June 20, Sunday
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It was sunday. I just had a talk with Koichi about my past lover and the pain that was still hiding inside me, Koichi seemed like he was ok about the fact that i was gay and he even offered to be my last hope...
Now my question was how was he planning on making me feel better after everything i had to live.
Koichi: "What about you're parents Aki", "How was you're life living with them?"
Me: "My parents...", " i- .."
Koichi: "Aki are you ok?"
Me: "yes.."
Me: "Before moving here i lived in Barcelona with my parents in there private villa", "as you see my parents are really rich people but..", "there not good people"
Koichi: "Why would you say that?"
Me: "When i was 7 years old i found out that my family was using me for the family business in really bad ways"
Koichi: "Like what?"
Me: "My family wanted me to be friends with a rich girl so they could get a promotion.."
Koichi: "A promotion of what?"
Me: "Marrying that girl", " Her name is Maria and she knows that i'm gay...",
"She's inlove already with a poor but noble man and i don't want my family to break her heart"
Koichi: "Oh..."
Me: "You see my family is a cruel family", "their allied with the Russian mafia", "and they are in the business of human trafficking and drug dealing"
Koichi: "Damn it sounds like a horrible family"
Me: " it is.."
"i was 12 when i found out about the business my parents had and that they we're incorporated with the mafia"
Koichi: "But what happened when you found out?"
Me: "i told my friend Mayu and i tried to contact the police but..."
Koichi: "You're parents found out didn't they"
* looks down *
Me: "after that they found out i was held in the basement we're all the dead body's we're", "i didn't eat for a whole week i was kept in there while getting tortured by my cousins"
"The smell in there was horrible"
Me: "My brother was just a little kid at the time and i didn't want him to live in such a horrible family but he liked seeing people getting tortured"
I was sitting with koichimaru on the table in the livingroom when koichi told me to come give him a hug.
I started crying in his arms while he just said: "it's ok aki", "you can take it all out". "You've had a really bad experience in this life". when i calmed down a bit koichi wiped my tears with his fingers, he looked at my lips like he was about to kiss me, but he didn't. He just gave me a hug and said that he was there for me no matter what.
I was happy i finally felt love or attention after so long.
Then i started coughing blood again, Koichi saw me and he got scared. He looked so worried about me.
"That face" i said in my mind, i didn't want to see that type of face expression anymore. I made everyone worry about me.
Koichi was cleaning the blood that i had on my fingers, he was so gentle to me.
He then asked me: "aki why are you so sick!", "this is not normal"
"aki tell me the truth"
I couldn't tell him,i just couldn't!
So i told him that the doctors said i was fine.
Koichi: "i don't believe this bullshit!"
Koichi: "first a nosebleed", "now you're coughing blood" , "we're going to the hospital"
Me: "Koichi please believe me im fine"
Koichi: "you're not fine Aki"
Me: "koichi the doctors said i had to drink a medicine that will get rid of all infection in my throat so that's why im bleeding", "it's just a little blood.
I came with a dumb excuse, Koichi didn't look convinced but he said if i keep coughing like this he will make me go.
Koichi once more looked on to my lips and then looked into my eyes, he said that my almond eyes we're just so beautifull.
"Was he gay too?", i repeated in my mind.
Then suddenly he kissed me, a strong emotion came again, "that" emotion. One i didn't feel in a long ass time.
He looked away and said he was sorry.
I grabed his face and kissed him back. We didn't stop.
We started stripping off our clothes and we went on my bed,
That day i had pleasure a huge pleasure, not lying his thing was huge but... that wasn't what mattered to me, what mattered to me was if he loved me or not.
We kept doing it till night, we stopped around the 1 am. I know what you're gonna say, "damn akitake you're such a perv" well maybe i am. Something i knew it wasn't a good idea to do it that night, not because i didn't like it but because we had to leave USA for vacations. Well atleast vacations for them.. for me it was like returning to hell again.
I went to take a shower and woke Koichi up for him to take a shower, i prepared breakfast for koichi and me.
After we finished we left to Koichi's house to pick some extra clothes and his luggage because he had to change his clothes.
Then we left to the airport.
it was 6:45am,15 minutes before our flight. The whole group was there.
It was awkward for me and Koichi but we still kept talking and stayed as good friends but...
I think my feelings for Koichimaru changed.
Me pov: "What does Koichi feel about me and what is it that i feel for him?"
"Do i love you?"
"Or is it just the pleasure i had with you yesterday?"