Sitting in the so called marriage preparation room, having no idea what to do, believe me it is the worst thing that could happen in a teenager's life. I don't know if anyone has been in such a situation where you cannot even say a word to your closest person or even your beloved parents!
I racked my brain hard enough to find a suitable word for this kind of situation. But alas! I couldn't find anything.
I am going to marry an unknown person, whom I don't know or have never met for once. Ya, I know a lot of information about him through social media. But don't know anything about him in person. Which matters more! As you all may know, it is impossible to know if you are talking with a dog or a human on internet.
In virtual world, he has two identities.
He is the most handsome guy in the university, best in everything. Studies? Sports? Music? No one can beat him. He is for sure second to none. In short, he is the best. No one can beat him.
Don't yet think that he is a good or so called perfect guy already.
As his another identity is totally opposite to the first one. As there's another rumor going on internet, that is quite popular in his university page, he is a complete asshole. He hooked up with almost every junior in his university life, doesn't matter if that junior is a girl or a boy. He also had several relationships with his seniors. He is a playboy for sure. I have no doubt about it.
"It's just some third-party information. Not necessarily everything is true. Most of them always turns out to be false. "
Brain: "What a logic! Nice! Give yourself some comfort with this stupid logic. But don't feel sad after finding out the truth."
Heart: "Can you ever say something that won't heart his feelings?"
Brain: "Well! Am not here to comfort anyone. I only function with logic not some stupid emotions like you."
Heart: "If you don't have emotion. You are not supposed to be a human!"
"Oh My God! Not now please. I don't want to feel more angry because of you two."
Don't think I am mad yet! It's just that, I had to spend most of my time alone and get solution of all problems by myself, don't know why I can feel their presences. Maybe it's the case for many people. I don't know!
They are my consciousness, the so called logic and emotion. Whenever I am alone, and feeling down, they really help me a lot to deal with my loneliness. And they always fight like cat and rats which sometimes help me to get over my loneliness. They also give me some stupid suggestions which to be honest helps sometimes in difficult situations but gives me headache most of the time.
I don't want to hear their suggestions on such a critical moment!
It's true, I am debating with myself just to accept the marriage as I have no other way out. But it not seems to go in the right way. I mean, I don't want to know about his past or remember any of them, it's not important at all as long as he loves me from his heart. I will not complain.
I don't have had any boyfriend in past but I do have some fantasies about my love life. Most teenagers have that right? Well, my expectation is not that much high. I just want someone to love me with his all heart and I will also love him back as long as am alive. He doesn't need to change his-self for me nor he need to do any sacrifice. Also, he should accept me as I am. Cause am not goona change myself for anyone. I will accept him as he is and he should also accept me as I am. Trust and love will be the foundation of our relation.
But all of them are just my dream and judging from my current situation nothing will come true.
Again, marrying a unknow man with terrible playboy tag is no fun at all.
Heart: "Run Away!"
Brain: "First time in your life you said something logical."
Heart: "Are you calling me stupid?"
Brain: "You need not to ask!"
Heart: "YOU...."
"Can you both stop fighting and help me out?"
Brain: "It is not like you need your parent's money to live. So, even if you run away it doesn't matter right?"
Heart: "Yeah! I know you love your parents and can do anything for them. I can feel and understand you completely. But I will never recommend you to marry against your will. It will never bring any good."
Brain: "Am impressed?"
Heart: "You are really getting on my nerves bruh! Stay away before I..."
"Not again, please!"
"I want to run away. But this marriage is the only thing that I can do for my mom dad. I don't want to hurt them anymore. I have already hurt them enough."
Brain: "But it will destroy your life, will crush your dreams. Admit that you don't have the guts to do so!"
Heart: "I can feel you difficulties!"
"It is not like I don't have the gut but I don't want to. And I don't want to think about it anymore. I will try to accept this marriage with all my might. That's the only thing that I can do now."
"Final! Am getting married. No more argument on this shitty topic!"
Lets talk about me and my soon to be husband (As I don't know how should I address him, am keeping it like this for the time being).
I just remembered that, I totally forgot to tell you about myself. Well, I am Aaron, a 1st-year medical student of one of the top medical colleges in Thailand. Also one and only son of my business holic parents. Ya, you heard that right, my parents know only to do business more than anything. And that's the only reason for me to marry such an asshole.
Want to know why am I stuck here? And how did all this happened?
Well, for this first you will need to know about that soon to be husband of mine. The asshole am mentioning is Aiden, a third year residency medical student of the same college as me. Also, a soon-to-be professor of my college, son of another businessman who is a partner of my parents as well as our family friend.
Now you might think then how am I not supposed to know him or meet him for once? I never ever attended any of my family parties or business parties, believe me or not, its true. I just hate the fact of being showed off among the parents and their baseless comprises. You can also call me an anti-social person or an Introvert, I don't mind. Cause its true and also another reason why I never meet him.
Why am I marring him?
As the time being you may have had the answer. I am marring him cause of my parents. Or, I might say, I am forced to marry him by my parents.
In our family business, his family owns like 30% or more shares and 'he' is the only successor of this. And our marring contract or whatever it is called stated that, If I marry him, I will be the half owner of that share, what a great benefit my parents can get from this marriage. Anyone with even lowest IQ can understand the language of money. And as a businessmen how can my parents don't know about it and go for this marriage.
Now, I guess you all might be wondering why am I marrying a boy when am also a man?
Why am I getting a husband instead of a wife?