Those days which anguished me so much sounded different as the aura of the flowers kept smelting through my nose. I took a quick glimpse at the note which was left on top of the table as my mother's usual behavior.

' This big note. What for?' I thought as I took the note and sat on the couch to read it. At first I felt strange kind of tensed mood but later on I gained courage as this was my mother and the fact that this time she left a very big note she must have had a big reason why.

' Dear daughter' the note began as tears welled down my ears.

'May this letter find you well. I am tired of this kind of life we are living and so I have decided to leave. Not because I don't love you but because I can't watch you die. I have tried my possible ways to raise money to treat your chronic illness but no matter how much I try, I still end up with nothing'

I sat down confused for a while wondering why my mother left me. At first I thought I was useless but then I thought of the meaningful things I had done with my life. I looked around and wasn't ready to absorb the shock after the memorable moments we had in that house. I immediately ran to her room but there were no clothes in her closet. Even the countless tears stopped running through my cheeks. Why did she do this? Why did she leave me to run this errand in life by myself? I had countless unanswered questions. I didn't know where to start. Taking care of myself was one of my hardest tasks to do in this world. How could I cope with apsalutely no one in my life?

But few minutes later, I heard screams outside the kichen. I ran as quickly as I could since I was able to recognize that voice. I was surprised to find out that it was my mother and she was about to fall off the cliff. I tried everythingI could to help her get back but I couldn' t. I didn' t understand anything at all. Just few minutes earlier I read her dispersal letter but now she was about to fall off from the balcony of the house. Tears rolled down my eyes as I did not understand what was really happening then.

" Help me Cynthia! Help! Cynthia help!" My mother still kept and those voices did not stop ringing in my ears.

I did not know what to do but I tried all I could to help her come back but she escaped my arms.

No! I would never kill my own other. I immediately went down stairs and was astonished to see my mother in a pool of blood. So, she had not left? But why did she really leave that painful big note for me. I took my phone and called for an ambulance. Luckily, the ambulance did not take too long.

" Is my mother going to die? Doctor, I can still feel a little bit of her pulse" I said as I entered the ambulance and accompanied my mother to the hospital.

" Doctor, it feels like she wants to talk to me. Please, let me talk to my mother " I insisted but the doctors did not allow me to talk to her.

" This is the furthest point you can reach. Your mother is going to be okay" One of the doctors told me as they entered the emergency room.

I couldn't help it but worry about my mother. I was confused at the moment as everything still sounded weird. The voice of her crying did not stop running through my mind. It took three hours but there was still no news from the doctor and I was still seated there hoping that I could hear my mother's voice again.

" Cynthia am sorry, your mother made it alive but there is still something wrong. She went into a comma and we don't know when she will ever wake up. Do you any relatives whom we can contact or any other person whom we can contact?" Doctor Christine said a bit worried.

" No....it has always been me and my mother and you know that Dr. Christine. I still can't believe that my mother did this to me and I don't the possible reason why. Can I see my mother?" Dr. Christine nodded as she signalled me to enter the intensive Care unit.

I looked at my mother's helpless body as tears welled down my eyes.

"Mother why? We were just fine and we were happy but you've suddenly left me alone. We could have overcome this challenges together, if only you had faith in us. But now you are sickly lying in this bed and there is nothing I can do about it" I couldn't handle the pain anymore. I kept crying while requesting her to wake up but she didn't.

" No matter what you do , nothing will bring her back unless she decides it for herself. I am afraid I have to leave. My daughter Lizzy must have been dropped off from school" Dr. Christine said

" Can I come with you? I don't have anything to go back to. I am not sure when my mother would wake up " Christine nodded her head.

Sometimes we always don't understand some things. It always takes a matter of time and there are million reasons why.