Jones and I made it home with this feeling of regret and sorrow. He wasn't much of a part of my group, but he knew how important it was to me. When it came to emotions…I was different from the group. I would blame myself for every death that would happen to my friends. This was different as I show Hayhay becoming unhinged from her normal self but dying a slow painful death. The thoughts of what she was thinking crossed my mind. She thought that we were going to kill the group and tried to protect her friends…her family.
Today Jade told me that they were going to bury her in the nearby park, as it shows her beauty as much as she was. I imagine her long jet-black hair blowing in the wind with her once kind smile. The thoughts of times of me and her fighting over me wearing makeup wrong and how she dated Dawn. But I knew that all of us missed her being around. She cared about us and how we look, but she never minds about our problems. I never got to tell her that I was going to miss her or that she was a wonderful person. The knife she made was forever going to be in my bag when I need it. Weak or not.
At the time I could feel the change in the room as Jones zoned out to nothing, just thoughts. He was thinking about how the others would think of him and how they would treat him. He might be a part of the blood cult, but he was a part of my life now. He cared about me as equally as I do for him. I would tell him that they wouldn't be mad at him or treat him like a murderer, but something was off.
The feeling in my chest was heavy and cold and tears would run down my face. We couldn't be there with the group in person, but only at a distance. I would have to watch my friend be buried and say goodbye. We got dressed in our best outfits and headed outside with gloom on our shoulders. The thought of us being caught by other cult members would bring death to everyone here. So, we were going to stay back away from them and look like we are studying them.
I was wearing a short-back dress with a red cloak and Jones wore a button-up shirt, jeans, and the very same cloak. The thought of death was always in my mind as we left the house. We were going to use the car and park about a good distance away from the funeral. I could see that they had her in a cloth with what seemed like blood near the head. It must have been their way to keep her from coming back as the undead. They didn't have much to make a coffin but had the idea of flowers o her grave. She would bring new life in a form of plants. It made me sad as I saw the hole, they dig a day or so before.
They lower down with a rope and said their final goodbyes as they place dirt on top of her body. It took a good while for them to have her covered and to each of them to plant flowers in her honor. They knew that we were there waiting for our chance to plant flowers for her as well, but it didn't last long as zombies walked around the area. I didn't want to leave as I wanted a chance to say goodbye, but it didn't happen. Jones pulled me to the car with tears running down my face in sorrow. I didn't get to plant a flower or got the chance to say goodbye as I watch a horde walk through the area. They didn't know that they were there or the body in the ground. The sounds of our cars made them run towards us as we left in a great hurry, making it hard for them to follow us home.
The ride to me was long and hard for me as I thought about different memories before this sickness. The Devil virus took our lives away and the people who were our friends, enemies, and family for the world were gone. The times I and her would be with Jade and Marry going out to the pool. She cared about everyone as she would let us talk about our day. But one memory stuck out to me, one where we talk about our lives in the future. It was the summer a couple of years back at the pool.
"Lize!" Hayhay said waving her hand in front of my face. I wasn't paying attention as I was stressed about Stings and Jade dating. They seemed happy, but for me, I felt like it was going to end in a bad way. She would talk about how she and Sting were going to run away after high school.
I thought it was stupid to run away with some and to leave your family for a boy, but I understood that after dating a guy called Jack. He was nice and pulled me in with the promise of leaving town and getting married. That ended with him lying about his life and how he had a child with a woman that didn't want him in her life. He only wanted to impress me with how tough he was and how he didn't care about me. I broke it off without a thought of how he felt and how many times he would say sorry. I didn't feel like he didn't care about me and lied about his life to get me. Love wasn't a word I used for a very long time as each person I dated would hurt me in a way.
But I saw that Hayhay and Jade were talking about their future. Hayhay wanted to be a nurse and to save lives, but it would change here and there. But they were laughing and having fun, but I felt alone. They seem to always forget that I was there or act like I didn't exist in the first place. Looking at the sky was all I would do as soon they would bring me into their conversation.
"Lize!" Jade said while splashing water in my face, finally snapping me out of my thoughts.
"Yeah?" I questioned while taking a deep breath.
"Did you hear anything that we were talking about?" Jade snapped while rolling her eyes.
"Nope," I answered
"We asked what you are planning to do tonight?" Hayhay said with a frown. They normally wanted to see if I was hanging out with anyone or if I had plans away from home. I didn't like talking about my plans as much as they would try to get involved. I pulled myself out of the pool and went to my phone to leave. I wanted to be away from the thoughts of the summer and to be free from the pain I was feeling. I was depressed since my nephews were taken away from me. I barely remember their ages and what they like now, but I still hoped to see them once again.
Jade and Hayhay followed knowing that I wasn't in my right mind now. To me, I was broken and to never be fixed again. They would pull me into a hug and tell me that everything was going to be just fine. I didn't think it was going to happen very soon as they acted normal. I called my mother to pick me up and hung around with them for a good while.
"Lize," Hayhay said with a smirk, "a cute guy is looking at you."
"He can go fuck some other girl," I said, and didn't want to be in a relationship now. But the sound of footsteps came closer to me as I saw Ace and David. Ace was happy to see me and wanted to check up on me. He was like a brother to me during times of need. I disliked David as he always flirted with girls at school. He seemed to want something for himself and not what the girl wanted.
"Hey, Lize." Ace said with a smile.
"Hello," I replied with a smile.
"Hey," David said with a smirk. "I was wondering if you mind going on a date with me?"
"No thanks," I answered and looked at Ace for help, but he seemed busy with talking with Jade. He would walk closer to me and smile as I would pull away. Touching my hair and flirting with me with everything he had. I wanted to leave as I didn't feel safe with David flirting and being touchy with me. It didn't last long as my mother pulled up and I said goodbye to Hayhay, Jade, and Ace.
It wasn't the best memory, but it was one of the many times I was with her. She was the light of the party and made many of us happy. It made me upset that I couldn't say goodbye now, but maybe one day I will.