To everyone who wants to live.

It's a beautiful moonlit night outside. Feels like the universe is glowing! Shining! Shining like it should. Some people find it really romantic! Some find it peaceful. But for a kinda depressed girl like me finds it worthless. Maybe it's not the night. For a girl like me who nowadays finds herself worthless! How can she talk about this phenomenal universe! It's so beyond her eyes. Let's not brag too much depressed talks. Here goes my little story... 20 September 2016. Read that date again. That's when my life started to chance. Growing up as daddy's little princess was the best thing I ever experienced. He was the perfect person for me like every father is to his daughter. Little did I knew my fantasies were about to break! My definition to perfect towards my pappa changed the day he was took to the rehab. Yeah! He was an alcoholic. A very aggressive one. And it took me a little time to understand that. Because the people we love, we can't take them as they aren't the one we think they are. He was in that rehab for 6 months. And I used to wait every day when will my pappa come! And after 6 months, the person who is technically and genetically my father finally came! But my pappa didn't. He was like this whole other person whom I didn't know at all. And that was the day I lost my pappa. It's hard for some people like me to see that person whom you love so much,Who loves you so much fading away slowly. Going away from you slowly. And that hit me hard! That's not even past tense. That's the present. It still hits the same! But here I am! Living. Not the way I wanted to but still! Breathing is also called living. Even though someone soul dies out of too much pain! As long as the heart beats! We call that person alive. And today I don't want to just breath and waste those beats of my heart. I want to live the way I want to. I want to overcome all those obstacles that are coming in between me and my pleasure,my peace. I know problems will be there. But I also know that there are solutions also. And I want to lead myself to the path of that solution. I want to make myself so emotionallly and practically strong that one day I'll be strong enough and will be able to tell him that no matter how he is! I still love him. And I always will. That daddy's little princess fantasy stopped a long time ago. But now I have to be daddy's pride. Life will keep pulling me toward problems. But I'll learn how to push myself back from those problems. Because end of the day, you have your right to live. Live the way YOU want to. Not the way everyone else chose or suggested for you. Because life is all about your inner peace. And you must find it.