It has been a week since I got that familiar feeling of someone following me,so I felt a bit at peace with my inner self. School went well, my part job is also going well, nobody is disturbing anybody and nobody is sick, and Kim Min Young's bond with me is growing everyday. Everything is going well actually but the only thing is, I don't understand why Sana left our school and transferred to another school.I wonder what made her leave the school. Also, I was a bit upset that she didn't gave a farewell to me, not that I'll miss her but considering the fact that we were once 'best friends' , she could have just hinted or texted me that she was moving out and transferring. Well, what's gone is gone, but I would also like to know the reason though.
Anyways, ever since my mom left me, nothing seems to be going normally.Of course it is without doubt that I have had many good and happy moments with my friends especially Min Young and I'm not complaining but life was more better when she was with me. On the bright side, I am also so glad that a person like him came into my life, and to let me move on with my life as well.It was as if he was waiting for me to enter at the right moment. He has been someone I can lean on to whenever I was lonely or happy.
It has already been eight months, and I feel our bonding getting stronger every day and night. He would call me if I have reached my home on time, sometimes he would dropped me off till home and he would ask if I'm okay or if I'm doing well, or if i'm eating well, something that a family would do. I feel so safe with him and I enjoy every bit of moments that I have spent with him.
But this strange feeling has overtook me, and I keep thinking to myself that "is my feeling getting stronger or am I feeling something that I've never felt before or are my hormones changing?".
My mind, my body and my heart does not work together at all. I'm saying this because I'm feeling something that I have never felt before. I see Min Young as my own brother, a close friend, a family but for some reason, my heart says that I want him to be more than that and then my mind would interfere, saying it's all bullshit because yes, I admit I've never had a close guy friend like him and it's all new for me, so maybe I was getting delusional, moreover I see him as my own brother too, so being romantically in love with him would be kinda awkward for me and him as well. My body would react whenever we are in physical contact, like when he hugs me, or hold my hand and comforts me whenever I was sad. I mean during those days I didn't feel anything but now, everything seems to be changing. It's quite cringe and cliche, but I gotta admit it.
I Think HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIM.I HAVE FEELINGS FOR MIN YOUNG
Am I kidding myself? I feel my hormones reaching it's peak level when I'm with him, and I would get butterflies in my stomach whenever he touches me, i can't avoid this uncomfortable sensation. For the first time in my life, I feel attracted to someone whom I used to consider as my own brother, but whatever it is, I want to be more to him than just a close friend and if my mom was still alive, she would have done anything to make us closer than friends because I know she would always support me in everything I do.
My phone vibrated, as I was thinking so deep about what led me to have feelings for him. Speak of the devil, the call was from him.
"Maria, look outside" he chuckled. I looked down from the window in the second floor, which was my room. He was standing there, leaning to his car, legs crossed, one of his left hands in his pocket, looking up towards me.
Wait what? Is he outside, please don't do this to someone who has just caught feelings for you. My thoughts were blabbering and murmuring.
"Hang on a sec" I hanged the phone,for some reason I was so excited, I opened my closet to dress up. I wanted to look bit different from my usual look, I don't know what came over me, but I couldn't control myself, I was feeling nervous all of a sudden, as if I'm gonna go on a date. I look at the mirror and I tried changing my clothes atleast fifth times. It was already evening, maybe around six, so I wanted to present myself with a warm clothes since it was winter already and it's very cold especially at night.I put on a brown sweatshirt, with black pants and a black boots. I took my sling white bag. These were the outfits that I wanted to wear, during cold nights when I get myself a "boyfriend".
Anyways, I went down and saw that he brought a new car that I haven't seen, it was a red car, wait is it Mercedes benz. Sometimes I doubt myself he comes from a commoner background.Of course, I did made an assumption last time too when he came to visit that high class cafe where I was working as part timer but I just hope that I am just assuming things, because on the bright side, I really want him to have a same status as him, but I doubt he would be one, so I'll adjust if he is a bit even above my status because if he really was the richest man on earth, I am sure it would hurt me a lot considering the fact that he hid his status to his own closest friend, since I have shared almost everything about me to him and so I have many rights and reasons to feel hurt if he is one of it. Back to the point, I didn't knew what was the occasion, that he would even drove a beautiful car to let someone like me hop in,so let's just hope it's something good or special,not that I am expecting too much as well.