I couldn't gather up words after hearing him, I deeply breath as if I would be lacking in, while a tear evaded my eye, however, his words still got attention as he proceeded with his saying, "I'm sorry, but I couldn't hold it back for so long from you," I got what he was trying to say as I cleared my throat before asking him about how did he know about him leaving Korea.
"How you know about this?" he turned silent the second, those words left my mouth, to get his attention, I muttered again the same wording.
"Tell me, how did you know?" my stuttering words were enough to show that I was scared of losing him forever.
"Umm..he met me by the incident," he was done with his explanation only after uttering a few words.
"When?"
"What?"
"I said when he is leaving?"
"I am not sure," that was all when I hung up on the call and rushed inside, I didn't know what I was doing at that time but I wanted to do something that would help me to get him, as nothing came to my mind, I dialled his number, but got no response, again I dialled, my breathing was getting uneven every passing second, still the wasn't anyone to pick my call.
With that I thought of going to his house at the night hour, I got my denim jacket and without peeking inside the living room, I hurried towards the front door, but my clicking sound was low.
"Where are you going at this hour?" suddenly someone's utterances made me freeze at the spot, I could hear the steps coming up in my direction, which means she was approaching me.
With all my guts, I turned to connect my sight with her, a long sigh escaped my mouth, as my breathing got on its normal pace.
"You scared me, Ari," I said as I got relaxed a bit, "But where are you going?" she asked while keeping her hand to relax me down.
It was a dim light in that area so she couldn't see my expression, which got me relaxed.
Not whispering anything, I got lost in my thoughts, when she pushed me a little by shoulders and snapped me out of my thoughts.
"Going to see Tae," I lied, although I knew she gonna catch it just after the moment she gonna hear it. But before she said anything I started to disappear from there but she was fast to grip my wrist, right the moment I stepped out.
"You know that it isn't the reason you are going out at this moment? Tell me, " her voice was demanding at that moment, I lowered my head because it made me upset knowing that there was someone who could catch my sadness. Fast enough to pull her into a hug, I cried silently as some tears fell down my face,
"Are you crying? she pulled away as she felt wet on her shoulder, and held my hand to move from that common space where anybody could catch us. Making me a seat on the chair, she wiped off the tears while caressing my hairs backside.
Bending down to my level on her knees, she held the face-up, making me look into her eyes. She nodded, wanting me to let go of the holding inside the heart.
"Tell me," demanding again but this time sounded more like she was worried for me. However, I looked away from her, because I didn't want her to see teary eyes.
"I want to stop him, I didn't know that my stupidity would lead to this," my throat felt heavy but still managed to say under one breath straight.
She got confused as it wasn't clear to her about whom I was mumbling, "Who?"
"Sung-Ho, he was flying to US, and I just don't want this to happen so I thought of going to his address," I was done with my reason of sneaking out at night hours, instantly I felt her arms around my head, my head on her stomach, I knew she was trying to comfort me but it got otherwise, my sobs were audible to her ears.
"Stop crying, otherwise mom will appear here, and don't worry about that you can go early in the morning, come," trying to stand me up, she whispered, "But-"
"Shhh don't think much, just go to sleep," she knew it made me sad even though I wanted to convince her but nothing worked, she promised me that he wouldn't be going anywhere as well said that she gonna talk about this with brother, convinced me somehow that he would not let that happen ever in ages, "You know your brother right? He would anything for your happiness so don't worry," I gave up, thinking that might be tomorrow I gotta go to him and deny those rumours, fake every announcement of me, getting married. "I guess he will understand," I thought as she twisted the doorknob, snapping me out of my thinking. "Lay down and sleep," her smile comforted my broken heart, pecking my forehead she wished good night and left me out there, "I can't lose you, Sung-Ho. I love you," I whispered while closing my eyes.
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"Are you sure? You leave wanna leave her?" I chuckled at the utterance of Park, while his angry gazes never left mine, I nodded before answering him. "I'm doing this all because of her, just to be great personality so her parents would approve our relationship, I love her and you know I can't forget her," letting out those words, we got out of the University, finally submitted my resignation.
"I wish that you both somehow end to together, " passing him a smile, I climbed up inside the car, "Bye, I gonna miss you," he was the one who always stayed by my side, he was like my big brother, so it was obvious that I gonna miss him.
"You got give me a call and I promise you will see my appearance the next day," chuckling at him, I nodded and for the last time, I bid bye.
"I will miss you, son. Please take good care of yourself," mom stroked my hair with love when I was done with my stuff, "I promise, and from tomorrow there would be maid, so in short, you don't have to do so much work, I am worried about your health," I hugged her tightly, pecking her forehead, "I gotta go otherwise I will miss the flight," I said while laughing after pulling away, she loosened her grip.
"Bye, love you," I said loud enough to her ears, getting inside the cab, waving bye in her direction.
"It's 10 am already please drive faster."
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11 am
I sighed as I stopped before his house, hurriedly I walked towards the front door, I didn't know for what reason my heartbeat was beating on a max pace, I made it to the front door, the thing I remembered was to knock on, so I did. It was getting harder for me as every second, "Coming," I heard a female voice dropped in ears,
"Is Sung-Ho here?" this was the first thing I went for after that female greeted me, she tilted her head, as she got surprised by my behaviour, "Do I know you?" She sounded familiar with my appearance as I passed through her house a couple of years ago, meeting him. "I don't have time please, tell me is he here?" she shook her head as no. "Where?
"Most probably at the airport," she said.
"Flight time?"
"11:30 pm, " she whispered and I noticed the time on my wristwatch, I still got almost half an hour, I might get him. With this hope I hoped inside the car, and drive away at insane speed, all I could know was that I had to make it to the airport as soon as possible.
"I can't lose you, please," I mumbled under a cracked voice.
"I'm here," I mumbled and hurried towards the entrance of the airport, shouting his name might be he was somewhere near, but nothing worked, sheds were continuously rolling down my cheeks but not caring about that, I wandered around the place, collided with my persons thinking it was him but at the end, I didn't catch him.
"A-n-n-o-u-n-c-e-m-e-n-t r-o-o-m," my voice was shaking while I ran in the direction of the announcement area, "Please I need to make an announcement, " I pleaded to the person asking for help, noticing my crying figure, he agreed to do.
"His name is Sung-Ho," I said while hitting the edge of a pole.
"MR SUNG-HO, SOMEONE IS LOOKING FOR YOU, PLEASE COME NEAR TO THE ANNOUNCEMENT AREA," I thanked him but I did wait for someone but no one appeared, I again whispered for his help, but instead he asked me the flight timing.
"Mam, can you help with the route of flight?"
"ahh, it's 11:30 to States," I whispered with the hope of getting away from him. But his apologetic look proved everything to me, "Sorry mam, it's 11:45 pm, the flight took off already," I stepped back by the heartbreak, putting hands over my mouth just to avoid the sobs.
"No, it can't happen," I wished it to be false however the crowd around me, those noises proved me wrong.
"You can't do this."