We are no longer classmates after three months.Yes, it is entirely my fault.
I enrolled in Section 2, while you stayed in Section 3.
Well, the school made the decision, so we can't argue with it.
We remained friends (Thank, G!). We still talk, despite the fact that we're really busy, and the only time we can communicate is in the hallway on our way to our next class (see what I did there? HAAHAH).
my circle of friends grew bigger, now we are nine in total.
Remember when I said I'd never had so many female friends? because I believe girls dislike me and my attitude? I actually got a little beef with one of them, the first friend I made at our school. She doesn't like my attitude and I am so sad, really sad about it. I am so frustrated at that time, that when she confronted me in the cafeteria, I actually wanted to cry.
I simply hope you're there, but I know I have to face the fact that not everyone will like you.
You are aware that once I have treated someone as a friend, I will not let them leave.
That's what I did. I expressed my regret. I promised to change my way of speaking since I don't want to lose them. It all happened in the final days before the first semester concluded.
2nd term? I am quiet af. It is like I do not want to utter words that might potentially hurt them. I was raised in a tough home where they will say straight to your face your mistakes and sometimes make fun of you. I never held it against them; in fact, it strengthened me. But, once again, I never stated anything to them; I don't want them to believe I'm justifying my actions. I merely said those things to you because I know you'll get it.
This term is the saddest term of my 1st year. aside from the fact that you are no longer my classmate. I'm always on the corner, calm, but my head is yelling. I'm sure I did if you're there.
The cafeteria is where we always ran into one other and I made you treat me to some snacks. Ahaahaha.Remember when you came to our table to sit with us, along with one of your buddies whom I claimed I'd marry? AHAHAHAI was so delighted that we'd be able to communicate again after so many years (JK) that I didn't know how talkative we'd been that some of my new friends were taken aback. and they have no idea that I curse. That's both hilarious and heartbreaking, since how can I pretend to be someone else in front of all my friends?
I let you meet them, and you are astounded by what you have learned and how I've changed. Did you know that I've perfected sleeping during every waiting period we've had? because I want to put an end to my thoughts because I'd like to compose myself, to be my acceptable self.
I'm sure you've had your fair share of these experiences. Maybe that's why we hit it off? We are both frequently misinterpreted. What's the only thing that's changed? You don't have to deal with this kind of life any longer.
I can't say good for you because I don't want you gone.
I'm not complaining...sometimes we have to be flexible since other people may not understand all you do. I don't enjoy conflict, so I'll back down as much as possible since college life is difficult; you can't be an island here.
But, to be honest, I miss my island.
I'll miss you too.