Now here I am sitting in the room by the window in a deep thought.
It's the next day, the day we were supposed to go on a vacation. You read it "SUPPOSED TO" The plan got cancelled as Lev has to complete his Mafia duties.
You might be thinking I am overreacting and maybe I am but still today we were to spend the time together just he and I no disturbance, no nothing but here I was sulking against the window all by myself.
All went to dump when he got call to go to one of the shipment place cause of some problem that could be solved by only him.
So here I am alone with no one at home as all of them were at some work or other.
Girls went to have a spa day. They asked me to join but I refused clearly not in the mood.
Boys went along with Levias to help with the work. About where is Ryder, I seriously don't have a clue and I haven't seen him since yesterday evening.
I dont even know when I have to leave and whether I will be given a chance to see others or not for the last time.
Just as I was thinking of leaving, my phone started ringing.
I made my way to where it was and without looking who called I picked it up. The dumbest tging I have ever done.
The voice that I don't wanna hear was what I heard from other side of the phone making my heart contract at all the negative thoughts.
"It's been long...I missed u love"
"SHUT UP" I wasn't in a mood to listen to his nonsense so I couldn't help but snap.
"Who got ur panties in twist, darling?" he spoke mockingly clearly knowing the reason behind my not so friendly tone.
"Why did u call?"
Even though I know the reason but still there was some hope that it won't be true and it's just my thinking. But God had something else planned for me.
"Pack ur bags. We are leaving today." He spoke leaving no place for any sort of argument.
"But"
"No buts and now hurry. There will be someone down to pick you up."
The hope I was hanging on snapped just like that leaving me helpless and powerless with nothing but to obey.
"Okay" I said defeated not having any other option to go with. I have to do it for Nia, for Lev and for my family.
Maybe I will be able to track down "X" it might not be that bad to go with him.
I was trying every possible means to convince myself but still in my heart I knew what it means to leave with him.
I don't know when I will be able to meet my king again. Even if we will meet again
Will the things be same?
Will he still care for me?
Will he blame me?
Will he hate me?
So many questions but no answers.
I was brought back to the present when Ryder spoke again.
"We will meet soon and I won't let you go this time love."
I cut the call not wanting to listen to his nonsense any further and started packing my stuff unwillingly. Hoping all this to be a dream.
~~~HALF AN HOUR LATER~~~
Right now I was on my way downstairs. With each step I was feeling suffocated. My legs were heavy not coordinating at all.
With much effort I reached the gate and opening it I was greeted by a Limousine waiting for me probably.
The driver came out and without saying anything he took my luggage and put them inside. Afterwards he opened the door still not talking neither looking at me.
Once inside I again got a call from Ryder. I so badly wanted to cut it but decided against it.
"I guess you are inside the car"
"Yes" My voice cold not giving away any emotions.
"Once you reach the main gate tell the gate keeper you have some urgent work and Levias know of it."
"Okay"
"Take care" He cut the call leaving me in the thoughts related to my future life.
What's gonna happen from here onwards? I don't know what's to come once I leave.
"Mam, You are not allowed to go alone." Tom the gatekeeper said politely.
"I know"
"Then mam" He continued scratching his head
"I have asked your boss and he said it's ok"
"But"
"Didn't u hear what I said? " I spoke rudely not exactly leaving any room for reasoning.
"Yes!! I mean..."
"Since you heard it, I am leaving."
"Yes mam" he spoke clearly defeated
Once outside, I released the breath I didn't know I was holding.
I looked back at the place I was going to leave behind, the place that has mine and Lev's newfound memories.
Now it's only memories I am leaving with. I felt a lone tear down my cheek followed by other.
Not being able to control, I started crying. Cursing myself for not being capable enough. Cursing myself for being so helpless.
Cursing myself for being useless.
The only thing I could do was cry and nothing else.