So I wanted to put this out here that I am, in fact, alive, if barely. Most of the things i have going on in life have just constantly hit walls, regardless of what I have done.
I have tried to help people on multiple occasions, only for that help to be taken for granted and me end up being betrayed so I have no idea how long Ill go till I give up, but honestly, at this point, i feel like life is just trying to tell me to give up.
The only reason I'm still here at this point has only been through sheer stubbornness and spite. But even that has been waning at this point.
Suffice to say, I don't want sympathy, or for anyone who might be reading this to feel bad for me, but I don't have any reasonable way or place to properly vent how I feel. I never had one. In the past people have said I could vent how I feel about things, but that trust was betrayed, so no matter how hard I tried to do good for someone else, even at the cost of my own health, i still ended up getting betrayed.
If anyone has managed to read this far. Thank you.