time too, as I just wanted to cry, but I just held it all in side, as I stared at the TV screen that was in front of me right now, all at the exact same time too, as I watched a college football game that was going on right now, as it was the first week of the season, as I was that #13 Stanford was playing #17 UCLA, and the game, as per usual in college football, was not even close, as I felt like there was no such sort of point in me watching it.
It was the 3rd quarter and Stanford was up 44-10 on UCLA. I let out a bit of a soft sigh to my self as well, as it kind of also felt like football had been quite a bit boring to me, all at the exact same time as well, ever since the injury had happened to me, all at the exact same time as well, as I let out another heavy sigh to my self, all at once, as I reached my arm over to try to grab the remote, all at once.
Even that hurt, at the exact same time too, as even if I had pain killers, and even if I was using my arm and not my leg, even the slightest bit of motion on my leg seemed to cause a bit of some pain, as I then all of the sudden winced, as I then grabbed the TV remote, and I pointed it towards the television, all at the exact same time as well. Shortly after I did as such a thing, I then all of the sudden clicked on the power button, to turn the TV off, all at once, never the less.
Even if I was not tired what so ever, I then all of the sudden closed my eyes, all at the exact same time as well, as I felt like I just wanted to fall asleep, all at the exact same time as well, which seemed to be all that I had wanted to do over the last few weeks, all at the exact same time as well, never the less. As I had my eyes closed, even though I was not tired, it did not take me all too much longer for me to fall asleep, all at the exact same time too.
I woke up, and I saw that it was kind of dark in the room that I was in, all at the exact same time as well, besides a bit of a sliver of light from some where in the room, all at the exact same time too, as I looked over to see what it was that was even giving me that sliver of light, all at once, as I saw that the room that I was in right now, had it's door open, all at the exact same time too.
I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I did my best to try to calm my self down, all at the exact same time too, as I heard some noise near the open door that I was staring at, right at this very moment in time too, as I was a little bit lost as to just what it was that was even going on out side of my room right at this very moment in time as well. I knew that was the reason that I had been woken up never the less, as I knew that I had been fast asleep other wise.
It kind of upset me, all at the exact same time too, but I did my best to try to not get all too angry by it, as I then all of the sudden began to notice just who it was that was now all of the sudden beginning to open the door to the room that I was in, all at the exact same time too, as it brought a bit of some joy to my face, to see that it was my father, all at the exact same time too, as I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I did my best to try to calm my nerves, all at once.
I really just wanted to get this cast off, and I wanted to get my self out of the bed, all at the exact same time too, so that I could go on ahead and give my father a big old hug, all at the exact same time too, but sadly I could not do as such a thing how ever, as I was stuck on the bed that I was laying on right now, all at the exact same time as well, as I then let out a loud groan, all at once, which was not a groan of pain what so ever, but it was just a groan of the misery that I felt like I was in right at this very moment in time as well.
I was once so fast, but I was fairly certain that I had not even walked a single step after this had first happened, all at the exact same time too, as it kind of hurt me, and it kind of annoyed me to know that was the case, all at the exact same time as well, as I knew that I could not even go to the bath room that was right near me, to even try to take a piss, all at the exact same time as well, never the less.
Hell, I had wet my bed again, but I did not seem to care what so ever, as I simply only felt bad for the nurse that had to clean it up, all at the exact same time as well, as I knew that I would hate life if that were to be my job, all at the exact same time as well, as I let out quite a bit of a heavy groan to my self once again, as I shook all of those thoughts from my head, and my mind, as I saw that my father was now right up on me, all of the sudden.
I was just glad to see his face, if I was not going to lie to my self, as I then all of the sudden reached my arms out, to try to give him a hug, all at the exact same time too. My father did not seem to be all too happy for some odd reason or another, right now, but in the end, he did in fact lean in to give me a hug at the very least, which did in fact seem to make me feel a whole lot better, all at the exact same time too, as we held on to each other for quite a bit of some time never the less.
After a bit longer, my father then let go of me, as I tilted my head a little bit towards him, at first, but in the end, I did in fact nod over to him, to let him know that I was going to go on ahead and speak to him, all at the exact same time as well. He looked at me with a bit of a blank look on his face at first, as if he did not have as to a single clue as to just what it was that I was getting at right at this very moment in time as well, never the less.
