"There are a lot more beautiful girls left in the world, my son," a voice that was the only one who understood the pain of him besides the fact that he never intended to share it with someone known. "Dad, you are well known about the fact that she was the only one in my life and will be till the end. I don't need those beautiful girls, Jin-Ae is everything for me and my angel," he coveted her hand from the start but known to the fact that she never adored him more than just a friend. "I am willing to do anything for her but before that, I need your backing, " he needed the courage to assert his feelings and that was a spur of his discomfort that he withstood all alone.
Every darkness, he shuddered at the thought of getting & encountering him again with empty emotions, he wasn't a calming person but someone who was summoned with sickening impressions in his head, there wasn't a time when he didn't to go to bed without shedding some tears. But Jin-Ae was the sum up portrayal of an angel to him, hoping for a better start he was left behind in the race of love. "I'm willing to stand for you but you have to look after yourself, you worked hard to be counted in one of the best businessmen just to meet the demand of her parents, I can't see you breaking down like this, I care for you Tae-Hyun," his dad was always supportive no matter what, he held him, stood for him. "But don't know what destiny is gaming around me," after whispering he let out a giggle and sat down on the couch with heading his head down. "Everything has its way of happening, just let it take off, " soothing his back with love, Tae-Hyun lounged his head on his manly chest. "I'm aware that you have lost the hope but still willing to fake it in front of me," this was the thought, his dad was thinking and mumbling to himself.
Leaving a quick peck on his forehead, he laid him down on the bed without creating any noise to disturb his sleep. "Did he agree?" a familiar voice was a hushed whisper from behind. "Let's go out," now the circumstance was considerable not because he cherished that girl but he was gradually sacrificing himself. "We would always be there for him but he isn't ready to go for another girl," his words took his mom by surprise, it wasn't her first time but every new second she listened to these words her heart broke, "but I can't lose him, he did everything possible just to stand in front of her parents." It was not wrong to say that he already lost himself, being ignored by someone who meant the world to him was not easy to bear, every moment he falsified the actuality that was so unpleasant to his livings.
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Straddling on an empty bench alone basking in the sunlight, my sufferings seemed to show a level that I couldn't bear any more. I had broken down with teary eyes looking at the ground, feeling terrible all again. My thoughts completely caught up in this realisation that what I wanted, would never take turn according to my expectations, looked like I had blanked on the corner of my head for not knowing how to get over that misunderstanding. "Hope everything takes a good turn," a deep breath made me feel relaxed for a moment, & without feeling more terrible I left the cafe.
I was encountered with her voice, she couldn't ever talk sweetly to somebody for once, I regret being a daughter of her. "Stop right there?" my steps didn't bother to do according to her so I kept walking in my room's direction. "STOP RIGHT THERE?" gritted my teeth, I turned to face that annoying lady. "Marry Tae-Hyun, he loves you, his parents told me that," it was straight for her to let out those words and so bold that she dared to ask me that. "I don't want to start arguing with you again but moreover to him, I will talk with him. You don't have to worry about him so much," now listening to her gonna be frustrating to me so without paying attention to her, I locked the door.
"Why you fell in love Tae-Hyun?" even though he loved me but I couldn't return his feelings because eventually it would one of us to get hurt in the process. "I want to make everything clear with him because it is hard for me to see someone breaking down because of me. Let's meet him. I know he would understand this situation," it was so quick of me to dial his number, I saved his number with "Chubby" he was kinda fat before & I found him so cute that's the reason why I called him chubby. "Pick up please," pausing for his response, it was getting awkward for me.
Rubbing his eyes, he let out a yawn before he could answer the call, "Hello?" not glancing at the screen, he brought the phone to ear with closed eyes. "Hey, chubby? Can we meet up somewhere?" not taking too long, his lips curved into a big smile at the mention of the word chubby, after coming to the thought that it was her, he opened his eyes with a happy face. "Sure, XXX cafe?"
