The kiss didn't last long, only a few seconds but those few seconds were definitely worth a few hours maybe even days of thinking. I had so many questions, for him and myself, I just didn't know where to start. Nick started backing away from my lips slowly, almost as if one wrong move would spoil the moment. He fluttered his eyes open and I copied him. I bit my lip to stop smiling too much at what we had done but it only attracted Nick to my lips again. He moved his thumb from my chin and pulled on my bottom lip to release it from my teeth. Something I did not expect him to do was lean down and grab my bottom lip and bite it himself quickly and then let it go as if nothing happened. My eyes widened trying to find something to say but my mind was anything but stable at the moment.
" Nick I -"
" Sorry, I don't know what came over me, you just... you looked so vulnerable and beautiful I couldn't help myself" he let out a fake chuckle and lifted his knee to let his armrest on it trying to create some space between us but it just made him look more attractive.
He... He thought I was beautiful, he likes me but... No this is bad, this is the last thing we need right now, We can't afford to get distracted on a mission like this. I can't afford to get distracted. I never dreamed of ever finding let alone being in love with someone. I genuinely thought it didn't exist anymore, I mean who would want to be in love in a place like this?
" beautiful? I thought you never even noticed someone like me" I giggled a little trying to lighten the mood but he didn't have it, he wanted this conversation.
" It would be impossible not to notice you, Alex, I've seen my fair share of women in my miserable life and I have never met anyone as strong and stunning as you. I'm starting to see that now."
I stared at him for a few seconds to try and figure his words out and if he meant them. I decided to take a chance of faith and pushed forward, put one hand on his knee and the other on his cheek, leaned in and kissed him just like he kissed me a few minutes ago. The risk was high, but the reward was worth it.
The kiss started slow and sensual, he immediately responded to the feeling and placed his other hand that wasn't resting on his knee on my cheek and moved closer. He got on his knees and grabbed me slowly by the waist and turned me around so that I was facing the mattress and started to lower me down on it. The kisses turned to quick pecs as we were trying to find the best position considering we were both injured. We couldn't keep our hands off each other, His lips were always on mine even when I put my arms around his neck and pulled myself up a bit to try and make myself comfortable. His arms were wrapped around my waist and slowly moved towards my shorts. His kisses were becoming wetter and moved to my neck and started kissing there and moving his tongue around to find my sweet spot. I was panting already not used to this feeling especially when he moved to the zipper of the shorts and started pulling them down. I didn't know what to feel, I was aroused but all this was foreign to me I Didn't know how to react. I didn't know about him but I had never had sex before. I doubt it would be a shocker if I said I wasn't a people person so finding Mr Right wasn't exactly straightforward. However with Nick it felt different, he was gentle and kind and I didn't mind him touching me, he certainly knew a thing or two I could tell. My shorts shimmied down until they were to my ankles which he disregarded quickly and moved to my panties and started moving his hands in a circular motion towards my privates. It was pure heaven, and I let out a moan, which embarrassed me. Nick stopped sucking my neck and looked at me and laughed at the fact that I was ashamed. He kissed my lips softly and whispered in my ear
" Don't be ashamed love, show me how much you want this" As he started breathing heavily in my ear
" No," I said and he immediately stopped his hands roaming around my area and looked me dead in the eye
" No?" he looked confused as if now was the most horrible time for me to tell him to stop but that wasn't the case
" You're the one who started this, you show me how much you want me. Prove it." I dared him and a big smile came on his face and he leaned down disallowing me to see his face
" As you wish " He muttered.
I nodded to him to continue. I wanted this. I needed this. I was in pain and frustrated with the world and this seemed like the only out of the pain, some pleasure to get my mind off of it. I didn't love Nick but I trusted him and in this world, it's as close as it's ever going to get to love.
Nick smiled and resumed what he was doing before in a way gentler manner. He kissed me and started a tongue war with me, he explored my mouth and got a little rougher each time but was always careful not to overdo it not that I minded in the first place.
That night I trusted Nick. And he trusted me. We used each other to forget our past and our miserable present. Needless to say that it did work. It worked so much that we did the deed three times in one night. This hell that we were living in needed a shimmer of brightness and this was it for us. I've never seen us so happy and blissful, I have never felt myself blush like this or even feel giddy, it was like a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity that couldn't be wasted. After our endeavours, we fell on top of the slightly damaged mattress now and panted heavily since our adrenaline was coming back to normal. Nick never looked happier in his life, I guess he needed to get laid and I was happy to give him his pleasures. I have never felt like that before either. He made me feel sensations that I never knew existed which led me to believe he was good at what he did. It also made me curious to know how many women he had before the pandemic. Not that I was jealous or anything. Nick looked at me and silently told me to thank him for this feeling and I thanked him back. He stretched his good arm and moved my sweaty hair from my face and let his hand linger on my cheek caressing it lovingly.
" Did you enjoy it?" His dominant side was gone and back to the sweet, funny and caring guy he was
" I did. It was something I will remember for quite a while, Thanks for being gentle." I chuckled
" you're welcome" He moved up and gently kissed my lips
" Was it good for you?" I asked nervously, not knowing what his answer would be
" It was.. above average." He teased and I hit him a little bit on the arm which made him laugh and kiss me again.
I couldn't have asked for a better day, minus the whole almost-dying part at least.