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Chapter 2 - Chapter 1

They say art is the expression or application of human creative skill and imagination, typically in a visual form such as painting or sculpture, producing works to be appreciated primarily for their beauty or emotional power, however, I prefer the definition that art is the expression of one's feeling but what if they don't know what their feelings are?

Or what if they don't have feelings? Then what? Is it still called art?

I like to think of myself as an average person with no drama with an average appearance. It makes me some what humane however that's not the case since all I've done is caused trouble for everyone by just being in this world.

π΄β„Žβ„Žβ„Ž!

What am I even writing? it's not like anyone would read this junk anyways, is this how a novelist feels when they're writing or it's that I'm not putting my heart into these words?

I'm scared to even publish this, people will probably think I'm just trying to seek attention and hate me even more.

𝐼 π‘€π‘œπ‘›π‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿ β„Žπ‘œπ‘€ π‘™π‘œπ‘›π‘” 𝐼'𝑣𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛 π‘ π‘‘π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘–π‘›π‘” π‘œπ‘’π‘‘π‘ π‘–π‘‘π‘’ π‘‘β„Žπ‘–π‘  π‘€π‘œπ‘›π‘‘π‘œπ‘€ π‘€π‘Žπ‘‘π‘β„Žπ‘–π‘›π‘” π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ 𝑔𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑙𝑒 π‘‘π‘’π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘  π‘œπ‘“ π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘ π‘˜π‘¦ π‘Žπ‘‘π‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘›π‘–π‘›π‘” π‘‘β„Žπ‘–π‘  π‘€π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘‘π‘β„Žπ‘’π‘‘ π‘€π‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘™π‘‘ π‘€π‘–π‘‘β„Ž 𝑖𝑑'𝑠 π‘π‘Ÿπ‘¦π‘ π‘‘π‘Žπ‘™ π‘π‘’π‘Žπ‘’π‘‘π‘¦.

whatever the case may be it doesn't change the fact that no one will ever accept my existence even though I've known this for years but just being with them is okay.

π·π‘œπ‘œπ‘Ÿ π‘π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘Žπ‘˜π‘–π‘›π‘” π‘œπ‘π‘’π‘›...

"Hisui honey I know you can hear me your Dada coming home today so please go to school, you know how he gets when he sees you...just please okay, you know I love you, right honey"

𝑀𝑦 β„Žπ‘’π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘‘π‘  π‘Ÿπ‘Žπ‘π‘–π‘›π‘”. 𝐼 𝑗𝑒𝑠𝑑 π‘˜π‘›π‘œπ‘€ π‘ β„Žπ‘’ β„Žπ‘Žπ‘  π‘‘β„Žπ‘Žπ‘‘ π‘π‘Ÿπ‘Žπ‘§π‘¦ π‘™π‘œπ‘œπ‘˜ 𝑖𝑛 β„Žπ‘’π‘Ÿ 𝑒𝑦𝑒𝑠 π‘Ÿπ‘–π‘”β„Žπ‘‘ π‘›π‘œπ‘€ 𝑏𝑒𝑑 π‘ β„Žπ‘’ π‘ π‘Žπ‘–π‘‘ π‘ β„Žπ‘’ π‘™π‘œπ‘£π‘’π‘  π‘šπ‘’. π‘†β„Žπ‘’ π‘™π‘œπ‘£π‘’π‘  π‘šπ‘’. 𝐴𝑙𝑙 𝐼 π»π‘Žπ‘£π‘’ π‘‘π‘œ π‘‘π‘œ 𝑖𝑠 𝑏𝑒 π‘Ž π‘”π‘œπ‘œπ‘‘ π‘”π‘–π‘Ÿπ‘™, 𝑔𝑒𝑑 π‘”π‘œπ‘œπ‘‘ π‘”π‘Ÿπ‘Žπ‘‘π‘’π‘  π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ π‘’π‘£π‘’π‘›π‘‘π‘’π‘Žπ‘™π‘™π‘¦, π·π‘Žπ‘‘π‘‘π‘¦ 𝑀𝑖𝑙𝑙 π‘ π‘‘π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘‘ π‘™π‘œπ‘£π‘–π‘›π‘” π‘šπ‘’ π‘Žπ‘”π‘Žπ‘–π‘› π‘Ÿπ‘–π‘”β„Žπ‘‘? 𝐴𝑛𝑑 π‘šπ‘Žπ‘¦π‘π‘’ π‘šπ‘¦ π‘ π‘–π‘ π‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿ 𝑀𝑖𝑙𝑙 π‘™π‘œπ‘£π‘’ π‘šπ‘’ π‘‘π‘œπ‘œ π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ 𝑀𝑒 π‘π‘Žπ‘› π‘Žπ‘™π‘™ 𝑏𝑒 π‘Ž β„Žπ‘Žπ‘π‘π‘¦ π‘“π‘Žπ‘šπ‘–π‘™π‘¦ π‘Žπ‘”π‘Žπ‘–π‘›.

"And don't embarrass our family again, keep up your clean record and remember to let your sister friends play with you, you're friends with them right?"

πΆπ‘™π‘–π‘π‘˜!...

π‘ƒβ„Žπ‘’π‘€ π‘‘β„Žπ‘Žπ‘‘ π‘ π‘π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘’π‘‘ π‘šπ‘’...π‘†β„Žπ‘’'𝑠 π‘”π‘œπ‘›π‘’? π‘›π‘œ π‘ β„Žπ‘’ 𝑗𝑒𝑠𝑑 π‘ π‘‘π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘‘π‘’π‘‘ π‘‘π‘œ π‘”π‘œ π‘‘π‘œπ‘€π‘› π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘ π‘‘π‘Žπ‘–π‘Ÿπ‘ .

πΈπ‘›π‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘  π‘ β„Žπ‘œπ‘€π‘’π‘Ÿ...

π‘‘π‘Ž-π‘‘π‘Ž-π‘‘π‘Žπ‘Žπ‘Ž π‘‘π‘Ž π‘‘π‘Ž

𝐼 β„Žπ‘Žπ‘£π‘’ π‘‘π‘œ π‘€π‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘˜ β„Žπ‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘‘ π‘ π‘œ π‘‘β„Žπ‘’π‘¦ π‘π‘Žπ‘› π‘™π‘œπ‘£π‘’ π‘šπ‘’ π‘Žπ‘”π‘Žπ‘–π‘›...π‘Ÿπ‘–π‘”β„Žπ‘‘?

𝐸π‘₯𝑖𝑑𝑠 π‘ β„Žπ‘œπ‘€π‘’π‘Ÿ...