Another perilous night,I walk the same path I have been walking for past few days with such angst without reaching the end of line,I hear them,those faint sounds,the way the wind blows differently,I think someone has been following me.It's mystical for everything to disappear a short life is indeed a life with less sorrows.
I should be holding myself from taking another step forward but a piece of me tempts me to do it.I should be afraid that the steps I take are followed by someone else but for me it's comforting to know someone is with me, I am agitated,I slightly tilt my head sideways and see his reflection in the mirror door of a shop.He is a tall mysterious man,it's like a murk is surrounding him.I can smell his scent coming from behind.
As I wander to get lost,I rush to find my way back home,I can still feel that he's been following me but I just keep walking until I reach home.
I think I am being too suspicious of him,still I should think of a way to stop all this nonsense,blurring these thoughts out,I turn on the lights which I rarely do,my house is filled with silence.
I have no one to miss to love or to lean on,I have left everything behind and been living like this for years,the wounds in my eyes are not those that can be healed by time.I wish,I could say I don't know the reason of my sadness but I know it and it stays there for long somewhere in my heart with no home.
What my owns did to me was to abandon me,what others did to me was to keep me and use me,my sad stories may never end as these thoughts starts to eat me alive I pretend to be dead,I close my eyes and sleep with a chaotic mind.
"Bling!" "Bling!" "Bling!"
I open my eyes and with my one hand I smash the alarm clock,I still set an alarm when I have no where to go,it reminds me I have to open my eyes to see it's a beautiful day to live,
"The sun shines on me too and that's what makes me golden."
I gather up the courage to get up and get through this day,then after a quick shower I glance myself at a mirror.
My light brown eyes seem to gain a bit of sparkle,my hair are long and dark brown,
it feel's like I haven't cut them for ages.
Girls in their twenties are beauty conscious,
it's a secret to know that you should adore your flaws so others will learn there is no such word as "beauty" in appearances,
I have found the ugliest sight turning out a masterpiece for a perfect shot and beauty that brings destruction that ends up killing.
In my life there is nothing that excites someone I am just like a gem that stays hidden in front of many eyes or like an unread book that stays abandoned,
thinking this way where I have one negative thought but to cover the negativity a positive thought gives me a little bit of hope to adore me more,
I feel like giving up when I end up trying again.
I look at the time,I eat breakfast,I go for lunch and then for dinner,this is how the time passes by when I stay at home,
I look at the window it's almost night now,
at this time at this day,
I whisper to myself "today should be the day",
I tie my hair take a deep breath and walk towards the door,
hoping that mysterious man will not follow me again,
I walk away with my foots allowing them to lead me the way that I hope only existed for me.
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