Her whole world collapsed since that accident happened, she took a month leave from work because she was unable to focus.
She decided to sell their marital house because she can't stand to sleep there anymore knowing that her husband will never be home with her again.
Every corner of that house were full of her husband's memories and it just keeps playing through her head, over and over again making her feel more lonely and longing for him to come back.
It is like she can't breathe, the feeling of loneliness was so suffocating that it was dragging her down into a deep dark hole.
So she decided to move back to her mom's house in which eventually, she also decided to totally resign from her work because she felt like she was not emotionally stable and efficient for the job, she did not want to drag down the company along with her situation.
As days and nights pass by, the feeling of losing someone, guilt, and loneliness just keeps on crushing her heart. Eventually, she had developed this habit of drinking every single night just to get it through another day, spending her savings just to drink at Psycho Suzi's Bar since then.
All of these life events were witnessed by her two best friends; Harry and Ada. In fact, It took several months before Emy was able to ride a car again because of her trauma, but she can only ride Ada's or Harry's car, so if she needed transportation, she would prefer to ride a train or bus but not a taxi or van as it brings back tragic memories from the past that sends chill up to her bones.
She was convinced to see a psychologist for professional help, but she still needs more time to be able to totally let go of her fears and her grief, as for now she just go with the flow, she just go with what her body can only tolerate, but she knows she still has a long way to go before she finally can let go.
The bedroom door flew open and it brings back Emy out of her deep thoughts when she heard
"Mommy! "
A six year old girl came rushing towards her and hugged her. "Mommy I missed you, I tried my best not to fell asleep last night just so I can wait for you to get home…I'm sorry I was not able to sleep with you again last night..Grandma took me to her bed again" Tamary said as she pouted her lips while hugging Emy.
"Amy my love, you don't have to wait for mommy to get home...if its late then you should go sleep with grandma",
"But mommy I want to hug you so you will never have nightmares when you sleep..." Amy said and Emy felt touched by her daughter's words.
She stare for a while at Amy's angel like face, she has green eyes and caramel blonde hair that she inherited from his father and long thick eye lashes and porcelain skin tone just like hers.
Tamary or Amy was only five years old when the accident happened, she was also in grief but still grateful that after all she still has her mom with her.
"Mom we still have each other...I love you",
Emy hold her tears and hug Amy tight, having her child still gave her enough reason to live after all this empty space.
Both the mother and daughter came down the stairs together and rush to the kitchen as soon as they smelled the pancakes, Mrs. Prim; Emy's mother was up early cooking their breakfast. The three of them starts eating together on a medium round table while talking to each other about just anything, and then Amy took the remote to turn on the TV that is mounted at the wall of their dining area. She started watching the music channel as she was also fond of listening to music like her mom, then just right on time her favorite Idol group's latest music video played on TV.
"Mommy look at this! I like their new single! I started following them on their social media accounts since last year" Amy excitedly told her mom. "You follow them? When did you have your own social media account?" Emy is confused; her eyebrows furrowed and a bit shocked 'she is only six years old!' Emy exclaimed in her mind.
"No I don't have my own yet, but I'm using grandma's! For now..." Amy said with a naughty smile,
"Mom? You let amy have access onto your social accounts?! Since when?!" Emy is starting to get worried.
"Oh! Don't worry I'm with her, she is under my supervision" Mrs.Prim said and wink at Amy.
Emy just rolled her eyes and surrender, just then her phone rang and she quickly answered "hey Ada! How are you?"
"Hi dear, Open the gate" and the door bell rang, Emy quickly opened the gate to let Ada came in after she parked her luxurious car at the front gate.
"you are always like that to me and I am surprised as always!" Ada laughs teasingly to Emy's words of cute protest as they walk entering the front door.
"tata ada!" Amy said as she rushed to Ada welcoming her with warm hugs, she was used to call her that way since she was toddler.
"Hello cutie! Tata is missing you already so I'm here!" Ada said as she hand over to Amy her favorite manju cake, she also hugged Mrs.Prim as she was very close with Emy's family since their senior high days, then as if they are on preprogrammed reaction Mrs.Prim took Amy to the living room and accompany her to give Ada and Emy room to talk in private as the two went to sit at the terrace.
"Something important came up?" Emy ask Ada, "nothing serious my dear but this might be the start of something good for you" Ada said smiling excitedly.
"I told you I don't like blind dates!" Emy exclaimed protesting at Ada as if expecting that she would refer another man for her to date again.
"No it's not like that! After you rejected for like a 100th times already! You think I would still refer some guys to you? I would just take them all then than to get rejected again!" Ada said as she rolled her eyes and Emy gave a naughty smile, they both laugh.
These past several months, Ada has tried to pair up Emy with different handsome bachelor men that she could date, thinking this would help redirect her attention from the tragedy that she had experienced. However, not once did Emy tried to attend any of the blind dates that Ada had set for her.
"Okay okay…So what is it really?" Emy asked,
"You know one of my clients, the company that handles the idol group called Star" Ada answered looking directly at Emy who stares back at her, Ada's voice now are full of enthusiasm.
"Yah I know them, what about them?"Emy said with her face seemed not as interested as she nods waiting for Ada to tell it all.
"I spoke to one of the idol's manager last night and she was asking me a favor if I could refer someone that will qualify to managerial position and I immediately thought about you my dear!" Ada said with her unswerving enthusiasm.
"Why me?" Emy answered a bit confused as her eyebrows furrowed.
"Why? Simply Because I know you can do it! That's why! O come on dear...The Company is not just some random company; we are talking about Sky Hype Entertainment here!" Ada answered trying to convince her.
"What happened to the previous manager then?" Emy asked being skeptical about it.
"Ah...she resigned because she will be getting married next month and she needed to focus on her marital life first…" Ada answered, somehow feeling not marked at ease after a short period of silence between them as mentioning about marital life, a topic that she knew became sensitive matter for Emy.
Ada as if feeling the tension formed in the air, spoke again "look Emy…i just thought this could be a good start to redirect your mind from everything that happened..Well aside from getting high salary, you could also use your experiences from your previous job at the fashion magazine, and what's more you can finally let out your hidden talent to some good use! You can put some suggestions when it comes to their music and compositions".
"You know ada…I'm not sure if I'm ready...if I can give such passion for work again" Emy answered with her voice a bit melancholy.
"How will you know if you would not give it a try…You know harry and I always got your back, right? So if anything bad happens we will be with you as always. It's just that maybe...Just maybe this could be a good start to pull you back on your track again..."Ada wholeheartedly said to her best friend with her solemn words.