Is it possible to grow up to be a responsible man when one has never had a manly figure in their lives before? They say it takes a man to birth a man, if so, where does that leave the one's that grow up without fathers? There are too many men and not enough fathers and that in turn has drive many to be ruthless without emotions, most become monsters birthed by ghost fathers. I would like to exclude myself from this class but, I've known nothing else but independence.
It's 5 p.m. and the street is waking up to its normal routine of looting and robbing people just like themselves. Now I have to find out more info on the target.
The only person I know that can get me information about Tivo is Spaco. He is not that smart but he happens to know many of the big thugs in and out of town. His apartment is not that far from my own, it's safe that way. Most of us in the same circle live close to each other in case of an attack. I walked there in a matter of minutes. He's at home, as usual, this time of the day he is always at home resting. He works at a local wood market on the other side of town.
I knocked at the door and went in without an investigation.
Who goes there?
It's me, James, not to worry I come in peace. He walked out of his room to the parlour where I was already sitting in a leather chair.
What brings you here James, it's good to see you, did you hear?
of what? Osaze is dead.
I saw that one coming, it was Tage, wasn't it?
Did he tell you he was going to kill him?
Not at all, but he did tell me he was going to settle things with Osaze, that's how I knew he was going to kill the guy. Everyone knows the bastard can not be reasoned with, the only language he understands is blood and force, no surprise, he had it coming for a long time now.
Do you know where that leaves you in the circle? he asked.
Believe me, I have better things to do than think about circle business.
Tage is considering making you his second.
Tell him to find someone else please, enough gang talk, I came to ask you some questions about someone.
And who might that be?
He goes by the name Tivo. They say he lives in Udu, Ovwian to be precise. Do you know him?
Yes, but that guy is not someone you mess with. He is a very big hitman, well known, respected, and feared. He has a ring of heavily armed men with him two four seven. Why are you asking?
I happen to hear the name somewhere and I got curious that's all.
There is rumour he will be moving here very soon. Most of the guys here are welcoming the idea. His name is in the mouths of everyone and believe me, there is another bloody war coming.
I hope not.
You and I know it's not in our hands. The only advice I can give you is to watch your back, you are in danger.
Is there something you are not telling me Spaco?
Not at all, but you like to be on the safe side and these guys don't see things that way, you are either with them or against them, you cannot be neutral.
I don't have any connections with them, so why worry.
If that's what you tell yourself to feel better then I can't do anything about it but, you should know, the street talks.
Spaco has always been the guy with a large connection of info, it will not be a surprise if he knows about the organization, he might also know I am involved with them. He will never ask me directly but even if he did, he knows my answer will not be precise.
He was looking at me suspiciously before he said. Do you just want to know or you are looking for more details?
Let me say, something personal, like his daily routine.
If personal is what you are looking for, he has none. He's a bastard raised by his grandma, his grandma died some years ago, he has no wife or children, I believe you can imagine the rest of his story, but, where he goes is something else.
He likes to eat in a local restaurant in express junction, but only in the evening. like I said, he is never alone. if anyone wants to take him out that is the only window they have, he doesn't carry many men when he wants to eat, maybe the guy is a stingy boss.
If ever you are planning on doing something, which of course, you are going to deny, always remember I have guns for hire.
Why do you think everyone is a killer Spaco?
I like to think anyone can kill if given the right motive and in this case, I believe it is money.
There is nothing as such, and even if there is why do you think I will tell you?
Why not?
Cause you can just sell my info to anyone who offers you a good price or, am I wrong?
Very, I don't snitch. You of all people should know that.
If you say so, friend. It's getting late now, I better take my leave, it appears I am disturbing whatever you have going on inside your room.
You are very much invited to join he said.
I don't share, good night friend.
It is true everyone is capable of killing if given the right reasons. He knows everyone here must have at one point cause serious damage to another person and four out of ten survive. Most of us here are killers but not all knows about the "Order"
I will need some guys to do some more digging before I go for the kill, guys that do not know who I was. Spaco would be able to arrange the guys but then he would know too much. People gain and remain in power because they know things their enemies do not. Tage likes to work with me, most of the missions we've done together are successful, it's like they did nothing.
I called Tage to inform him of what I needed. Everything has to be done in less than two or three days. Without thinking so much I went straight home to rest my head, expect the worse and prepare for the best.
It's been hours now, around noon. The shootout was very loud and it seems it's not going to end. This is usual especially when power is about to shift to someone else, they kill themselves first even before the enemy arrives, but I've never been this involved. The big boss still has a lot of loyal guys in my area so I am safe for now. The noise of the shootout is becoming distant, a lot of guys must be dead by now. street thugs mostly. It's funny how they fight and die for things they don't even have an idea of. Most of them think they are fighting for their chairman in a bus stop where they take revenue from public drivers. How sad for it's a lot deeper than they think. Money earn from violence is the only thing they know.
I could not close my eyes again thinking, what if someone was coming to kill me in my sleep. No sleep for the wicked, isn't that what they say? I won't say I am one of the wicked but still, I can't classifier myself as one of the righteous, I happen to be the monster the streets created.
I found myself sitting in the chair facing the streets, the night is quiet and dark, it's hard to imagine so many people must have died already, like some of the bodies from the shootout are going to be lying there till dawn. while others it will be like drifting to the point of no return, at least that's what I like to think.
We tell ourselves life doesn't end here, if so, it makes no meaning at all, but no one knows, not really. We tend to believe the lies of religious men or the hypothesis of scientists but deep down we know, these are just the thoughts of one man passed on through time. We in turn adopted the idea cause it's the closest we can get to the truth. But again, these are just my thoughts, I wouldn't deny people from thinking what they want to believe in even if I had the chance. Our minds have proved to be the greatest gift I can ever wish for.
Monitored clock appears not to be moving but it is strange how the time runs when the mind is in deep thoughts. The human mind has its own time and it appears to be faster than actual time. It's already 6 a.m. As usual the normal routine of early wakers, they do their thing and go to work.
For some time now I have already forgotten the situation am in.
A new day has come again, I wonder what comes with it.