Damn it! I totally forgot about this ritual!!
Kissssssssss!??
How am I supposed to do that? I mean we are literally gay couple! In our relationship I guess what matters more is comfort. And I can never be comfortable with someone like him, in such a short moment! It's impossible! I want to hide somewhere. I bet my face is now like tomato. I want to hide it so bad. Please someone help me!!
First of all we are gay couple, again we are at least I am forced to marry him. We don't share any mutual feelings or consent. How am I supposed to be this intimate with him?
Even in today's world arranged marriage like this doesn't exist! Common no one marries someone who he/she doesn't even know!! Who made this kind of useless, embracing ritual. How can a just married couple kiss in front of so many people. Isn't it something that you should do in private?
Hey hey stop your thinking! It's not my first kiss and I am not making a drama out of nowhere. It's just that I am not comfortable with all this things. Cause it's my first time to being this close with a man. Before this I kissed my girlfriend but never ever be this close with any man. So, I don't know how should I react or what should I do?
When I am thinking about all of this things, I felt his hand on my waist!!
What! No no no no nooooo!
He pulled me towards him and... yeah kissed me on my lips! You cannot say that was a kiss though. He literally forced his lips on mine. I guess he was trying to deepen the kiss but as I shut my mouth tightly, he couldn't.
I was shocked with his sudden action. Though I react quickly but I mean how could he do that. He didn't even felt it necessary to ask me once before doing it. Yeah, we are in a middle of tons of people but he could just asked me slowly or just have kissed my forehead. Why on my lips? Unless he wanted to kiss me badly. Is he even be forced to marry me? I donno!
"I guess this is nothing for him. A playboy indeed. He can do anyone anywhere."
Yes, I am angry. But I cannot even show that. Despite my disapproval, my discomfort, I need to smile and greet all of the unknown persons.
He suddenly came closer to me and asked if I am not feeling well!
What? He forced me to kiss, I was forced to marry a playboy and that playboy is now asking if I am not feeling well. Don't you have any common sense? How can I be happy?
But as our parents were nearby, I didn't say anything that would be more awkward.
So, I just nodded softly.
"Lets take the wedding photos." - His dad
"Are you ready boys?" my mom
"Yes, Mom! I have no problem."
Wow, he is now addressing my mom as his mom. Good. I am not saying anything.
I am not replying also, as no one wants to know my view. So, it better to keep my mouth shut. That will save me a lot of energy.
And ya, as always they took my silence as my consent. Photoshoot is nothing compare to marriage ig.
"He is so shy. That's why he is not saying anything. Don't mind him." -my dad!
Whatever! Am so tired to protest all this bullshits.
First there is the group photoshoot going on. My family, his family with us took the first pic, then the real show began, all of that unknow persons, I mean my family friends began to come and took pics with us. It took like half an hour to finish all this. And we both had to keep a smiley face all the time. My cheeks are hurting so much now.
I was murmuring 'At least it is over!'
"No, we both had to click some good wedding photos."
Really he has a sharp ear.
"Are we bound to do this?"
"Don't you want to keep any wedding photo of us?"
"Yes, go and take some awesome photos." -his mom.
With a sad face I started following him along with the photographer.
There is a separate room for photoshoot. I didn't know such room exists. This room is perfect as there is only green curtain, I mean graphics screen everywhere. Means they can edit the background and send you anywhere. That's great. It will save me lot of time and energy.
It was not bad in the first place as we were just standing or I was sitting on a chair and he was standing behind me, we were taking pics in this positions. But after fourth round the photographer suggested us some poses, with which I was not comfortable.
First, Aiden was not trying to do any of them, but as his dad came in out of nowhere,
"Follow the photographer's idea. We want some best picks."
He started following that poses. And I also had to. He was touching me here and there. Believe me, it was so uncomfortable for me. But I had to do that.
I guess, he was enjoying, as he started to being more intimate with me.
I am not going to judge him.
It took us like 1 hour to finish with the photoshoot.
After that, he told me we had to attain the party. I also knew that. So, we went there.
I guess, it is not so bad to talk with him. I am not feeling that much uncomfortable. Or maybe, I am forcing myself too hard to accept him.
We entered the party hall together. We had to great a lot of people together.
I am not good at drinking. But due to formalities I had to have 2/3 glasses of alcohols and now feeling so light headed. But I must say he is a good drinker. Even after having 5 glasses, he is alright.
I don't think I can go on with this. I excused myself and just came outside of the venue to get some fresh air. It's now 7 pm. The weather can be call awesome. I would love to hang out with my friends at this time. But, alas! I cannot!
"It's really disgusted to have a certain face that you are told to have! I cannot be myself at all. Don't know what my future will be like."
Heart: "Don't be sad! Don't be angry. It's nothing. Just give sometime and you will be used to it."
Brain: "How can he not be angry? He literally forced him to kiss back then! You should have kicked him hard! Not to mention that unnecessary touches during photoshoot."
Heart: "Hey hey B! Don't tell me you didn't enjoyed it!"
Brain: "Enjoy my ass! I can never enjoy such thing!"
Heart: "He is surely a good kisser. His lips were too soft and it felt like....."
Brain: "Yuck! You pervent!"
Heart: "So sweet. I wonder how will it feel when he will give a deep kiss. Am waiting for it. And he touches. I am getting...."
Brain: "Don't let him distract you!! You cannot be enjoying it. He forced you with it. Don't forget that!"
Heart: "How can you call it forced kiss! He only touched the lip lightly. I guess he was just following the ritual. And am okey with it."
Brain: "But he could have asked, at least?"
Heart: "How could he? There were too many people Infront of us. Remember?"
Brain: "But..."
"Can you both leave me alone! Am not in the mood to hear your useless arguments, so tired of it. Just shut up."
"With whom you are talking to?"