I've ruined myself. No, maybe you ruined me or maybe you fixed me. I don't know. I was fine before you or maybe I was never fine.

I know I know I've no right to say it now. Maybe you'll tear it even before you reach here. But if you're still reading.

I am sorry and I love you. I always did and I always will.

I was afraid, so afraid that I'll lose you. But how can I lose something which was never mine? You once said 'I'm like a sandcastle, high and mighty but I'll collapse, collapse into nothing.'

And I think I'm worse than it.

I'm not telling you all this so you can forgive me. I know you won't and you shouldn't but if possible, please remember me. I'm selfish right?

'You are a flower, a plastic one with no roots ' I said that but I realized you're something that will find a way to live to be happy. A world which have you can never be dark. Mine was beautiful too.

In the shattered memories I'm still dancing with you. And I'll keep dancing there.

I hope you can find happiness at a place where I don't reside.

Sincerely yours,

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P.s. I think we both are like seasons.. Opposite