How ever, in the end, he did in fact nod back to me, all at once, to let me know that he was in fact paying attention as to just what it was that I even had to say to him, and what it was that I even had to ask of him, all at the exact same time too, which did in fact seem to make me feel quite a bit better of course, as I seemed to calm down my state of breathing, all at the exact same time too, as I then all of the sudden began to start to speak to him, all at the exact same time too, now that I knew that he was in fact listening as to just what it was that I even had to say to him in the very first place any ways.
"How's school been going for you dad? I haven't missed too much, have I?" I asked him, as I cracked a bit of a fake smile on my face, all at the exact same time as well, as I knew that realistically, I was not happy what so ever, with the state, and the condition that I was in right at this very moment in time as well, as I knew that I wanted to be out of this hospital bed, and I wanted to go on ahead and live my life, all at the exact same time too.
Sadly I could not, and it was really hurting me, and it was really getting on my nerves, all at the exact same time as well, as I really kind of just wanted to be back in school, if I was not going to lie to my self, even if I was not getting to do any sort of football what so ever, as it felt like any thing to me at this point, was better than the fact that I knew that I was going to have to be stuck in this hospital bed for who knows how long at this point.
I hoped that I would get out some time soon, but I knew that I could not lie to my self either, as I knew that I had to go through rehab before it was that I could do as such a thing, all at the exact same time as well, as I knew that I had done no such sort of rehab what so ever, all at the exact same time as well, as I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I did my best to try to calm my self down, all at once.
I blinked my eyes a few times, as I then all of the sudden got my attention back on to my father, who I saw had his head a bit low to the ground for some odd reason or another, as I saw that he had some thing in his hand, which seemed to scare me at first, until I simply realized that it was the food that I must have missed out on about an hour ago, whilst I had still been asleep, all at the exact same time too, as I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I did my best to try to calm my self down, all at the exact same time too.
I blinked my eyes a few times, as I then saw my father put the food down on to the table that was right beside me, before he then all of the sudden let out quite a bit of a heavy sigh all of the sudden, all at the exact same time as well, as I then saw him sit on the chair that was right beside me, all at the exact same time as well, as I blinked my eyes a few times, as I did my best to try to calm my self down, all at the exact same time too, as I stared at my father right in to his eyes, all at once, once again.
I looked at the food that was on the plate beside me, all at the exact same time too, as I really did not want to eat that if I was not going to lie to my self, as the food looked nasty for one thing, but it also looked unhealthy. If I was going to get back to playing football any time soon, than it meant that it was a bad idea to be eating those types of food none the less, as I stared at the food that was on the table in dissatisfaction, all at the exact same time too.
I stared at my father, as he just seemed to have his head a bit low to the ground, all at the exact same time too, as I was wondering as to just what it was that was even going on through his head right now, as it made me feel a bit low my self, just seeing him this way, all at the exact same time too, as I then all of the sudden began to start to breath in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I did my best to try to calm my self down, all at the exact same time as well, as I breathed in quite a bit heavily to my self, all at once.
It troubled my to see my father the way that he was right now. I knew as to just why it was that he was the way that he was as well, as I knew that he kind of felt like he had his hands tied behind his back, with the fact that he was teaching his students, which were AP students none the less, and also the fact that he had to come to the hospital every single morning and night, to try to check in on me, as I knew that he was hardly getting any sort of sleep right now.
I blinked my eyes a few times, as I kind of wanted to curse my self for this, all at once, but at the exact same time too, I also kind of felt like it was not my fault, surely, right? Technically it was partially my fault, if I was going to be for real with my self, all at the exact same time too, as I knew that none of this would have ever happened if I had not ever been playing football, all at the exact same time as well, never the less.
I could have just stuck to my classes, and I would have been fine... Now, I just didn't feel like doing any thing, as I kind of just wanted to lay in this bed and cry, as it felt like it had been a while since I had any sort of emotion, all at the exact same time too. It hurt me a lot, the way that I was right now, but I felt like at some point I would get over this, and I would be back on to the field in no time, surely, right?
