After sitting sometime with her , I noticed she slept . I was a bit relieved as she was continuously crying since I was next to her . So I really wanted her to be calm and when she slept , I decided to visit the hospital temple to pray for her .
I was praying by closing my eyes . I realized Alice's words were continuously running in my mind when I remembered the boy's name . I was literally shocked when I realized the boy's name was Nitin not Niniti .
Nitin . I can't believe he could do this to her . Suddenly my eyes had tears in them not because of sadness but because of rage . Nitin was one of our friends in our friends group . And he was always so silent , never talking much and for us , he was the most decent man in our group .
I was in such a shock because I trusted him very much . My trust for him was to an extent that when I realized she took his name I couldn't believe he could do this to her and that's why I was in shock . Even if God says he is guilty and should be punished it was unbelievable . I just want it to be a bad dream because I can't take it anymore .
" I am hurt by his actions because he was never like a man of dirty mind . He never flirted with a girl , how could he r*pe one and that too Alice who was his one and only friend . Please God I don't want to sleep anymore as this dream is worsening every moment . I just wish this is some bad dream and I definitely wanna wake up . I don't want to see this dream anymore . " I said to myself while praying .
Tears were rolling down my cheeks when I felt someone putting hand on my shoulder to console me . I turned to find the doctor behind me who himself had tears in his eyes which he didn't allow to let out .
I controlled my tears and thought about why he is sad . For him , it is a normal thing if he can't save a patient because he must have seen such cases . I was confused at the thought so I decided to ask him but then dropped the idea because it was not the time to think of all this . I was just feeling miserable about Alice as in what Nitin did to her .
I yelled at him out of anger," Why are you sad ? She is just a patient whom you failed to save . And there are many patients who can die , but you won't even try to save them . You will just say you couldn't save but reality is you are a careless doctor who just stops trying ."
He replied," I am sorry , Miss Yuma . You are right , I do feel sad and very sorry for not saving her . She is no more . Her last words were ' Don't be afraid , I am not leaving you Yuma , I will always be around you . I love you Yuma . Punish that bastard .' And I do have tears because she is not an ordinary patient of me ", he saw me going towards ICU and started walking behind me and continued, " I was the one whom she was supposed to meet this evening ."
I suddenly stopped moving and stood as if I can't move . I thought for a moment if I heard it right or not . I thought to myself ," This can't be true . He can't be Alice's boyfriend . Did she really keep a secret from me ? But why ? I am her best friend , I will never say anything to anyone about her and she know that . Am I too bad to keep a secret that she never told me anything and now I know it but not from her . I can't believe this . "
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I opened my eyes in a white room . I realized I was in a hospital bed and a nurse stood near me checking my BP . " What happened? Why am I here ?" I asked her trying to get up . I suddenly felt pain in my head when I heard nurse telling me to rest and informed me that I fell down in front of ICU and had a serious head injury .
When I heard ICU , I remembered doctor saying Alice is no more . I got up holding my head as I felt dizzy and pain but I had to go so I requested the nurse to take me to Alice but she refused . She then said that I was fainted outside ICU . When I was fallen down my head was hit by the bench outside ICU . I am sleeping since 2 hours and shouldn't move as it would affect my injury . Without thinking anything else I asked her ," Did anyone take Alice from the hospital ?"
She said ," Noone came to take her body . She is in morgue room ." I was relieved to know that she is not gone without me bidding her farewell but then again I was upset that she is in morgue room . But cannot blame anyone as for them she is only a random person whom they couldn't save .
I wondered why did the doctor agree to take her to the morgue room if he was her boyfriend . There is no need for anyone to take her from the hospital as he is her boyfriend , so I didn't understand his actions. I really wanted to punch him for leaving my best friend like a random person in the morgue . I had so many questions whose answers I couldn't get .
I asked nurse to call the doctor and she went away . I thought when she is gone I will slowly sneak out and go to Alice but I underestimated the nurse . She locked the room from outside while going . So I had no option other than waiting for the doctor and asking him to let me go to Alice .
He came after 10 minutes but those 10 minutes were like years I just couldn't hold myself in that room , I felt like Alice was going away from me by each passing moment . Tears had made my dress wet in front when I realized I was not wearing my clothes , I wore hospital dress .
I thought there was no need to change my clothes even if I had an injury because it was only on my head not anywhere else . I wondered why they changed my dress .
