Exhausted.
Exhaustion. I think that's all it was really.
Helping people should be normal , it shouldn't have to make us tired. I think not enough people do it ; so it becomes a job for the people that do. The people that do , don't see it as a job ; however - they are clearly just nice people and they are right to think of it as anything but a job. It never was and never should be. It is a necessity. Something we should all be brought up doing - But happily. Out of love. Out of kindness.
The people with the best hearts , do , in fact , end up being the ones left most broken. drained . Tired.
The ones that really struggle at the end of the day.
They are the people that forget themselves.
I think I was becoming one of those people.