I gulped quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I was not all too sure if I knew that answer to that question if I was going to be for real with my self, all at once, as I breathed in quite a bit softly to my self, all at once, as I did my best to try to calm my self down, at least to the best of my ability, all at the exact same time too, as I blinked my eyes a few times, and I did my best to get my mind, and my focus off of all of those thoughts, all at once, as well, as I got my mind on to some thing else.
Luckily, it was not all too hard to get my mind on to some thing different, all at the exact same time as well, as I then all of the sudden began to start to hear the voice of my father, as he then all of the sudden began to start to speak up to me, all at the exact same time too, as I turned my head over to him all at once, and I looked my father right in to his eyes, as I saw him all of the sudden nod to me, all at the exact same time too, as it was clear that he wanted my full attention on what ever it was that he was about to say to me, all at the exact same time too.
I stared at my father right in to his eyes for just a little while longer, until in the end, I did in fact nod to him, as I knew that he did not have time for me to act childish right now, and for me to be a little cry baby, all at the exact same time as well. I let out a bit of a soft sigh to my self, all at once, as I did my best to try to calm my self down, all at the exact same time too, as I then all of the sudden began to start to hear the voice of my father, as he did in fact begin to start to speak to me, all at the exact same time too, as I did in fact begin to start to listen as to just what it was that he even had to say to me in the very first place any ways, none the less.
"Son... I know you don't want to do it, but the teachers in the school have asked me to give you your school work... They are going to make you do it online whilst you are in the hospital for now, okay? We don't know how much longer you are going to be in here, so we do not want you to get too far behind... That's all that I ask for you, okay?" He said to me, as I stared at my father, right in to his eyes, after what it was that he had just said to me, all at the exact same time too, as I was not going to lie to my self either, it did in fact kind of upset me, all at the exact same time too, as to just what it was that he had even said to me in the very first place any ways. I balled up my fist all at once, as I did my best to try to not blow up on my father, all at the exact same time too, as I knew that he did not need that kind of stuff right at this very moment in time either. It was a bit hard to not get angry though, but I made it through, as I knew that I could endure through it, as I then all of the sudden nodded to him, all at once, to let him know that I had in fact heard as to just what it was that he had even said to me in the very first place any ways, never the less. Once he had seen me do as such a thing, I saw him crack a bit of a sad smile from his face, as he then all of the sudden got up from his chair, all at once, as he then began to start to continue to speak to me, all at once, such as he had been doing before, as I did in fact begin to start to listen as to just what it was that he even had to say to me in the very first place any how, all at the exact same time too. "I have to get back to school stuff... I just wanted to check in on you... We will have a laptop ready for you tomorrow... Now I've got to go son... I love you..."
My father looked at me right in to my eyes, after what it was that he had even just said to me, all at the exact same time as well, as I blinked my eyes a few times, all at once, as I then all of the sudden began to start to see him start to head over to me for some odd reason or another. I was a little bit lost as to just what it was that my father was even doing in the very first place any ways, as I then all of the sudden tilted my head over to him, as I did not have a single clue as to just what it was that was even going on with him.
Suddenly, he then reached his arms out, as it then all of the sudden began to hit me as to just what it was that he was doing, all at the exact same time too, as it was now clear to me, all at once, that he was coming in for a hug, all at the exact same time as well, as I then all of the sudden began to start to breath in to my self, all at once, as I did my best to try to calm my self down, all at once, as I knew that there was no reason to get angry right now.
I blinked my eyes a few times, as I let him give me the hug, even though I kind of felt like I was a bit half assed on the hug, all at the exact same time too, due to the fact that I felt like I was dead in side, none the less. As my father let go of me, all at once, I was a little bit nervous that he might have noticed it, but I realized all at once, that clearly his mind, and his thoughts were in a bit of a different place right now, as I then all of the sudden saw him start to go over to the front door of the room that I was stuck in, all at the exact same time as well.
It was clear that he was leaving, as I was tempted to wave him a goodbye, or at least say good bye to him, all at the exact same time too, but I just felt a bit too empty in my mind, all at the exact same time too, to do as such a thing, as I then all of the sudden began to start to breath in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I did my best to try to calm my self down as best as I possibly could, all at the exact same time too, as I blinked my eyes a few times, all at the exact same time too.
