Slight! Warning!
THIRD'S PERSON
Crest and Zander are walking together, as their houses are near each other. Their club activity finished just now. Everyone was working hard for the upcoming School's Fest Music Band Performance. Crest had been composing songs, she wrote down every line that came up to her head, not leaving a single word.
Apat na buwan. Apat na buwan na ang naklilipas simula nang sumali si Crest sa Music Club. Hindi man niya gustong aminin ngunit napalapit na nga siya sa mga miyembro. Everything was going well, lalo na at walang pinagsabihan ang dalaga tungkol sakanyang 'sikreto' . Sa totoo lang ang tingin sakanya ng mga kasamahan niya ay isang misteryo. Whenever they're asking her about her personal life, it's obvious that she's dodging the question. She's not that open regarding her past, the one time she told about the members about what happen to the Global Band Competition in New York, was the only time they heard her talk about it.
The messy haired boy looked at the girl walking beside him, these four months was eventful. Everyone warmed up to the girl and vice versa but she's closest with Zander since they're together all the time, from their classes to club activities and after-school-hang-outs, and Roux since Crest is sometimes helping the short brown haired girl with her managerial duties.
Zander kind of feel bad. Alam nilang lahat na malapit talaga silang dalawa ni Crest, pero bakit pakiramdam nito ay parang wala siyang nalalaman tungkol sa magandang dalaga, pakiramdam nito ay ang layo layo ng babae. Too far to reach. The members are proud that Crest is being smiley and not afraid to laugh in front of them anymore, but they can't help but notice the sadness behind her smiles. Why?
What's the reason?
"Hey Zan" Crest thought about that nickname a few months ago.
"Yea?" His black eyes met her gray ones
"What is music to you?" She asked while staring at the starry night above
"To me? Uh...Music to me is hope and music for me is life" He grinned
"Huh?" Naguguluhang tanong ng dalaga
"If you ask me what is music TO me, then it's hope! But if you ask me what is music FOR me, the answer is life"
"What's the difference in that question?"
"The question "What is music to me" is like asking me what is music to my life and the question "What is music for me" is like asking What is music for myself."
"That's weird but kinda smart, wow, You're improving!" Pagpuri ni Crest
"Hehe ako lang toh"
"But base on you answer, basically music is the hope to your life and life for yourself"
"Yup"
"One more question" Paghirit pa ni Crest
"Shoot! Dumadaldal ka na ngayon ah" Binalewala ito ni Crest at nagpatuloy sa pagsalita
"If you didn't approach me that day, do you think we will still be friends?"
"Would it really matter? Ano ngayon kung hindi kita nilapitan nung first day?... alam mo Crest, kung itinadhana talaga tayong maging kaibigan (Or malay mo lovers) pagtatagpuin at pagtatagpuin tayo ng tadhana, It might be in a different time or place or ibang pagkakataon magtagtatagpo padin tayo. Hindi lang naman ang paglapit ko saiyo noon ang tanging pagkakataon upang paglapitin tayo ng tadhana. So the answer is Yes!" Masiglang sagot ni Zander
'Destiny?.... Will destiny do it's work and let us meet again? But since I'm still stuck in this world, all I know is.... The one whom I trust the most is....Zander'
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FIRST PERSON
I plopped down on my bed after taking a shower. Narinig ko na tumunog ang cellphone ko kaya kinuha ko ito at binuksan.
Cliff😎
Tulog ka na? Tulog na para makatulog ka
Sent at 7:35 pm
I smiled at his dorkyness. Binuksan ko pa ang ibang mga mensahe
Rouxyourboat⛵
Can you send me your measurements? Para maready ko na yung mga club jackets natin.
Sent at 7:50 pm
Tinext ko dito ang mga hinihingi niyang measurements at pinadala din nito saakin ang magiging itsura ng jacket.
Zan🙀
I reached home. Pinagalitan ako ni mama 😭 I mean, it's not that late panaman diba? btw, let's have some mochi ice creams tomorrow! see you at school, goodnight!!!! 🤩
Sent at 8:16 pm
I smiled at his text.
