Abigail POV:
It was 4 o'clock in the morning, when I was sleeping in my comfy bed, covering myself with a blanket. Sun was not out yet, thick dark clouds were masking the vast sky. suddenly I heard buzzing sound of my phone ringing, i took my hand out of blanket and found the phone on side table of my bed
"Who is calling me this early? "I said while yawning
I tried to pick up the call while I was still not fully awake and suddenly I heard someone crying ….it was my aunt , hearing her cry sent shivers down my spine.
"aunt! What happened? Is everything okay? Aunt please stop crying and tell me what happened "i asked her in one breath but she was still crying.
"your mom Abby [ crying] … your mom "
I interrupted her: "What happened to my mom? Aunt please say something you are making me nervous "
She tried to speak but she was still sobbing: "Please hurry, come here she's in hospital and she is not okay?
When I heard of my mom in hospital I couldn't think of anything. I just wanted to run to my mom. I canceled the call, put on my coat, took my wallet and keys and took a taxi to the station. I was sitting on the passenger seat in the train when it suddenly started raining, rain ran down the window and sky was leaden. I acted like everything will be okay but deep down, my heart was trembling with fear, with every rain drop my heart felt more heavy. I reached my hometown hospital. I got there and saw my aunt sitting on a bench weeping and crying. She saw me with eyes full of tears and pallish skin, she ran over here and hugged me
"Your mom….. Abby, your mom left us," she said with a quavering voice.
I felt like a roof fell over me. Suddenly my heart starts aching and tears start falling from my eyes and rolling on my cheeks, my body begins to feel hollow
I started screaming: "no, it's not true, we talked yesterday …[my voice stuttered] Please tell me it's not true … please my mom I want to see her...mom"
I was late, she already left me
Many days passed, they say time will heal you but with every passing second, my heart feels more heavy. I was not in stable condition for a few days. Aunt handled everything from funerals to taking care of guests. I was still in shock and couldn't believe that she was no more. I came back to my apartment. My aunt offered to let me live with her but I didn't want to burden her. I spent days and days in my apartment mourning over her death. My friend Joy helped me to clear my last documents from university. She also sent Vivi back so I can feel better after seeing her. But still I didn't know what to do. I couldn't accept her death.
My voice was echoing in the whole apartment: "she was everything to me. I was striving hard for her but she left me in this world where everyone is stranger to me."
"yukiyaa, my love, don't you leave me alone?" I started crying
"Mom, what am I supposed to do?"
Me stuttering to yuki "hey should I die [ silence for a few seconds] or we both should die together?"
yuki is sitting on my lap and licking her paws. "She left me alone. It would have been better if I died with her "
The feeling of hopelessness, depression and guilt was killing me inside. I was there with her for the whole week but I didn't know she was suffering from so much pain.
With a heavy heart full of grief I was walking toward the roof with a mind full of memories that we made in all these years. I swore the absence of the person you love is the heaviest feeling in the universe.
[sound of ambulance]
[people screaming]
One woman said: "Why did she have to jump from my building?"
Another women muttering with pitiful voice "Why did she take such a step? She was such a young beautiful girl."
[sound of police car]