Sophie's P.O.V.
I closed my eyes, unsure of what to do I just obeyed them. It felt good between my legs, never had I felt a man like this before. I felt all hands on me and I was unsure to which hand belonged to who, but I kept my eyes closed as told and just let go. I found myself give out a supressed moan when they touched the right spot.
I felt hands on me and they started to remove my pants. I found myself lean into the touch but as I did I heard someone letting out a breath and all the touching stopped. I opened my eyes and looked up to see The big guy hanging above my body, staring into the wall to the side looking annoyed. Jessie sat up and looked away as well. Jeremy got up and left, he slammed the door shut as he walked out.
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My thoughts went crazy at that moment and embarrassment took over. Did I do it wrong? Did I disgust them with my eagerness?
I moved my hand down and pulled my pants up and turned to lay on my side facing away from them. Why did they so suddenly change and just stare into the air like they had just committed a crime. They must be thinking i was easy. That i am nothing but a whore, a virgin whore. I was willing to let them touch me and I let them do all these things to me, did i give in too much?
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I stared into thin air hoping it would swallow me whole and that i'll wake up from this nightmare. I tried to keep my emotions on the inside, chanting in my head over and over again not to break. I felt myself fail at that as my eyes watered at the thought of them leaving me. Somehow that scared me, I didn't want to leave. I didn't want to be left and alone.
Emma was right, I am just naive to believe that anybody would care about me. Everybody lies and no one can be trusted. The first tear rolled down at the flashback of that horrific day, or more precisely those days. My dad was a good man who did nothing wrong, but ended up in a situation where he needed people to trust him. They betrayed him, they betrayed all of us.
"Soph?" a male voice spoke, I turned my head to see Jessie and the big guy sitting close to me looking at me with worry. "Don't cry" He begged pulling me up to sit with him. I didn't want to, but I didn't have the strength to fight. I just sat on his lap like a doll and let him comfort me with his touch.
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"What's the matter love?" he asked, Jessie cried, that makes the two of us. I just avoided eye contact "I want to go home" I said in a low voice. He pulled me away so he could look into my eyes, "no you don't" he said it like it was a fact. "I won't tell anyone, just let me leave" I begged.
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The big guy looked at me in confusion which turned to anger "why the hell isn't it working" he roared studying my neck. I shuttered by the volume of his voice and harsh movements as he was studying my neck. I tried to move away from him, to my displeasure he noticed and pulled me even closer than before to him.
"Sit still" he roared at me and his eyes turned completely black. "Stop!" I screamed at him trying to make him stop. And then i felt it again, his bite. He didn't stop. Jessie hurried up and tried to push him away from me, to no help. He just growled at her, making me even more afraid of him.
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"Xander let her go, you are hurting her" Jessie yelled. The door burst open and the big guy Xander was thrown into the wall. Xander attacked Jeremy and they were now fighting while Jessie screamed at them to stop. My vision was so blurry that I struggled to focus on three persons instead of.. how many are they exactly. I tried to stay awake but my eyes wouldn't cooperate.
Sophie's P.O.V.
I heard Jeremy mutter angrily "I'll kill him" he hissed, he sounded pretty tense and he clearly considered his harsh words. I tried to open my eyes and move, but nothing happened. I was unable to open my eyes. I couldn't feel my body. I was just lying there listening to everything around me.3"He didn't mean to, he lost control, you saw how sorry he was" Jessie said. "He nearly killed her, he didn't want to mate her yet, still he has no problem killing her?!" Jeremy snapped at Jessie. I got this bad feeling all over my body. I knew well enough who 'he' is, and he doesn't want me, that's why he was like that.1
I knew Jessie and Jeremy were hugging, don't ask me why, I could just feel their bond as they touched each other.
There was silence until Jeremys muffled voice whispered "I know love" like they were having some private conversation i missed out on.1My throat started to hurt. I sat up and coughed like crazy surprising them - but mostly myself, that I was able to move. My eyes opened and I felt hands on my back giving my body small electric shocks.2"Are you okay?" asked a worried Jeremy as I stopped coughing. He got onto the bed and pulled me close as gently as possible and tried to calm me by simply holding me. I nodded not trusting my voice. Jessie got up on the other side so they were on either side of me.1
We just laid there for a long time not saying anything as they caressed my hand and my cheek and my hair now and then. They were worried about me, and I liked that. That nearly made me forget what started this in the first place.
"I'm sorry for what happened, I didn't mean to" I blurted, my voice was surprisingly calm and steady. I studied Jeremy's shirt to avoid looking at them. Jeremy didn't like that and held me closer "what are you talking about?" he sounded so calm and yet so confused.
I licked my lip and made a distance between us. This caused Jessie to stare down at me with the same confusion as Jeremy. "You are sad" Jessie stated like everything just came clear to her.
Jeremy moved closer and placed a hand over mine as a comfort. "Tell us" he begged. I wanted to tell them the truth and then again i didn't, but i felt like i had to and didn't have s choice. "I was so eager for you to satisfy me". Jeremy smiled and collapsed onto the bed with a nervous laugh, he looked over at me "is that what this is about?"5
I didn't like he laughed or smiled for that matter, that only made me more nervous. I nodded afraid to let a tear out "please don't laugh at me" i begged him. He indtantly turned back to his serious state and pulled me into a hug "you scared me love, for a second I thought something else" he said all smiling.
"Come here baby girl" he said still happy as he clutched me against his body. Jessie just sat and watched us as she slowly ran her hand down my arm.
"Do you hate me?" I asked scared of their answer. Jeremy pulled back to look at me, he looked so surprised snd out of words "of course not love, how can you even think that, we love you with all of our hearts, mates remember" he said as he placed his hand on my neck making the electric shocks go crazy through my body, the shocks was nothing but pure pleasure in my body.
They loved me because of a force from their animalistic side. They loved me because their instincts told them to, all my life I dreamed of someone who loved me with all in their heart. Confusion got to me as I sat up and rocked back and forth trying to shake everything out.
I could feel Jessie and Jeremy look at each other in confusion "what's the matter?" this time it was Jessie to speak. I just looked up with teary eyes and shook my head at her not trusting my voice. "Tell us!" again I found myself giving into them and say everything that I didn't want to say out loud.
"You don't love me, I want someone to l..." I sobbed but was stopped abruptly as Jessie attacked my lips. As she pulled back I stared at her in utter surprise and confusion "I-" again I was cut off. "We love you with all of our heart, without you we were not complete, you are amazing and we love everything about you, we want you, so badly, you better not think bad about yourself" Jessie rambled as she hugged me close.1I felt safe and comfortable in her arms so I just stayed there. Jeremy lifted me onto his one lap and placed Jessie on his other like we were five years old and he was about to tell a bedtime story. Memories I can't forget even though i've been trying to.4
"Why did you leave? and why did he hurt me then?" I asked, so many questions filled my head. Jeremy growled and stared down at me with cold daggers shooting into my eyes "he-" Jessie gave him a hard look and answered for him "he should be the one telling you why he acted as he did. And to answer the other question, we wanted to, badly, but couldn't, you aren't ready for this life of ours, it can be pretty rough".
I didn't understand what she meant by that, but neither did I want to ask them questions about it. "Where is he?" I asked. I needed answer and an apology, and his touch.
My body was going crazy for his touch. For unknown reasons my body was craving his touch, to have his arms securely around my body.