Ayana was stunned at her own thought. Once again, she has to admit that she loved having him close. That was not the right words since close might not be enough for her. She wanted to have him inside of her, she wanted their bodies to touch skin to skin. She liked it when she could see that she also gave him all the pleasure.
If this was in the past, she would not do something reckless like this. She would always prioritize her revenge and that means that she would not do something that might delay her revenge.
Luca's words earlier, although it means as a warning, of course means nothing more than a challenge to her. She did not fear or care about the consequences. She just wanted to feel him now. She would bear the consequences later. She also did not think that the man would really hurt her severely.