My father was soon out of the room, all at the exact same time too, as I breathed in quite a bit of a sigh of relief, all at once, as I felt quite a bit bad for the way that I was acting right now, as I knew that my father did in fact love me to death, but I kind of just felt like I wanted to be alone right at this very moment in time too, as I breathed in quite a bit to my self, as I did my best to try to calm my self down, all at once, as I then all of the sudden got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of the thoughts that I had been having long before now, all at the exact same time too.
I blinked my eyes a few times, as I felt quite a bit empty in the room, none the less, but the emptiness seemed to be a bit soothing to me, all at once, as I was not all too sure as to just what it was that I should do, all at the exact same time as well. I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I did my best to try to calm my self down, all at the exact same time as well, as I then all of the sudden got my mind, and my focus off of the thoughts that I had been having before now, all at the exact same time too.
I blinked my eyes a few times, all at once, as I then all of the sudden turned my head over to some thing that seemed to be buzzing right beside me, all at the exact same time too, as I then all of the sudden saw that it was my phone that had lit up, all at the exact same time too, as I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I did my best to try to calm my self down by any means possible, all at the exact same time too, as I blinked my eyes a few times, and I then picked my phone up from off of the table, all at once, all at the exact same time as well.
I stared at the phone, as I looked at the message that had popped up on the screen, as I saw that it was an upset alert, that was saying that Arizona State, which just so happened to be my favorite college team, all at the exact same time too, was getting upset by some FCS school that I had never heard of, all at the exact same time too. It kind of made me a bit angry, but I did my best to try to calm my self down, as I then was about to put my phone back on the table, until I saw my recent messages that were on my screen, all at the exact same time too.
I could see that I had over a hundred messages from people, a lot of them being my team mates, as I saw that they were saying things such as the fact that they were giving prayers to me, and hoping that I would come back better than ever, all at the exact same time too. There was one message which seemed to stand out from me how ever, all at the exact same time too, as that was due to the fact that it was a pinned message that I had.
I had my parents, and my girl friend pinned, and this message was from my girl friend, as I then began to start to read the message, all at the exact same time too, as I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all at once, to calm my self down, and control my breathing, as I read the entire message, all at once. 'Sorry I haven't come to see you in a while... Schools just been really busy for me... I love you, and I miss you!'
I brought a bit of a smile to my face, all at once, as I was glad to know that I at least still had her in my life, as that was always some thing that I could fall back on, all at the exact same time too, as I then all of the sudden blinked my eyes a few times. Normally, I really did not text all too much, but I felt like texting back to her, all at the exact same time as well, none the less, as I was in fact feeling quite a bit lonely in this hospital, all at tbe exact same time as well.
I then all of the sudden unlocked my phone, all at once, as I then began to start to text her back, all at the exact same time as well. As soon as I began to start to text her back, as I was quite a bit surprised as to the fact that it seemed like she instantly opened the message inbox, as soon as it was that she had seen me begin to start to type to her, all at the exact same time too, which felt a bit strange to me, considering the fact that she had told me that she had been busy with school, all at the exact same time too.
I figured that it must have just been perfect timing how ever, as I did my best to try to calm my self down, all at the exact same time as well, as I was about to start to continue to text her, all at once, when I then all of the sudden realized that the text message that she had sent me, had been from over a week ago, all at the exact same time as well. I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as that was when I then began to start to get upset, all at the exact same time too.
It began to hit me, all at once, as I knew that I was not an idiot, as I knew that I was a very smart guy. She had kind of just given up on me clearly, and she just felt like there was no use in even trying to text me any more, all at the exact same time too. Sure... She was in fact busy with school, but I felt like she would at least be gracious enough to text me every single day, to check in on me.
I knew that this was not perfect timing what so ever, as I just locked my phone, all at once, as I then put it back on the table before I got too angry, all at the exact same time as well. I shivered, all at once, as I just stared at the dark room, and the ceiling that was above me, all at the exact same time too, as I thought on just how empty it was that I really felt right at this very moment in time too, as I felt like I was in quite a lot of pain, both physically, and mentally due to that.