When they came , I was standing bedside . I immediately leaned down on bed in the meantime he unlocked the door . I requested," Doctor Daniel (saw the name on name broach on his coat) . Please let me go . I am perfectly fine now . I need to go to Alice . And please tell me why did you take her to the morgue . Please don't give me that foolish reason that noone is here to take her as you are the closest one related to her so you could have taken her and even if you waited for me you shouldn't have sent her between other bodies in the morgue . How could you ? "
When I completed, he took a deep breath and replied ," If you are done may I say anything . You can't get your answers if you don't allow the other to speak so please shut up and listen to me ."
He continued ," We were supposed to meet today but she didn't come . I sent her body to the morgue room because she is NOT related to me . We just talked on social media yesterday and decided to meet today . Otherwise I didn't know her at all . And I am sorry but your head injury is serious , so we can't give you discharge until 2 days ."
I tried to convince him but he refused and made me realize the seriousness of my injury . He informed me that I can suffer sever headache or may be memory loss so they have to keep me observation and do some tests , otherwise it would be dangerous for my health .
I asked him ," There is no one for Alice in this world other than me , who will do her last rights if I am to be admitted in this hospital for two days ? "
He simply said," I know you cannot go for last rituals now that's why she is in morgue so that you can take her after two days and bid her farewell and do the last rites . She told me she has a best friend and except her there is noone in the family . "
All this while I cried so much that my head started aching a little bit which started to increase slowly . I hold my head and screamed fully trying not to shout loud but can't help it .
I pleaded, " You are not understanding, I just wanna be next to her . Please let me go. She is leaving me and I can't afford to lose my only bestie . I am already in a state of shock . I still can't believe she is no more and I feel she would be with me if you have tried a little more to save my Alice . "
I started getting up and the nurse held me to stop me to go . I freed myself and reached the door when I felt dizzy and I think I blacked out .
I still remember Doctor Daniel saying ," I told you this would happen . That's why I was asking you again and again to rest . You won't listen and I am the one who is careless ." I think he then asked the nurse to prepare some injection and he injected me .
Aftera long sleep I woke up next morning finding a nurse next to me with me facing her back . She was looking at some medications . She saw me awaken , so she called the doctor and went away .
Doctor came and asked me to have lunch and medications . He did a small check up after which I had my lunch and was lost in my own world of thoughts . A nurse came after sometime and gave me medicines . I felt very sleepy , I didn't even realize when did I sleep . Similar things happened at night also .
Next afternoon they gave me discharge papers , I immediately rushed to fill the form to get Alice for funeral n' all . Doctor Daniel helped me to take her , he got me some men and I went to the priest for last rites for graveyard .
I organized a funeral for Alice at my apartment . I really didn't have guts to step into her apartment without her . Noone came in the funeral for Alice . The ones who came were either for consoling me or just for the formality . After every single rite were over , I was left all alone in my apartment
where almost at every single place WE had spent too many good times together .
After two weeks....
I was slowly moving into a well of depression . I spent 14 hours out of 24 with her earlier and that's why I was so fond of her . My depression went to another level when I started imagining her . I just needed to consult a doctor before it was too late so I visited the same hospital Alice was taken.
After consulting with a doctor , I was heading towards hospital's inner medical store when in between I imagined Alice again and bumped into Dr. Daniel while trying to reach her . I realized she was not there . I got up and saw the person I bumped in to was Dr. Daniel . I ignored what he was saying and moved out from the hospital without a backward glance as I was so pissed off seeing him .
My mind was full of negativity , so it was really forcing me to believe that Dr. Daniel couldn't save Alice so he was at fault . I blamed him totally for the loss of my BFF . And obviously due to depression , I didn't go to police to know about the investigation of Alicia's case .
After a week I was asked to revisit hospital . I really didn't want to see Dr. Daniel again but I had no option because the doctor I was consulting (Dr. Adams Gill) was one of the top 10 best doctors of the state , so I preferred visiting him and couldn't stop for anyone like Dr. Daniel who was a criminal for me . I just knew one thing at that time , even if he didn't kill her but he was unable to save her and for me he was only at fault . My mature mind was weaken by the negative thoughts of my mind . I had lost the capability to understand what was right or what was wrong at that time .
I visited the hospital again after a week hoping to not to see him again but I think God was angry with me . He saw me just when I was about to go in Dr. Adams' cabin . He stopped me and tried to talk but ,then again, I ignored him and went inside the cabin .
When I moved outside the cabin , I was worried thinking if he would be outside then I would not be able to control myself and didn't know what would I do with him . I was relieved when I didn't find him out there but God was not in favour of me as I found him waiting for me in front of my car .