In her mind, she pondered over his every action towards her since they had met, if perhaps they had known each other before they became co-workers. But that would be impossible, right? He is an Idol, so when did he start to realize that he likes her? Because in the way Emy sees it, Saff has always been consistent with his sweet words and gestures towards her from the beginning of their encounter.
"Your face seems new to the company as I've never seen you there before, that's why I just assumed and welcomed you" Saff answered trying to be honest, though he didn't mention the whole story beyond it.
Emy nods at Saff before she ask again "Then when did you start feeling that you like me?" her voice is calm but her heart starts to beat fast again, her gaze shifted back and forth from his eyes covered with sunglasses to his beautiful lips. For once, Emy just wanted an answer about it as she was pondering in that question for quite some time now.
"I think it was when I first saw you" Saff answered, his voice holds confidence with his solemn words, and though his eyes are covered now, his stares are fixed directly at her.
Emy felt her heart skipped a beat with his word, and then she heard Saff spoke again "did you remember our first encounter?"
Emy's eyebrows knitted at Saff's question as she was quite intrigued with it, as if he is asking to confirm something from her when they both knew when was that. "That day when I almost fell because of the camera man and you catch me, no?" she tried to answer confidently only for Saff to stare unresponsively that somehow she doubted her own answer.
"Have you forgotten or you just didn't remember?" Saff asked instead of giving clear answer, his voice calm but his face holds melancholy emotion.
'Oh great! Another intriguing question to ponder on' Emy thought to herself now as she will be racking her brain out again to figure this one out.
"Am I forgetting something?" Emy questioned after a question, this is really confusing her.
"Don't concern yourself so much with it, I'm just teasing you anyway" Saff stated as if trying to change the topic for Emy to exhaled a relieved sigh after.
Although Saff had expected that she wouldn't be able to remember that night at the bar, he still tried to test if she will recognize him or more like he had hoped that she would remember him, but then he was wearing a mask and a hat that night at the bar and his eyes were the only visible part that Emy could possibly remember, and that makes it a little more impossible for her, right? With given fact that she was drunk that night.
All those things that he had done just to have this moment with her now, If only he could, he would have confess to her right away, 'Seems like I'm someone who should have a stalker but it turned out that I have been the one whose stalking on someone' he chuckled at the thought of it.
Wondering what seems to be funny now, Emy asks "Saff, did you have a manager before me?" unhesitating and without beating around the bush, she gathered her confidence to talk about this topic.
"Yes" Although Saff was taken aback by her sudden question he still managed to answer in utter cool and calm composure.
"Did she resign because she was getting married?" As if confirming it with him,
"Hmm" he answered in a hum, trying not to say more about it as he knew that it's just a makeup story.
'It's weird though, is it because Manager Kate just got drunk that night that she mistakenly twisted the fact?' Emy thought to herself.
It's not that Saff wanted to hide the truth by not telling her the whole scenario, though he doesn't have any ill intention about her, he decided to keep it all to himself. In that way, it would be simpler for her, less confrontation and less complication, since she doesn't remember anything about that night and the photo he decided to keep it that way.
Emy didn't ask more about it, thinking she would just get back to it with Manager Kate or maybe with Manager Anne would be a better idea. She instead asks "When you saw my daughter, didn't it bother you that I must have a husband?"
"No, Didn't I tell you before about my connections? Besides, I don't see a ring" Saff simply answered after finishing his mug of coffee.
"Is that why it didn't surprised you when I've told you about me being a widow and a single parent?"
Actually, it has been weighing on her mind since then, she wanted to figure him out, but she couldn't fathom why he seemed unsurprised about her revelations. Instead, it is her who was surprised at that time when she became utterly indiscreet about her private life and just blurted it out on him, but then he didn't even appeared as troubled or dismayed about it.
"Hmm" Saff nods as he answered in a hum.
Emy's eyebrows furrowed, 'Does his connection came from the Admin Department who handled my profile? It should not be the Managers as I just told them about it' she thought to herself.
"You knew and you didn't bother to ask about it?"
"It's your past and I thought it wouldn't be nice of me to be asking you about your past, but I would like to listen when you're ready to open up about it" his voice gentle to Emy's ears, he smiled to her as if giving assurance that there's nothing to worry about it.
Noticing Emy had finished eating the pasta and shrimp, he placed bottled water beside her mug of coffee, and then he heard her continue to asks "You knew it all this time, don't you? Before you had seen my daughter, you already knew about it?"
"Hmm" Saff nods once again as he answered in a hum.
"Is that why you're not even surprised of me having anxiety attack when I first ride your car?" her eyebrows rose as if finally it made sense to her now.
"Hmm" his lips set in a thin line as he nods admitting the fact.
Emy took the mug of coffee and drink it all up until there is nothing left in the mug and it's a good thing though that it's not that hot as it was before. But she wouldn't even have noticed it with the way their conversation had turned out now. There is a sudden tension that is growing in her and she tries to shake it out of her shoulders.
"It seems that you have figured me out all this time, but why does it feel like there is something I couldn't decipher about you or about all this?" Emy bluntly stated, confusion was written all over her face.
Having answers from the questions she has been pondering on, seems not enough for Emy. There is something missing, like a puzzle she can't solve because of a missing piece. She still couldn't figure it out as to where Saff is coming from?
Why did he seem to be so interested towards her to the point that he may be wasting his time on getting all this information about her? And who is this someone that he is referring to as his connection that he was talking about?
Saff who is staring at her, took off his sunglasses as he wanted her to look through his eyes before he speaks "Emy, are you ready to ask why?" his voice calm and solemn, his eyes slightly narrowed at her as he focus on her answer now.
Once again, question over a question.
"What if I say yes and did asked why?" her voice holds uncertainty as she asked.
"Then there is no turning back from your words, If I were to answer your 'why' you should make a stand and have courage to hold my hand" Saff confidently answered, he shows stern face at his words.
"And by that...You mean…Making it official between us?" she asked to confirm as to make it crystal clear.
"Yes, you will be mine"
Hearing those words that came out from his beautiful lips, Emy's heart skipped a beat as she stared at him, somehow making her speechless.
Noticing it, Saff continue to say "With my current work and status in the entertainment industry, there are so many issues that we would be encountering, we will be facing difficulties, and that is reality. This risks along with me as your boyfriend is like a package deal that you will be dealing with. If you are ready to ask me why I chose you, and answer it, then that is the time that I will be expecting a commitment in return from you. Otherwise, all my effort to get this far with you will all be going down in vain"
Emy finally regain her voice and asks "Th-then…What if I don't have the courage to ask why?" her voice slightly stuttered as she can't shake off the tension within her now.
"Then don't keep me hanging...Say that you don't like me, but you will have to say it in front of me when that day comes" Saff responded with his gravelly voice.
Emy somehow felt a pinched of pain in her heart when Saff said those words, and she suddenly remember when she had told her mom about him, when she had express her complaint about what she is feeling now towards this young man in front of her and their current situation.
'Indeed! Everything about him is complicated' Emy thought to herself, as if confirming her initial impression about him.
Emy is weighing her options now, but she never would have expected that both options are requiring great amount of courage from her. Somehow she wanted to regret feeding her curiosity now as it just only leads her to more confusing matter that she will be pondering on for the next few days.
Emy came back from her deep thoughts when she heard Saff spoke,
"Take note, if you will choose to say that you don't like me, the final decision is still up to me" he sternly stated.