Oh Crest....what have you done?
My smile immediately dropped at the thought. I shook my head at grab my video cam to record myself. I started doing this when I got here, instead of writing in a journal, I thought about recording a video on how my day went.
Sinet-up ko ang camera at pinindot ang 'record'
"Hello this is Crest Lumina and welcome to Entry # 182!
Me and Zan walked home together, like what we always do. The School Fest is near so me and the band are practicing hard, Sana lang madiscover ang club namin. My bandmates are all talented! I also learned how to play a violin, Bench taught me how.
I'm scared. I'm growing attached to them...my friends. I'm scared. What if yung masayang samahan namin yung maging rason para hindi makabalik?
I.... Don't want to leave someone again and I .... don't wanna be alone anymore"
I stopped the video and took a deep breath. I closed my eyes for a second to feel the air. Itinago ko ang camera sa dati nitong lalagyanan at kinuha ang cellphone para itext ang leader naming si Bench.
Crest
Hey Bench, Can I skip tomorrow's rehearsal? I need to do something important hope u understand :)
Sent at 8 :55 pm
After a minute, he replied and that was my cue to sleep.
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I wore my black oversized hoodie paired with black leggings. I put on my white headset and turned to max volume.
Lumabas ako ng apartment at binalewala ang mga taong abala sa kani-kanilang mga ginagawa. I skipped school to have time for myself, feeling ko kasi mababaliw na ako kapag hindi ko binigyan ng oras ang sarili. I'm happy, yes. Pero hindi padin mawawala ang pakiramdam na mag-isa ako. I feel so lost..... and I wanna go back home.
Umakyat ako ng rooftop sa isang building. The building is over 75th floor so it's quite tall. It's better.
I used the elevator and open the door for the rooftop. Bumungad saakin ang malakas at malamig na simoy ng hangin. The sky has a shade of yellow, orange, pink and violet. Perfect
Sinet-up ko ang camera sa isang gilid at pinindot ang record.
"Hey, Welcome to my last entry and for who ever will see this.... I hope you enjoy my story!"
THIRD PERSON
"Hey, Welcome to my last entry and for who ever will see this.... I hope you enjoy my story!" The girl's voice cracked at the end, she flashed a huge smile in front of the camera
Crest pulled her hair tie and let her hair down, she slowly walked to the edge of the building then took off her shoes.
Itinaas niya ang kaniyang mga kamay at ipinikit ang mga mata, dinadama ang paghaplos ng hangin sakaniyang balat
I feel so lost
I need him
Countless of memories flashed through the girl's head
"I will always love you"
"No matter what, no matter where you are, I will always find a way to be with you"
"You're mine"
"Love, What if I get lost? What would you do? What would I do?"
"Use the whole universe as your map, everything you encounter might be part of that map, wait patiently. I'll help you find your way back"
"Promise?"
"Yup, all you have to do is wait for me hmm?"
"Where are you now? You said you'll find me! Now, where are you!?"
"I trust you too Crest"
The girl froze.
'That was Zander's voice'
"I trust you so much and I'm glad that I met you. I'm thanking destiny for doing it's job well!"
'But why does it have to be here? Why?'
Crest was about to take another step forward when another thought came across her mind
"You're the hope in our life Crest.... And you're the life for ourselves"
Just like what music is to and for him.
'How can I be your hope when I can't find hope for myself? How am I your life when I am the darkness itself? How? why?'
"ARGHHHHHHHHH!" The brown haired lady screamed the top of her lungs
"ARGHHHHHH WHY!?" She couldn't take it anymore, napaluhod ito at sapo sapo ang ulo habang malakas na humihukbi.
The strong one broke down.
"Why, why, why, why" PAulit paulit na tanong nito sa sarili
"I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry" She mumbled while crying
Ilang minuto ang itinagal ng pag-iyak nito hanggang sa dumidilim na ang kalangitan. She fixed herself and wiped the remaining tears from her face
She looked at the camera recording the scene and smiled.
"I hope you enjoy my story.....
But I guess it's not yet done"