Feeling a little depressed after my visit from the hospital. I didn't go home directly. I need to calm myself from this sad mood. So I decided to walk to the beach and sit in the sand looking at the beautiful panoramic view of the sea. It's already five pm so I decided to wait for the sunset. I am glad it's Friday so I am free from school this weekend.
The beach is quiet with few people walking. I saw some people who sit in the sand waiting for the sunset like me.
My heart feels so heavy thinking about what will happen next to my BFF. I am hoping that her family will support and understand her. I was so deeply engrossed with my thought that I did not hear someone is calling me until Ben touch my shoulder and says" are you OK? Still in a daze and I told him. I am good Ben. Then Ben asked me if he can sit beside me. I said sure and he sat beside me and asked me why I look absent-minded and sad while watching the sun. I answered him with a question did you hear the news about my friend Marjorie? No, I didn't hear anything. I was busy with my basketball practice he said. She committed suicide I finally said the word. I was avoiding to say the word suicide from my heart. This word for me connotes ending your life without any thoughts of the consequences to the person who committed it and to the rest of the relationship of that person. For me, suicide is a selfish ending to once suffering. I know my opinion is so strong and righteous but this is me. A teenager who tries hard to act like an adult.
Ben's facial expressions show a surprised look and he said "why did she do that. I can't believe she will do that"Me either I injected until now I am still wondering if this is all a nightmare!!!! After I said this a short awkward silence follows. Then I break the silence by saying " I went to visit Marjorie earlier and she seems ok but looks weak and pale ". Ben looked at me in the eyes and said " how about you are you ok? "Yeah I'm ok just feeling sad for my best friend. Then I point to Ben and said look the sunset is so beautiful. Then with my cheerful voice, I said. The good thing about the sun, it may sink into darkness but it will always rise again tomorrow. I stand up and said to Ben it's dark now I am going home. Can I walk you home Ben asked me. Sure Ben that is nice of you. So we walk home in comforting silence. When I arrived at my doorstep I said "Thank you, Ben. I did not invite him inside since I don't feel like it. Your welcome he answered and he waves and walks back to his house.
Mom I am home I shouted while entering the house but there is no answer. I wonder where mom is I said to myself. I went directly to the kitchen to check if mom is making dinner. Then I saw a message posted in the fridge that says my mom and dad went to a dinner party that I had to make my dinner and the dessert is in the fridge and it's my favorite Tiramisu. The dessert makes me smile but I feel lonely eating my dinner alone so I decided to invite Angel and Victoria through SMS hoping they will come to accompany me for a dinner of gourmet cheeseburgers. Fortunately, they replied and said yes. I just invented the name to make it sound so fancy and entice my friends to come. A gourmet cheeseburger is just a burger with cheddar cheese instead of regular processed cheese. So I thaw three pieces of frozen homemade burger patties in the microwave. This patty was made by my mom with her secret herbs and spices that I and my dad loved so much. Once the patties are soft. I pan-fried them in a nonstick pan and put them inside the burger bread that was baked earlier by my mom and add lettuce, tomatoes, mayonnaise, cheddar cheese, and catsup.
I heard a knock from the main door and I heard Angel shouted "any beauties at home? and I shouted back "the door is open and the beautiful goddess you're looking for is in the kitchen preparing or our gourmet dinner. Just go to the dining area I will bring our dinner there soon". So I place the one burger in each plate add some pickled vegetable that was made by my mom as a side dish and carried them at the dining area.
Angel and Victoria saw me trying to juggle 3 plates and Angel hurriedly walk and help me carried one. I told Victoria to just go and take 3 cans of cola from the fridge. Angel and I placed the burger on the table and I said to Angel go and sit down I just need to get the dessert and the utensil for the dessert.