CHAPTER 38
At first, Hansel thought he was only lusting her. Lust at first sight, something like that, that was what he thought. But over time, his interest evolved to attachment, it wasn't lust- but he was attracted to her as a person not to her body. He couldn't say it was love because he knew it was not love.
He was trying to figure it out, is it lust? Is it an attraction? Infatuation? What does he want from her? Sex, he could have sex with her. If it was a lustful attraction, he could hope that he would be over it. But right now, he wasn't certain about himself anymore. He wanted to feel her, however, it seems like it wasn't a one-time thing for him. He knew at the cruise that one night stand between her won't be a good idea. So, he wanted to become part of the relationship too for his sexual needs, because he thought, maybe, he was just undergoing his late teenage phase, where his libido was being stirred by her.
