Knowing that he might be taken away from me anytime, I made up my mind not to fall deeply in love with him so as not to be too hurt when it happened, but I couldn't. It seems as if everything leads to him.
He is always with me whenever I need him but seems so far away when I call him. I know I might be getting overly sensitive but I think the end of my love story with him won't end well.
we've been dating for three months but I still feel insecure about the relationship. Soon decided to ask him an important question. And that question is about his feelings for me, if there are real. I wanted to hear it from him, because hearing him say them will really mean a lot.
On that faithful Wednesday, I was in kitchen preparing dinner when he came around. I was actually alone at home before deciding to do the cooking. He never called to notify me when he will be coming and he never said he was coming. I was actually taking unaware.
I was so busy with the vegetable when I heard the door opening, I continued with my cutting thinking it was my parents coming back from their visit. But surprisedly no body called me to ask how I was doing with the cooking. My mom does that a lot. Turning to check who actually came back I nearly drop the knife on my toes. There he was, giving me that beautiful smile that do things to me. I wanted to shout but after seeing his smile I became dumb.
I was happy seeing him but I took advantage of the moment to accomplish my goal. And that was the question I wanted to ask.
He came in to meet me and naturally began to help me out. I was surprised to see him getting comfortable with the things in the kitchen. But didn't ask him questions about it, because I have something else to say.
"Felix, I have a question for you, hope you won't be offended about it?
"nope"
"ok" I said before I continued.
leaving the things at hand, I asked him. " how much do you love" not wanting to be disappointed, I added, "but if you don't love me yet, do you really like me much".
Felix left what he was doing to look at me and I couldn't read the looks he had with him at that moment. I began to wonder of he has ever like me before I talk of love. I began to feel so many emotions, but what he did answered my question.
He kissed me. OMG!!!!! He kissed me!!!!
I was so surprised that I don't know how to respond to it. I wanted to close my eyes but couldn't, cuz I wanted to see it was real. when he finally break the kiss, he said to me.
"I don't just like you, I really really love you. At first it was your personality that brought me closer, but being with you this few months I think it has gone beyond that. I know you feel like I am not serious with you but I want you to know that my whole world revolve around you. I think I have never falling for anyone like I did for you. Pls promise me that when I ask you to marry me you won't say no".
I was speechless. The hand he have round my waist has gotten a bit tight than it was before. I was afraid that I would have fallen down from the shock I just got from him.
No one has ever confessed to me like he just did and I think am not sure of what I just heard from him. I think he just said what he wanted from me.