The days began to blur together as I still refused to move or eat anything. My mind was wide awake trying to figure out how to make my desire come true. Since I couldn't sleep, I decided to leave behind a snoring Gyles and go outside to the top of the ship.
I climbed to the top deck feeling the sharp wooden planks on my bare feet. I went to the tip of the boat and touched the wood that separated me from the sea. The night was dark and silent. I stared out at the vast ocean surprisingly unafraid.
If I fell into the water, I wouldn't even bother to fight against it.
I closed my eyes and felt the wind blow my hair. The refreshing breeze blew the white robe embroidered with silver thread. What had been a gift from Raylon and Mona was now a painful reminder.
The robe I wore would serve as a reminder of my sins in this world.
It was the chains that bound me.
It was my punishment.