Is Bryanna right? Was I clinging too hard on things that I can no longer do anything about? Was I really not ready to give Ed what he so clearly wants.
NO! What we both want.
With Ashton, it was always what he wanted, what he needed, what he thinks is right.
But Ed is different. He never pushed me into doing something that I never wanted.
Yes, he in a way pushed me into submitting to the pleasures that he can evoke. But he still gave me a choice. He never forced me to take up the bet. He even asked me if I was sure before he started.
Ashton was never like that. He would present all explanation that for him is logical and moved towards it. We were not a couple when it comes to decision making. I was expected to tag along.
Even during lunch, I was still preoccupied by Bry's words that I missed the sharp eyes of Ed and him talking to Bry in the corner. Even Jeff looked at me worriedly.
