Yieks! Today is my little sis 8th birthdayyyyy uwwwu! I quickly get up my bed and straighly go to bathroom and took a bath for just a whole damn 10 minutes! oh God! I'm in a real hurry rightnow! I promised my little sis that no matter what I will be there at her special day! No matter how sleepless I am,the past few months due to my exhausting job brrrrr HAHAHA after I took a the quickest bath in the world I hurriedly answered my ringing cellphone.
"Where the hell are you now Kaye?your sister is waiting for you the whole night and don't you dare tell me you're not gonna make it 'cause I swear you'll probably experience hell"
And just like that my mom turned off her phone. arghhh! I really hate how would she act like a freaking boss of the bosses whenever we're talking! she didn't even let me explain and tell her I slept really really late last night trying to earn money additional for Sissy's birthday? Jesus Christ! I unconsciously thrown my phone at my bed leading it to bounce and hit the floor with a loud bang. right just right.
and after fixing myself after a few minutes I grabbed my shoulder bag and harshly open and closed the door leaving my roommate with anger in her eyes. oooops sorry I didn't mean it! kekeke I'll just ask for forgiveness when I got back.
Sweating, trembling and pissed. I'm almost 45mins in this van and we're still stuck here! the driver didn't even turned on his air-conditioner! wtf?I wanna keep myself calm and collected but my ringing phone is freaking not helping. my momma is calling me for the 10th time now and I could already imagine her smoking nose from anger Jesus Christ!I'm real dead this time,I wasn't answering it 'cause it' will just add fuel to my raging anger and I don't want this driver to get busted by me when I explode and cringe may it sound,I'm now real scared to even took a glimpse at my vibrating to hell phone. Mom,she's probably imagining how to kill me now.
For the 13th ring I've gain enough courage to answer my phone,I have to answer it and explain or else I'm dead! just like how movies work,my trembling hands and shaky eyes slowly swiped the answer button of my Android and put in right in my ears with closed eyes,not minding my seatmate who's looking confused like hell.
"WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU!FOR PETE'S SAKE, YOU'RE GETTING LATE. JAJA KEEP ASKING WHERE ARE YOU NOW,AND IF YOU'RE GOING TO MAKE IT? PLEASE SPARE SOME PITY TO YOUR SISTER KAYE,I DONT WANT HER TO FEEL SAD ON HER VERY OWN SPECIAL DAY"
deep breath,inhale, exhale.
"Okay okay mom,I understand....I was supposed to be there at exactly 8am but the van I'm in right now is still stuck due to seat vacancy, please do understand mom. I was dead tired yesterday because of the nonstop clients and to my exhaustion I didn't even get to hear my own alarm clock. And at this moment?I'm doing my best to be there on time but it's the timing isn't with me."
I tried my hardest to keep my voice stable when I spat those words to mom,and I myself is even confused how the hell I managed to act that way?I have my own anger limitation issues with my family that's why I'm surprised. But to be true,this is not the right time to argue well there's no right time to argue really,but I realized for once maybe....I want to have decent talk with my mom.
And for once in years,I was thankful my mom turned her phone off even before she could answer.
And thankfully after the long wait,the van gets loaded fully finally and it started moving towards our desired destinations.
The whole ride just took 30mins to be exact,and the moment I step out from the van my lil sissys made their way to me and one by one gave me a hug awwwww I feel like I never got home for a very very long time. I went my way to my dad's momma and pappa to give their hands a kiss and to my dad and lastly my mom and finally my youngest down syndrome sister! I showered her with sweet little kisses awww I miss this baby soo much. I was her babysitter since she was born,well same with my 2 sisters but I can tell she's the closest to me. I just can't really turn my back to this sister of mine,we may not be pure sisters but she's more like a daughter to me,I won't let anyone hurt this baby,not even my parents or cousins or anyone.
So the little party goes on, everyone was busy cooking the main courses of the night, preparing the table and chairs and busy chitchatting with family relatives and friends.I am currently lying in my bed rightnow,i realized it's been also a long time since the day i slept here when we got released from being quarantined to one of the quarantine facilities here in our province,it's took as half a month to finally got out of that he'll hole and it's not pretty bad staying there but not also pretty good. it's boring,just me and my phone most of the time,not good data connection and most of all howling voices every freaking night. As I am relieving my past life back there in Cebu,out of nowhere my phone rang and I quickly pick it and sees my workmate in the caller I.D.
"hey bitch wassup?you were out and Ma'am Gen was looking for ya" Says Rose,my bestfriend.
"bitch I intentionally didn't took my day off last Thursday to save it for this day and I don't give a damn anyways" I rolled my eyes as if she can see me rightnow,that Gen will surely understand well,she should understand. It's my family special day and I couldn't be out of here today well I guess she's familiar with 'Family Time' eh?and to be true we got no contact to follow and it's not just me being stubborn anyways well in fact I just rarely do this so she should consider me for the mean time!
"I know bitch,but the thing is...you never told her" Rose.
"I didn't tell her 'cause knowing her,she would never allow me too, that money hungry hoe." I bluntly said,okay. I'm pissed now.
"Kaye!" Rose groaned.
"They were asking me the whole time,they keep insisting that I fucking know your whereabouts and I'm getting pissed now!" Rose.
"Then just save my ass! as what I'm always doin whenever your gone for some fucking reasons" I got her straight forwardly,she just can't act like she can't save me rightnow. She exactly know that this day is a special day that I can't miss.
"okay this convo is getting of nowhere,you owe me one k?"
I smirk.
"Bitch,you owe me 3"
tootoot.
She hangs up. Well?
I tiredly get back to my bed and just thrown my phone any freaking were it'll going to bounce and I just don't give a damn.
I unconsciously took a glimpse and my wrist watch and it's already 8pm yet the main visitors isn't here,I wonder are they still going to make it?I mean I heard they made a promise or a deal I must say with my sister ei?well, what's new right? promises are not made not to be broken. I smiled bitterly when bitterness slowly creeped out to my whole system as I once again remembered why I am somewhat not feeling okay rightnow.
Gerald....
I wonder how is he doing as of the moment,
is he okay?
is he doing well?
is he happy?.... talking with Rose?
A sudden tear fell out my eyes,as I remembered how Gerald the man I love chose Rose over me.
As I remembered how he confirmed to me that to begin with,it's always been Rose, it's been always all about her that I was just some kind of a spices for him to get to in to Rose's system yeah,I was just used.
I'm so useful right? HAHAHAHAH
opposite to what my mom's always mouthing. im useless,pain in the ass,to feed up bitch and many more.
Well sometimes I just can't blame people around me to not to stick with me 'cause damn! I have so many issues only few could understand. I tried,I tried,im always trying to get close with someone hoping that they'll understand me but I'm done,im sick of chasing attention and consideration maybe it'll just arrive in the right time? right time when everything is already on place by God's Plan I know.