A few tears began to wipe from my eyes, all ay once, but I quickly did my best to try to wipe them off as soon as I could, all at the exact same time too, as I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I then all of the sudden did my best to try to calm my self down, all at the exact same time too, as I blinked my eyes a few times, and I just closed my eyes. Once again, I was not tired what so ever, but as soon as it felt like I had closed my eyes, I did in fact quickly fall asleep, not all too much longer after all of that, all at once.
I woke up, all at once, as I blinked my eyes open, all at the exact same time too, as I saw that the sun was blaring right in to my eyes, all at the exact same time as well, as it was clear to me that it was early in the morning, and that I must have some how managed to sleep through the entire night, even though I had not felt tired what so ever, when ever it was that I had fallen asleep none the less.
I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I did my best to try to calm my self down, all at the exact same time too, as I got my mind, and I got my focus off of the thoughts that I had been having before all of this, all at the exact same time too, as I knew that there once again must have been a reason that I had woken up, all at the exact same time as well, as I then turned my head over to the door way to my room, all at the exact same time too.
I blinked my eyes a few times, as I stared at the wide open door way for just a few moments, as I was a bit confused as to just what it was that was going on right now, all at the exact same time too, none the less, that was of course, until I then saw that some one was in the room with me right at this very moment in time, as I turned my head over to the person, as I saw that very much to my surprise, all at the exact same time too, that it was my doctor none the less.
I stared at the doctor for a few moments, with quite a bit of a blank look on my face, as I saw that he was standing up right now, and he was seemingly writing some thing down on a piece of paper, all at the exact same time as well, which I did not have as to much of a clue as to just what it was that he could be writing down on that piece of paper in the very first place any ways. It really was none of my business either, if I was going to be for real with my self, as I quickly did my best to try to get my mind off of all of the thoughts that I had been having before now, all at the exact same time too.
I blinked my eyes a few times, as I just stared at the doctor with a bit of a blank look on my face, all at once, as I then all of the sudden began to start to shuffle around in my bed, all at the exact same time too, which did in fact hurt me quite a bit, as it usually did, as I cursed a bit to my self, quite a bit quietly, all at the exact same time too, as I did my best to try to calm my self down, all at the exact same time too, as I knew that I did not want to get all too upset with my self, all at the exact same time as well, none the less.
I breathed in quite a bit heavily to my self, all at once, as I then all of the sudden began to start to realize, all at once, that some one must have put new diapers on me in the middle of the night, with out me seeming to notice, all at the exact same time too, as I blinked my eyes a few times once again, as I then all of the sudden did my best to try to get my mind, and get my focus off of all of those thoughts all at once, as I was a bit embarrassed to even be in diapers in the very first place any ways, if I was going to be for real with my self.
Diapers were for children, and I did not want to be like a toddler any more, especially not when it was that I had worked so hard to get to the point that I was at in the very first place any ways, none the less, as I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of the thoughts that I had been thinking on before hand, as I just seemed to stare the doctor down, for just a little bit more time, all at the exact same time too.
I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I did my best to try to calm my self down, all at the exact same time too, as I then all of the sudden got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of the thoughts that I had been thinking on before, as I then all of the sudden began to start to speak up to the doctor, all at the exact same time too, as I saw that the man looked up at me, as he was seemingly a bit surprised to see that I was awake right at this very moment in time as well.
In the end how ever, he did in fact nod to me, at the very least, to let me know that he was in fact paying attention as to just what it was that I had to say to him in the very first place any ways, none the less. I was a bit thankful for it, all at the exact same time too, as I then all of the sudden nodded right back over to him, and shortly after all of that, I did in fact begin to start to speak to him, all at the exact same time too, as I knew that he was in fact listening as to just what it was that I even had to say to him, all at the exact same time as well, none the less.
"Doctor... I'm tired of just hearing the same old crap over and over again... Can you just keep it between me and you?" I asked the doctor, as I saw him tilt his head a bit over towards me, all at the exact same time as well, as it was clear to me that he was in fact a bit confused as to just what it was that I was even getting at in the very first place any ways, none the less. I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I did my best to try to calm my self down to the best of my abilities, all at the exact same time too. The doctor did in fact thankfully nod back to me, which I was glad for, as it relieved me to see him do as such a thing all at the exact same time as well, never the less. I stared at him for just a little bit longer, as I really did hope that he was going to be truthful with the question that I was about to ask of him, all at the exact same time as well, as I then did in fact begin to start to speak to him once again, all at the exact same time too. "Am I ever going to be able to play football again?"
