I've always wished to have people around me that truly love me and don't expect me to be the all so perfect guy. People that saw me for who I truly was and are willing to help me rise to my full potential, people to call family.
Sometimes I think I would be better off without someone to tell me what to do. someone that expect good from me. I think I've never loved anyone other than my mother, but I can't really call the relationship I had with my mother love. Yes, she was the happy type of person while I was the complete opposite of almost everything she was. She held resentment deep inside her heart towards me even if she tried to hide it, it was like am a constant reminder of the biggest mistake in her life and as the years past the feeling became mutual.
I did love her, in my own way, but again, I know that's not how they love, I wonder if am capable of feeling for someone or if I even have the ability to feel this emotion they call love. Perhaps that's just another proof I am indeed a psychopath.
It's been a day now and I've been summoned by the boss. I use to think Scarface was dangerous when he was the one giving me missions but it turns out he too was just an ant compared with some people in the ranks of the 'Order'. His missions were simple, shot and precise. No need for thinking, it mostly required a show of force, at least that's how most of the guys do it.
Today is the fourth day since the day the lawyer came to me. I really have to call him, it's no good walking into a meeting and not knowing what to expect. But first I have to go to the big boss. It was still early in the morning, like usual I did my early morning routine and stepped out of my apartment, the only thing different was the gun behind my back.
Lately, things have been getting wild, I have come to know too much but also know nothing at all. The information is there in the file but I can't connect the dots, yet. One thing I know the family am about to be introduced to is very much involved in many activities alongside some other prominent families from all over the country, I believe most of these businesses are incriminating. On the other hand, the boss can just decide to finish me off and this time I have no valid reason for him to keep me alive aside from the obvious fact that the killing has only just begun.
I arrived at the entrance and the gates has been opened again. This proves most of my speculations are right, the Order is not that interested in his head for he knows how to clear his mess, all thanks to me. I covered my face with my hoodie like I always do. It's best some people don't know me, it keeps me safe from guys who are just bloodthirsty, some just like to get violence for simple and senseless misunderstanding.
In no time I arrived at the hall and he was just concluding a meeting with some men. They all went out through the back. I've come to believe only a few people know there was a back way out. Most of these men are well dressed and some of them are close to their late fifties. Some of them looked familiar but I ignored the thought. The boss has a good aura today, there must be something off. He turned in my direction and signalled for me to come closer. I didn't notice I was still at the entrance. I walked to where he was seated and sat down facing him.
Do you still want out? He asked.
Isn't that the reason I am working for you? I said.
How can you not see you are specially built for the kill? You are one of the best in my legion and our deal is going to be a bad decision for me. Have you thought of the possibility of staying even just for a little time?
I think not, my decision remains the same, sir.
Very well. Do you know any of those men that just left?
Why? should I know any of them?
Never mind.
The case of your father has been suspended. The family finds no reason for the case to be prolonged and besides it was later discovered that he was already dying before the incident. For once, I am glad you killed him silently, they say he died a painless and peaceful death.
Is that what you summoned me for or you like to hear yourself talk? Because I am getting pissed from your ranting. Do get to your point if you don't mind.
You don't have to be so mean, you must always remember I am after all your boss. Well, the reason why I summoned you here is, - - the Order has its doubts about the suitcase found in your last mission.
What do you mean?
They are not convinced you destroyed all the proof.
What do you think?
I would really like to believe and trust you for after all we are family, but, you are also a hitman and a con one at that. I would be a fool to trust your words, am not saying you didn't destroy the proof but all am saying is...
You don't trust me, fine, that's expected.
But I am no fool, They are discussing if I was to live, tell me if am wrong. And you just sat there and said nothing cause you feel you are off the hook.
One thing I don't understand is how you survived in the game for this long for all I could see now is that you lack the sense of reasoning, I mean no offence, sir. You've been watching me to see if I am going to lie, I could tell for your right hand is close to your back. That simply means you are insecure. You intent to kill me if you feel I am lying but the thing you've never thought of is, if you kill me, they will also kill you, eventually.
I want us to be on the same page so please put your mind at ease, the Order has nothing to fear from me. Why did you summon me?
You have your way with words James, even when you are begging for your life. You know something I do not and you've been talking less, you are too calm knowing that you could die today. You must know something, you always do and that's why you are quiet. That's what too many secrets do to a man, we talk less in other for we not to contradict ourselves, but I do believe in time you will share, people like you always do when their head is on the line.
This job is an inside job. Someone who has known too much and he's also a treat. In fact, you and this person must have crossed parts some few times.
Who is it?
A policeman. This one has no file for its a none paying hit.
I don't do none paying hits, thanks but I'll pass.
We do have an agreement, don't we?
Yes, but again I don't do none paying hits.
I would be the one paying you.
If am to take the job, you are to pay 80% of the money now and you pay the rest after the job is done and in cash. I don't want to be court up with the likes of you just in case, no offence.
Very well, but why cash?
How many accounts does the Order have? If I may ask.
I don't know, many.
Correct, they never send money twice for one account and you've never asked yourself why. Never write your mistakes in digital ink. The digital world never forgets. That's all I can say. So, who's the target?
Inspector Omoro.
When? I asked.
Within the next six days.
Alright then. Call me when you have the money ready. I'll be leaving for some time, maybe a day or two, don't ask me where I believe by then you would have my money. If that's all I would take my leave now.
James? You said if you die, they would also kill me, how do you know that?
Just common sense. but you know as they say, common sense is not common.
Do watch your back James, anyone can be your dark cloud. They said you get too close to your target before you strike and they don't like it, consider this a warning.
They are just scared, that's all.
Should they be James?
Honestly speaking, they should, I am after all a hitman and a con one at that according to your words.
You don't get to play the game of words when the Order is involved, believe me you know nothing and it won't do you good.
I got up and left the hall in silence. I could feel him looking at me as I left. They must have given him a very good reason why it was in his best interest if I was to die but, he knew better. I know he's scared of me, he's right hand is always close to his back every time we met trying to reach for his gun if anything was to go wrong. He also knows he needs me to keep on giving him information.
This last mission can be handled by anyone but what he really wanted to know was why the Order is killing him aside from what they told him.
Information you see keeps us alive and he needs me to keep him in power and he also knows it's in my best interest until it's not.