I felt myself starting to calm down. I was spent. I was just lying in Ed's embrace like a new born baby. He felt me stirred so he stopped the soothing up and down motion of his arm in my back. I felt bereft when he let go of me.
I have really come to depend on the comfort that Ed brings. And this scares me. Really scares me because I have once been dependent on someone. Look where it got me. I tried to shake off the need for someone to lean on that is starting to arise within me. I stood up all of sudden making him fall on his butt. He looked up at me in disbelief.
"I'm sorry, Ed. I never meant to be a nuisance. Next time that you see me breaking down, just ignore me please." I told him firmly and started going to the restaurant. I think Bry and Jeff went ahead and gave us a moment alone.
Those moments alone with Ed should stop. Also those stolen kisses that I have come to anticipate and the sprinkle of those warm, tight hugs.