The doctor looked at me, as I expected to see a bit of a surprised look on his face, as to just what it was that I had just asked of him in the very first place any ways, all at the exact same time too, as I expected him to start to get a little bit nervous, all at the exact same time too, as to just what it was that I had even asked of him in the very first place once again. Clearly that was not the case what so ever how ever, very much to my surprise, as I saw him just seem to stare at me with quite a bit of a blank look on his face, all at the exact same time too.
I was not all too sure if that was a good or a bad thing how ever. I had a bit of some hope that it was a good thing for me, as I kind of hoped that he was going to tell me that I was going to be back on the field, and that I was going to be better than ever, all at the exact same time too. I felt like I was lying to my self if I was going to tell my self as such a thing, all at the exact same time too how ever, all at the exact same time as well, as I was fairly certain that no player would ever come back from the sort of injury that I had.
I felt a bit sick, as to the fact that I had put the doctor on the spot, all at the exact same time too, for him to have to answer the question that I had just asked of him, all at the exact same time too, as I was fairly certain that I knew what it was that he was going to say to me. I was sure that he did not want to have to break the news to me, all at the exact same time as well, as I really was starting to run out of hope now.
As I seemed to get a bit lost in my thoughts, I then all of the sudden seemed to hear the doctor close the note book that he had in his hand before now, quite a bit loud, all at once, which kind of scared me a bit, due to the fact that I had not expected it none the less, as I had been a bit lost in my head during that time, all at the exact same time too, as I blinked my eyes all of the sudden, all at once.
I then looked at the doctor right in to his eyes, as I saw that he seemed to have a bit of an empty look on his face, all at the exact same time as well, which made me feel quite a bit crazy, all at the exact same time too, as I kind of wished that he would jusy get straight to the point, and that he would answer the question that I had just asked of him in the very first place any ways, all at the exact same time too, as it was in fact stressing me out quite a bit, if I was not going to lie to my self.
I breathed in quite a bit to my self, all at once, as I did my best to try to keep my self as calm as I possibly could, all at the exact same time too, as I then all of the sudden, finally saw the doctor nod to me, all at the exact same time too, as I did my best to try to calm my self down, all at the exact same time too, as I blinked my eyes a few times, and I got my mind, and I got my focus off of all of the thoughts that I had been having before hand, all at the exact same time too, as I knew that this was the moment that I had been waiting for.
I stared at the doctor for just a little bit longer, but in the end, I did in fact nod back to the doctor, to let him know that I was in fact paying attention as to just what it was that he even had to say to me in the very first place any ways, none the less. The doctor seemed to stare at me for quite a bit more time, but in the end, he did in fact finally begin to start to speak to me, as I did in fact begin to start to listen as to just what it was that he even had to say to me, all at the exact same time as well, never the less.
"Kid... I'm not a sports doctor... But if I am going to be for real with you, I have seen injuries like this before... Alex Smith, a football Quarterback who I am sure you know well of... He had an injury sort of like this one..." He said to me, all at once, as I was in fact familiar with the name, as I knew that he was a Quarterback that had played for the Washington Football Team not all too many years ago, as I knew that he had a gruesome leg injury in the game, all at the exact same time too. He too had an injury just like mine, and he had come back from it... Surely that meant that I could too, right? I breathed in quite a bit to my self, as I did not want to get my hopes up, but I certainly was starting to feel a lot better about this. I cracked a bit of a smile on my face, all at once, as I saw that the doctor did not seem to be amused by this what so ever, as shortly after that, he continued speak, as I continued to listen as to just what it was that he even had to say to me in the very first place any ways, never the less. "He was a Quarterback... You are a receiver... You also tore your ACL in the process... He was never the same when he came back either... If you want me to be for real with you... I think your chances of going back to football, are highly unlikely... But... You never know... You are still young..."