"Alright, meet you at 7 pm, bye."
"Oh, it's 6:15. I have to get ready fast," Tae-Hyun let out in an excited tone which made him jump off the bed.
Childhood buddy's meet up:)
"It's always of him to get late," I chuckled at this realisation but soon I saw him waving at me from far. "There he is," I mumbled. "What took you so long? I must say some habits take time to fly away," we both lose some giggles.
"I have something for you?"
"What?"
"Guess, you liked them so much when we were in primary school, give it a thought. Hurry up," I looked at him after so much time but his face grew weird with a confusing look over my question, "What it can be? Lollipop?" he was right but it seemed like he was unsure of what he said. "Alright, here you go" I forwarded him the box of lollipops of his favourite flavour of chocolate. "I can't believe you remembered this." his looks were worthy to notice, he was smiling so big which melted my heart towards him. "But I didn't bring anything for you?"
"What do you mean? You gonna eat them all alone?" I pretended to make a babyface with a pout. How amazing was it that he had somehow woken up in another world like this, where he laughed for real? "But you brought them for me right?" I shook my head in agreement with his statement but there was barely a moment when he ate those lollipops by himself. "Don't worry you can have."
Now it was time to let those painful words out of my heart, I cleared my throat before letting out anything.
"I don't wish to spoil your joy but it's important for both of us?" my voice echoed through our surroundings, snapping him back to the cruel reality of this world. "What is it?" he knew that she was about to say something that would hurt him but still he chose to go for it.
I gently held his hand in between mine, his hurtful look broke my hurt however it was necessary to tell him.
"I know you liked me from the start and I'm so sorry that I couldn't return those feeling back to you. I adored you more than just a friend but more like a best friend to me. I didn't wish to hurt your emotion but I hope you understand. You know that I can't love you when it's somebody else inside my heart. I don't want to see you getting hurt after coming to know this," I waited for him to speak up but instead it was silence from his side. Neither I knew what to say more so I just looked at his face who was facing the people beside us, her words not only broke his heart but it seemed that he was dead inside because everything that he did in his life was for her, only for her. Got into the same university just stay near to her, entered into business just because of her and in the end, he got to know that she didn't love him, love was much far but not even liked him.
"Tae?" it was another nickname from me, I slowly whispered to him, to get his attention, my heart tightens when I let out those words but all I ever wished for was not to see someone getting hurt because I was the reason for their suffering. "Hmm?" he hummed but his attention wasn't on me so I made him face me, I forgot to breathe when I noticed his teary eyes, broken looks. Hurriedly I got up from my seat just to take him in my embrace. Wrapping my hands around his head, I didn't expect that he would cry after my words but soon I realised his hands around my waist, it wasn't new to us but due to my parents, I grew distant from him. The ground under my feet fell when I heard his weepings.
"I loved you from the start but I never expected that this moment would ever show up in my entire life," he tried to speak in between his sobs, but being beside him, I tried to listen to his talks, his holdings from ages, his sufferings. Slowly caressing his back, passing to his words, I stayed in the same position. "I'm sorry for falling in love with you but I couldn't help the moment when you cared for me, a time when you fought for me against school bullies when you made bracelets for me on my birthday. I guess your friendship had a strong bonding than my love," after making remembering those moments again some shed rolled my cheeks.
"Not only me but you also did a lot more for me, you always spoke for me when my mom tortured me, always waiting on the front gate for me, I love you but somewhere not the same way you wanted," said while cupping his cheeks and making him look into my eyes.
Removing his tears from his face, I smiled at him. "What if we start and live those moments again? You are my best friend and I, your best protector," Chuckling at my sayings.
"But don't make me fall in love again," he said still not over the heartbreak a moment ago, didn't matter whether his love was still alive however he needed her presence around. He was afraid to face the time when she would reject him and he would lose his best friend forever, this stood his biggest insecurity that kept him away from confessing.
"I promise."